"He Put A Gun In My Mouth, Then Beat Me Up!" - Molly Bloom (Molly's Game)
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They put a gun in my mouth, beat the
hell out of me, and he said, "If you
tell anyone about this, I know where
your family lives."
For the first time in my life, I knew
finally it was game over.
I'm Molly Bloom.
Dubbed the poker princess.
The former waitress who took a small
poker game run out of a dingy nightclub
to the biggest underground poker games
in the world.
celebrities to millionaires
They literally made a Hollywood movie
about it.
The game turned from legal to illegal.
I had become the biggest game runner in
New York City.
Leonardo DiCaprio, Ben Affleck, and
Tobey Maguire, politicians. She was
making four to six million dollars a
year. It was unbelievable.
$250,000 buy-in.
So, I couldn't sit down unless I brought
$250,000 to lose.
That's right.
And you saw someone lose $100 million
dollars in a night.
Yes. This is where the science of how
you make people feel became a really big
tool.
And I would memorize people's lives, the
names of their kids, what they cared
about, favorite food order, drink order.
These things can absolutely be used for
good, but I just became obsessed.
What had been about trying to be an
entrepreneur and be gutsy started to be
exclusively about the money and the
power.
But I paid a huge price for it. I
started to partner with people that were
not the right people to partner with. In
the middle of the night, I get arrested
by 17 FBI agents, machine guns. They put
me in handcuffs, and they put this piece
of paper in front of me that says "The
United States of America versus Molly
Bloom."
The FBI gives you an ultimatum. They
were going to give you millions if you
snitched on the players in the game.
I had 48 hours.
What happens then?
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Oli,
what do I need to understand about your
earliest context to understand you?
Going right in.
Um
I think
it almost always starts with the family
uh in childhood and
I am from uh a family of you know, my
two little brothers are incredible
humans, but like the craziest
overachievers you can ever imagine.
And then I have these two
incredible parents who were very
powerful influences in our lives. My dad
stood on this platform of you cultivate
discipline and if you have a fear, you
walk through it and you learn how to
suffer constructively for your dreams,
for your goals.
And then my mom, you know, she was this
she insisted on kindness and integrity.
So there's this whole ecosystem of
extraordinary
and I didn't know how I fit into that at
all.
And I desperately wanted a seat at that
table.
And probably during the times that we
were raised, there are these ideas of
what success looked like and how you get
there. And it was
genius and talent and specific skill
set.
You know, but I knew
that I had to be successful or and this
is not hyperbolic, I literally did not
want to live. I mean, I remember when I
was applying to law school, I said to my
dad,
"If I don't get into an Ivy League law
school, I don't know like how
I don't want to live, you know?" And
Do you Do you mean that?
I
It's hard to know what you mean at 18
years old,
but
in my mind,
you
clear proof and evidence that you're
extraordinary by these accomplishment
accomplishments. And my brothers had
already started to make that happen.
And
Why law?
Mhm?
Why law?
Because one day at the dinner table,
my dad said to me,
"Do you like to argue and read a lot?
Maybe you should go to law school."
And then I And then I started to kind of
read books about the law and fiction a
lot. I I mean, I was I loved stories.
Um and and then started to think about
getting paid to argue for a living and
all the glory that could come from that
if you're fighting for justice or you're
you know, fighting to
save somebody who's innocent, you know,
the the sort of high points,
the aspirational
points of what it would be like to be
a lawyer in a movie or a book.
You're thinking about the glory.
Yeah.
Yeah.
For sure.
Why do you think you cared so much about
glory?
I don't think I cultivated much
self-esteem. I don't think I knew who I
was. And I don't think that I believed I
was inherently worthy. I believed that I
had to achieve something big, huge,
extraordinary,
worldly
in order to
to then
feel
relief from that existential ache of
that I that that followed me around my
whole life, you know.
So, you
you go off and try and pursue a a career
in law, at least that's what you think
you're going to do.
Yeah.
You're going to go to Harvard, right?
Well, I wanted to go to Harvard.
I didn't even end up
going at all or even finishing my last
semester and a half at school because
I just couldn't
I couldn't muster the the energy and
ambition it took to go
do all these things. I I just had
I had hit a wall and I think I was
really questioning
the conventionality of it all. So, I
ended up like not applying to law
schools and then just saying
I just need a year.
And
the closest place that was warm on the
ocean from Colorado in a straight line
was California.
When you moved here, um your father
again bringing him back into the
picture, he's a very ambitious person.
How did he receive this news that you
were
Not
coming to LA?
Not happy about it. Not going to
financially support it.
Really disappointed.
So, you get here and he's he's no longer
supporting you financially at all.
Mhm.
So, what do you do to make money?
I mean, I got a job. I had to get a job
the day I got here and I went to this
restaurant in Beverly Hills.
Went to a
you know, got a job for a couple days.
It was terrible.
And then I went to this other rest I'm I
went to this other restaurant and kind
of lied and said, cuz no one else was
hiring in this Beverly Hills area. And
it was a fine dining establishment and I
lied and said that I had fine dining
experience.
I got fired
a couple weeks later.
My boss said, "You're the worst waitress
we've ever seen and you've ruined like
thousands of dollars of bottles of wine
trying to open them."
He said, "But
you know, people seem to to take to you
and you're a hard worker, so why don't
you come work
for our real estate development company
as my executive assistant?"
Oh, so it was the boss of the restaurant
that
Yes.
offered you the job as the exec
Yes, they they had a bunch of holdings.
They had some real estate. They had some
restaurants. They had a fund.
So, you became his
EA, his PA.
Yeah.
And this led you to poker.
Yes. He came in the office one day and
he said, and they're always zany things
to it sort of like thrown at me.
And he said, um
I need you to serve drinks at my poker
game tomorrow night.
And I, you know, I tell this story cuz
it's just
so indicative of of the naivete and
where I was. I I do remember
Googling what kind of music do pick
poker players like to listen to and what
do they eat. And then I proceeded to
make this incredibly embarrassing
playlist with songs like The Gambler on
it. You know, and got this cheese plate
and showed up for this very fancy
uh
poker game in in Hollywood with
A-list
celebrities. And you know, there's some
names that
of people that have already talked about
being in the game and those are the
names that
I don't mind
naming just to give context. It was Ben
Affleck and Tobey Maguire and
Leo DiCaprio.
And then, you know, but apart from the
actors, it was also
the head of some of the biggest
investment banks in the world and the
head of some of the biggest movie
studios
and politicians who were household names
and
people in the tech world that were about
to take their
companies public. I mean, it was
it was unbelievable.
Quite a few people have come out as you
say and said that they were
they played in those games.
Yeah.
I I was watching a video earlier of like
even Dan Bilzerian I think says
Yes, Dan played.
He played in those games.
Was was Were those games that legal or
illegal?
Cuz
Legal to play in?
Legal to play in?
For sure.
Legal
I
What when I started running the games
I hired
uh
defense attorneys and had them analyze
the federal statutes and to help me
figure out a way
to do it legally because in the early
days
I wouldn't have done it illegally.
That was an evolution.
So you start as a basically an assistant
to the games that your boss is running.
These are secret games, right?
Right.
Very secretive.
Very.
And take me on the journey of what
happens next.
Okay.
So that first game
you know, I'm
just shell-shocked essentially.
And also really mortified about the
playlist and the cheese plate
from Gelson's, you know.
Um
but
but man am I intrigued.
You know, getting to be a at 23 years
old getting to be a fly on the wall
in this room
where the
these conversations are open and candid
and you are
I'm like you. I've always been
fascinated in psychology. I've always
been
an information data junkie. I love to
learn. I love to observe. And so this
was
as compelling as it could be.
And then I remember at the end of the
night because people were tipping with
chips.
It wasn't straight cash.
I remember making $3,000 for refilling
some drinks.
And so two things became really apparent
to me. One, this was incredible access
to a network of people that I don't know
if I would have ever had access to.
And to learn from people at this age of
23 when I didn't know who I was or who I
wanted to be. And number two, that there
was something that happened when there
was a token or a chip was the was the
economic system that made people very
liberal.
Cuz I'd worked as a wait, you know, I
was a I was a waitressing everywhere.
I'd hustle my butt off for a couple
hundred dollars a night. You know, all
of a sudden the chip is involved and
it's not real money.
So,
I
just became obsessed.
And so, I learned about poker.
I wanted to learn the rules of the game,
the vernacular. I didn't want to seem
like a novice.
Um
and then I started to try to figure out
how do I stay in this room?
And
this is where
one of the places where effective
presence became
a really big tool.
What's effective presence?
Effective presence is the science of how
you make people feel. Everybody has
their own emotional footprint that they
leave on the world.
And um there are
really marked things you can do
to have either positive or negative
effective presence or neutral, which is
also not great.
Um
so,
I remember talking to my mom.
And I remember saying,
"You don't even understand how
compelling this is."
And
I don't I want to stay in this room more
than anything, but I don't know how I
could ever confer value in this room.
Did you feel like you were going to be
kicked out of the room?
I just felt like maybe I was disposable.
Like maybe they would just bring in an
another
woman at some point to serve drinks.
Or you know, I just I didn't
I just didn't want to be disposable.
I wanted to find some reason
to be
to be valuable in that room to, you
know, and and to be able to come back.
And I start I was talking to my mom so
much about everything that I hoped to
gain and and
where my mind was going with this
opportunity.
And you know, that I said to her, "But
Mom, I I have no idea how to bring value
to this room. These people have
everything."
And she said something that was really
profound to me. She said, um
"You know, maybe instead of thinking
about all the things you want to get,
you could think about what you could
give."
And then she reminded me of that quote
by Maya Angelou that everyone loves and
loves to quote, which is people are
going to forget what you said and what
you did, but they're never going to
forget the way you made them feel.
And I thought about that and it's so
true.
And I guess I had this suspicion that
these people with their power and their
success
and their access
were different from the rest of us, that
they believed that they were worthy.
You know, that they didn't have harbor
that secret fear that they weren't good
enough.
And what I found
unequivocally is that that wasn't true.
And that many times someone at that
level
is even more convinced or needs even
more
validation.
And so I started to try to understand
how to make people feel important, seen,
heard, remembered, how to establish
trust, how to establish
authentic connection because something
that I realized
by observing these games is that
everybody wanted something from these
people.
That was the nature of the relationship.
And so if I could figure out how to
establish a real connection. You know,
there's there's emotional intelligence,
right? Which usually has a focus on the
outcome. How to win friends and
influence people. Effective presence is
more about being in the present with
someone,
focus on the connection, not the
outcome.
And
this is truly what I focused on um for
the first 6 to 7 months
is just
creating a real connection with people.
Observing them and and
you know, trying to
train my mind to focus on what's unique
about this person. What's truly unique
about this person and then getting to a
point where you're vulnerable enough to
say,
"God, I'm really fascinated by this
thing that you do." You know, whether
it's at the poker table or in business
or just in life and and focusing in on
the details and and really
getting outside of yourself and becoming
curious and becoming a great listener,
which by the way, you are an insanely
great listener.
Well, thank you.
Um, and I just have found, probably like
you have,
that there is such incredible value in
that and that no matter how much
somebody is celebrated or um, you know,
has
has a a public following or whatever,
it's so seldom that someone just sits
down with them and listens. Just gets in
it with them.
Tiffany, as you were saying that, I was
just thinking about how much of a
competitive advantage listening is. We
think that the competitive advantage is
had in speaking.
Mhm.
But I've If I've learned anything from
doing this podcast, it's that to truly
understand someone and then be able to,
in this context, ask them a question,
but in the world of business, to deliver
them a solution to their problem, which
is getting a sale,
to create the upper hand,
you simply have to listen.
Yes.
And you have to listen for as long as
you possibly can.
Yes.
And this is what what the great thing of
what I've learned from doing this
podcast, but
even from this conversation is I'm I'm
My next question is going to be so much
better for the fact that I listened to
you.
Right. And actively listened.
Actively listened.
Presently listened. I think we walk
around armored with our egos.
And I think that
true connection happens when somebody
when you're able to disarm somebody and
they're able to disarm you and the egos
slip away and it's just two people.
So when you go in and you start listing
off your accomplishments and painting
yourself as this
you know all of a sudden it's like
competition up ego's up and and then
there's not true connection.
You can't penetrate
No.
that kind of wall can't you? Both built
two walls between yourselves cuz you're
showing off.
Right.
You need the walls to come down to form
the connection.
Yeah.
When people hear that they go you know
this this idea of effective presence and
understanding how to be kind of a
different jigsaw shape piece to each
individual to get the best out of them
or what you want from them.
People will say oh manipulation.
Mhm.
Which you know the the fine line between
sales and persuasion and negotiation and
manipulation it's all there you know.
Is this positive manipulation?
So
effective presence, EQ, active
listening, all of these things that you
learn can absolutely be used for good or
they can be used for bad.
But I think something that is different
about at least the brand of effective
presence that I value
is it's about your experience connecting
with a human being.
It's not about for me cuz I used to do
that right? I used to if
the the way I used to do things is I
would do all my research on you and I'd
come in here with a with a few talking
points so that I could instantly connect
on something with you and show you that
you and I are are the same.
And I
I don't really do that anymore although
I don't hate that strategy.
Um
but I think it just depends on how you
use it. I think when you use it in a
manipulative way
I think it's easier
to see.
Versus if you kind of take a few breaths
before you go into a room and you say,
this
my what I want to do here is to connect
with someone,
to have that human-to-human feeling,
and you know, to
to be of service in some way to a uh
in a greater way to humanity. And by the
way, that can also include yourself.
You know?
But I think it's about
disconnecting from the outcome,
disconnecting from the transaction,
and connecting as a human being.
So, how'd you get from being the
waitress in these rooms serving drinks
to
running your own poker nights?
This is a funny story.
Okay, so
couple months go by, right?
And I'm like,
I don't want to serve drinks in these
rooms.
I want to I want to start my own games.
I want to own these rooms.
You know, this was
someone who felt powerless in the world.
If I could control these nine seats,
you know, this thing that has so much
control over these people that are so
powerful,
that was compelling.
The money was compelling.
I had this whole idea of how I would
design the experience, that was
compelling.
Um and also,
you know, I'd sort of learned in those 6
to 8 months that that I was an
entrepreneur. I was a problem solver. I
could I could think on my feet. I had
metacognition. I could feel a certain
way inside,
terrified, nervous, scared, and still
act with composure. These things that
wouldn't quite present at a dinner table
growing up with Jordan and Jeremy Bloom
to culminate into an idea or uh you
know, sort of like that seat. All of a
sudden, I just started to feel in my
flow, you know?
And
so but I was very loyal to my boss.
And
he is an interesting character.
He was
slightly psychopathic.
Uh
so I I you know, I just bided my time
and I tried to figure out how I was
going to do this and and then he made it
quite simple for me because he called me
and he said, "You're focused too much on
the game. I need you back in the office.
I'm giving the game to someone else. Her
name is da da da da da. She's going to
be calling you."
And by this point, I had really kind of
gotten into like I had started to think
about how I was going to build this
game. I had I was keeping
um the books on everyone. I was
uh recruiting players. I you know, I I
really had I was doing much more than
just waitressing.
And
I thought about it and I was like, I got
to take my shot. I can't just
go.
I can't just let him take this. Like
this is this opportunity is
too important for me.
So
I had developed friendships and
alliances.
And so I planned a game
and I moved it to a really luxurious
location.
And I hired a full staff of people and
had them memorize everyone's favorite
food order, drink order,
uh
the names of their kids, what they cared
about in life,
upgraded my playlist, do a little Frank
Sinatra maybe. I don't remember what it
was, but it was better.
Moved out of this dingy basement, had it
catered by, you know, the the best
restaurants in town. Up up you know,
like
the best liquors, Cuban cigars. I mean,
I
I wanted people to walk into this room
and feel like they were in Monaco. Or
feel like they were James Bond for the
night.
And I I really as the games were on I I
really like
got into the science of scent science
and temperature and humidity and um
food and all these things that elicit
the feel good chemicals.
And so and then I invited everyone
except for my boss.
And at the end of the night
it the game went really late and then at
5:00 in the morning I got this text
message
from my boss and he said, "Get over
here."
Uh to this day I don't know why I went.
I just went.
And he made me go wait in this like
bedroom.
And he made me wait for a long time and
I I I thought I said to myself, "He's
going to kill me." I mean, I don't even
know what's going to happen right now.
Cuz he was a
was a terrifying
individual.
And a very powerful.
And just to give you some context, when
I started working for him
I used to always say to him, "I'm really
worried about your soul."
Like you're not a nice person, you know?
And and I saw him in a business context.
And then later when I got to know him
better I saw him with his family and he
was very kind.
But he used to say to me all the time,
"You you're going to
you're going to get trampled over.
Like you need to toughen up."
And so anyway, so he walks into the room
and he has this terrifying look on his
face and he looks at me and he goes,
"I'm proud of you."
It was like graduation day.
For better or worse,
you know?
It's hard to know how to feel about that
moment now sitting here decades later.
So from that moment when you host that
first game, you upgrade everything. You
upgrade the experience for your
customers.
Mhm.
Um eventually
you set your sights on New York but for
a variety of different reasons, and you
moved the games from being based in
California and LA to being based in New
York City.
I lost the LA game.
You lost it, someone took it from you.
Yes.
Hm, karma.
Yeah,
totally.
Not going to argue with that.
Who who took it from you?
Uh, one of the most famous movie stars
in the game.
Leonardo DiCaprio?
No.
Uh, someone took the games from you, a
movie star said, "I'm going to go do it
at my house."
Give me an option first.
Um,
you can either
start making less money.
So, this is very interesting.
There was this player in the game
who you can't name.
I I won't name.
Mhm.
But they're big male movie star.
Making so much money.
Okay. How much money we talking, like
hundreds of millions?
Yeah.
Okay.
But became
I would say logically obsessed with this
game and structuring the game so that he
could win all the time.
So, make sure that he was the best
player in the game and that there were
no other uh, there was no one better
than he was.
Dan Bilzerian said that he was kicked
out of the game because he was really
good.
Oh, well, listen, I
Dan showed up playing this kind of
ruse that he was just this clueless
trust fund kid, okay?
And people bought it. And I sat I sat
there watching him and I'm like, this
dude knows what he's doing, you know?
And I and I said, "Respect, right? Like,
you're hustling, I'm hustling, but you
can't play in this game, you're going to
take everyone's money.
You're bad for business. I wish you the
best."
So, you kicked Dan Bilzerian out of the
game.
I had to.
He was too good.
Yeah.
Okay, so he wasn't he was telling the
truth.
Yeah, and yeah, for sure.
So this this Hollywood star that took
you that stole your game from you.
So he was really obsessed with the game
and he was obsessed with the money that
he was making and being the biggest
winner.
And the truth is at the end of the year
the money that I was making by that
point was millions.
And he believed that was money that
should be going into his pocket even
though by this point I was traveling the
world recruiting players. I had a staff
of 20 people. I handled all the
logistics. I handled
credit extensions, collections. I was on
the hook if someone didn't pay. I had I
had a full business. I was paying my
taxes, you know, um there was so much
work and sweat equity and I had branded
the game in this incredible way and I uh
I you know, I took notes every single
game. Here are the areas that work, here
doesn't. Let me do some deeper research.
Um
and you know, just really thinking
turning down
cash and cars and free rolls from the
pros
I to get a seat
to protect the integrity of the game and
you know, like taking paying the debts
from my own bank account so that to make
sure people got paid faster. I mean
there was It wasn't I wasn't serving
drinks anymore.
And so when he said to me, "You're
making too much money,
you have the option of making less and
I'll let you keep the game."
Look, by this time I
I had become a strategic thinker. I had
really been able to
get out of emotional decision-making,
but I do believe that there's a time and
a place for emotional decision-making
and and so I knew that turning down that
offer, there was a
large
the odds were I was going to lose the
game, but I knew that accepting that
offer meant no autonomy for me, no
freedom, and no dignity, and
What was the offer, sorry?
I had to would have to cap my salary and
make it and and have him approve how
much I'm making.
Why would What was he bringing to the
table where you can just kick him out?
Was he bringing a lot of
Celebrity power, yeah.
and celebrity power.
Yeah, this in this town?
So he he was he basically said to you,
"Listen, you're making a lot of money.
I'm I'm bringing a lot to the table cuz
I'm bringing celebrities and contacts
and legitimacy to this. So
I'll put a cap on your earnings and I
get the rest of what you're making, but
I'll continue to do my part."
Yes.
So he kind of wanted to make you his
employee.
Right.
How did you feel about that?
I never want to be anyone's employee
ever again.
But how did you feel about him?
Cuz when you said it, you looked a bit
pissed off.
To be honest.
Uh did I?
A little bit. You looked a bit like
there was still a little bit of maybe
resentment to that moment.
You know, I think that there's just
conviction to that moment.
Right.
Of cuz I think we live uh
in a day and age where a lot of people
try to um
not in a day and age it's it's reality
that a lot of people um
try to misuse power.
And I think it's really important to
talk about
you know, sort of dignity in the face of
that and and
and turning the offers down.
So you said no, what happens then?
Called me about a week later and with
this
almost jubilant
laugh and tone was like, "Don't You're
done."
How could he ensure that you were done?
He had colluded with the biggest
whale in the game. A whale in the in a
gambling context with a lot of money
who's not very good, who's willing to
lose a lot of money.
And this person had endless funds and he
had colluded
with him
to have the game at his house and that
was where the money was for everyone.
And you asked me a question, how do I
feel about this person?
Um
here's my answer.
This was a really long time ago.
Um
and
I've totally forgiven him.
So, you lose the game.
I lose the game.
I was
devastated.
What's going through your mind at that
moment?
I'm done.
I'm never going to be able to make this
much money again. I'm never going to be
I'm going to have to go join
some you know, I'm going to have to go
work for someone else. I'm not going to
be able to be my own boss. I'm not going
to live in this
fascinating, adventurous underworld
where I get to, you know, pull the
strings and move the chess pieces and
and
and I have to go join the real world
where
I'm not extraordinary. You know, I mean,
I'm just telling you what's gone through
my mind. Now, when I say these things,
it's like
it is what it is, but
So, you eventually moved to New York.
Yes.
Um 30 years old at this point?
I'm 31 at that point.
Okay.
Yeah.
Um so,
you know, I
I bet
my parents said this is a great time for
you to go back to school. You've saved
all this money. You've learned all this,
you know, you've gained all this
information. You have this incredible
network.
And I said to them, you're absolutely
right. But I have something that I need
to prove to myself, at least. Because
the plan was never to run Poker Room for
the rest of my life. I don't think
that's something that's sustainable. The
lifestyle was not conducive for raising
a family.
Um
late nights
you know, crazy adrenaline. It was not
something that I could imagine myself
doing for the rest of my life. I knew I
needed to walk away at some point. I
knew I needed to parlay it into
something that was
less underground, less gray.
But,
you know, I have to tell you, there was
something very thrilling about it.
Um
but then I got angry.
And I had something to prove and there
was just nothing that was going to stop
me.
What made you angry?
Feeling like I had been disposed of so
effortlessly.
Something that I, you know, something
stolen from me that I had
curated and built and, you know, he said
karma before and and there is
some truth to that, but
I did everything
justly.
You know?
I left money on the my own money on the
table to curate this incredible
experience. Um I I ran the games with
ultimate integrity.
You know, I I wasn't unkind to anybody.
I just felt
it was really unfair.
And so, also,
I was embarrassed.
You know?
So, I decided I was going to build the
biggest poker game in the world.
Like
five times, 10 times bigger than the
game in LA.
And then I would go away.
I decided after doing some research
that I would do it in New York City
cuz it seemed like there were a lot of
gamblers
on Wall Street.
There were many problems with my plan.
First of all, I didn't really know
anyone in New York City.
It's
that sort of like billionaire
Wall Street world is not so easy to
penetrate.
Um secondly, it was 2008.
So, the economy
and Wall Street had just been brought to
its knees
in the most profound way since probably
the depression.
And thirdly, there were some pretty
scary characters running
games in in New York who'd been doing it
for 20 years.
But, you know, it's it's testament to
when
when the
you're obsessed with something, when
when
the end like you'll do anything
unfettered ambition, you'll do anything
to get there.
Things are possible for better or worse.
So,
you know, I made moves.
I did research. And I interviewed poker
players.
And I found out who the right people
were to talk to, and I found out
what was wrong with the current system.
What was wrong with the current games
and and where I could improve on that. I
already knew I could I already knew I
could bring the branding and the
experience, which was meaningful. It
truly was meaningful.
Um but what I found is in these big
games in these New York games, a lot of
the game runners were kind of running a
Ponzi scheme. If they didn't get paid,
they wouldn't pay out. They're playing
in their own games. Whether they were
winning or losing would dictate the rake
of that night. And the rake is the
illegal tax that most of the game
runners were taking.
And so, it was a matter of treating
people fairly. It was a matter of being
trustworthy and consistent and um having
integrity.
And and then I and
you know, the biggest thing I could do
to instill that trust and to have
integrity and to eradicate the fear was
to become the bank.
I would now MDB Inc. would now become
the bank.
Guarantee the games.
Pay if there is
um if somebody stiffed, I would pay.
What does a stiff mean?
Meaning they
lost money in the game and then didn't
pay the debt.
Okay.
I I understand that. Surely to get the
chips they have to pay that for them up
front.
No, when you run a weekly game,
ultimately you establish a credit
relationship with someone.
Okay, right.
Um, because otherwise like these people
would have to bring $5 million in cash
to every week. It's just not reasonable.
It's not feasible.
So, tell me about the peak of your New
York games then. So, when you're at the
peak, what does that look like?
So, I started this big game.
Called?
They're all just called Molly's Game.
Okay.
Yeah.
Um,
So, it was a $250,000 buy-in. And then
this was the game that someone would
ultimately end up losing $100 million in
one night in.
Say that again.
Someone
Explain explain all of this to me like
I'm a chimpanzee from that documentary
you talked about before we started
recording.
So, when you sit down to play at a poker
game,
there are a couple
numbers that matter. What's the buy-in?
My LA game, the buy-in to sit down and
get chips and get a chair was $50,000. I
started at $10, I raised it to 50.
The New York game was $250,000.
So, I couldn't sit down unless I brought
$250,000 to lose.
That's right. Then, the other
relevant numbers are what are the
blinds? Meaning, what do you have to bet
um,
each round
to
to to to play the game.
To start at the start of the round.
Yeah, and there's a small blind and a
big blind and it just goes around the
table.
Yeah.
And and so, these games played so big,
there was so much action, the blinds
were so high that, you know, that
initial buy-in would be gone with some
people in the first 20 minutes.
So, then they'd have to come to me and
say, "I need another 250." And I would
have to decide in that moment,
"Can they pay this?
Are they good for the money?"
Um, and so, I would have to
start to establish this relationship,
this financial relationship with people
based on trust a lot of times.
But, there are a couple things that kept
that kept me safe.
Number one, to stiff this game was
social reputational suicide.
People would start to say, "Oh,
they don't have money anymore." Number
two, there wasn't a game like it where
you could play with some of your biggest
heroes. I mean, there was so much
business that got done at these games.
The things that I saw created, you know,
was mind-blowing.
But also,
And you couldn't just go to the police
if they stiffed you, right?
No, there's there's no recourse unless
you're willing to go to
um
muscle.
Mafia?
Yeah.
Organized crime.
Why couldn't you go to the police?
Because it's not
illegal to stiff me or a or a or a game.
It's illegal to stiff You need a
gambling license in order to have those
types of privileges.
So, you can go to jail in Vegas for
stiffing
your gambling debt. But you can't go to
jail for stiffing me.
Okay.
I gave you the money. It's a loan.
So, what you're saying you you saw
someone lose a hundred million dollars
in a night?
Yes.
How how how did that happen?
The game was playing huge. They were
also playing backgammon. They were also
betting sports.
Obviously, I didn't I can't guarantee a
hundred million dollars.
So, I'm out after a certain point.
But
and that was shortly
before I got in trouble, but that game
that I established, the the combination
of the the big game in LA and the big
game in New York
sort of joined together and became a
billionaire's game, and people over
a year's time would lose a billion
dollars.
People were I mean,
there was rumors that a couple
billionaires went broke
playing in that game.
Fully broke.
And this
Here comes to a part
of this story
that
is I think really important.
I started to see something I could not
unsee anymore.
Which was
in the beginning, I just believed rich
people
could never lose their money, knew what
they were doing.
Um and that this was just their form of
entertainment. And what I started to see
is that a
a vast majority of the players in these
games, particularly the big games, were
gambling addicts.
Totally owned by the addiction of
gambling.
And
I at some point
had to decide
whether I was okay
with playing my part in that.
And
my answer by my actions was clearly yes.
But I paid a huge price for it inside.
And I that
sort of started to enable me to make
other decisions that were not aligned
with my integrity.
And that had a directly inverse
proportional effect on how much I liked
myself, how much I
my self-esteem, how much I believed in
myself,
the kind of person I started to be.
And um
what had been up until this point
about trying to be an entrepreneur and
be gutsy and make money and and you
know, sort of like source power and but
do it in in a a way where I'm retaining
who I am and integrity
started to be exclusively about the
money and the power and the status.
And I started other games in the city
and I
didn't
care
if somebody could afford it or not.
And I was drinking a lot and I was
taking a lot of
um
pharmaceutical pills like Adderall to
stay up and Xanax to come down and
um you know, just started to live
this life of of very little
self-analysis.
You compromised your integrity.
I did.
Big time.
How?
I'm not I don't
have judgments
whether or not like
you know, that sports betting just
became legal. Sports betting so many
people on my indictment got indicted for
sports betting. Now it's legal. Now if
you live in New York, New Jersey,
you can download an app, connect it to
your bank account, watch a tennis game,
pretty much everything that happens in
that game is a bettable moment. You can
also do that with a Charles Schwab
account.
I harbor no judgment for
DraftKings whoever the companies are,
the CEOs are.
It matters who you are.
Right? For me,
once I realized that what I was doing
was
using all my resources, all my skills,
all my intelligence
to do to
to push an activity
that was ruining a lot of people's
lives,
that was a insult to my integrity. That
that was getting out of alignment with
who I am and what I care about in the
world.
What were you good at? So at that peak
moment, when you do a skills order of
why you were successful,
Mhm.
what appears on that skills order?
Very good at strategy.
Seeing a problem,
coming up with a solution,
setting a goal
that has,
you know, most of the time
pretty slight odds, figuring out how to
get there.
So, I'd become very good at strategy.
I'd become, um,
really good with people.
I became so good at it that I became
manipulative.
And I was
using those skills to manipulate people
for my personal gain, period. It's not a
win-win.
And all of these things, the the
lifestyle that you've chosen to live in
the way you've chosen to live it, you
speak of the internal conflict this
creates.
Yeah.
Right? Um Were you depressed at that
point in your life?
How was if I was a fly on the wall when
you were going home?
What would I have seen? What would I,
you know, if if I was a fly on the wall
that could
feel what you're feeling, what would I
felt? And what would I have seen?
I was very depressed.
Very disappointed with myself.
Um
and completely
powerless over these forces.
Money.
At the By this point, drugs.
And when I say drugs, like I wasn't
I didn't like the inconsistency and the
unreliability of street drugs. I liked
the the consistency and formulation of
of, um,
pharmaceuticals. They allowed me to be
productive and not feel myself.
Not feel the world.
Um, I was drinking a lot.
Why didn't you want to feel the world?
What were you escaping from?
Myself. What I was doing.
The
the way that I was living.
What was it you were so ashamed of about
the way that you were living outside of
the games?
I had stopped
really communicating, showing up for my
family.
At times didn't treat people
that worked for me
as well as I'd like to.
I started to have
you know, New York was a was a trip. I
had
all these beautiful, interesting,
compelling women that worked for me.
And although I always wanted them, I
always wanted to mentor them and
and provide them with opportunity, the
truth is is that I just made sure they
made enough money so they stayed in that
darkness with me.
And I didn't
hold myself to the same accountability
that I would hold myself now to in a
friendship.
I pay them so much money. I don't have
to show up for their birthday, right?
It was a it I had even if I didn't act
like it, in my mind there was a
hierarchy. So I had no authentic
relationships or very few.
Um
Those were the reasons.
Were you in a relationship at this
point?
So I was in a relationship for most of
the LA game and that ended right around
the same time that my game ended.
And then I went to
New York and had sort of a secret
relationship.
One of the big player's little brother
who kind of did my role in the beginning
of handing out chips and everything.
I found to be this deeply fascinating,
brilliant
heart-centered person and so we were in
the secret relationship but I didn't
want anyone to know cuz he was
he didn't measure up to the
the persona that I was trying to sell.
Which was very hurtful to him.
How did he know?
I told him we can't tell anyone.
Did you tell him why you can't tell
anybody?
Said it's bad for business.
Is that what hurt him?
You just saying it was bad for business?
Cuz if you said that to me and we're in
a relationship, I'd think, "Okay, you
Okay, you don't want to com- uh
complicate the dynamics. You don't want
some people to know that someone you're
in you're involved with romantically is
also kind of attached to the game." So,
Yeah, I mean, I think in the beginning
it made sense, right? But down the road,
I think it became very clear.
And we we had conversations about it.
Mhm.
At some point, the the mafia show up.
Yeah.
So, here's the kind of uh
levels and stages of the
the train wreck.
So, the first thing that happened was I
I had just recruited these guys.
They were Russian-American businessmen.
They had the air of being Ivy League.
Seemed so legitimate.
I had people vetted within an inch of
their life. I used to hire the same
people that vet politicians, for
instance,
to vet people.
I had bank employees on my payroll to
find out people's liquidity. I mean, it
was a whole process, you know? It's a
lot of money.
And
big risk to bring some a stranger into a
room with important people.
And their stories checked out, but there
is something in my gut that told me it
was off.
And it turns out that they were running
the biggest insurance fraud scheme in
New York City history.
And they had alleged ties to the Russian
mob.
So, then the feds start to pay attention
to this $100 million poker game where
people can show up with
millions of dollars in cash and get a
check.
Right?
Pretty ripe for a
corruption.
Um and interesting for them.
The next thing that happened was I had a
Yeah, I had a run-in with Italian
organized crime.
And I I guess naively I thought that
I knew that
gambling was always one of the ways that
organized crime earns.
But, you know, I was having the games at
the Plaza Hotel with billionaires and
players for the New York Yankees and I I
just believed that there was enough
separation.
But by this time I had become the
biggest game runner in New York City and
they didn't care.
They didn't care who my clients were.
And they
were really clear with me. Uh
you know, if you want to continue to run
these games, you're going to have to
give us a piece.
And
we all know Vinnie in that movie, right?
And I tried to politely I politely
declined their offer and
tried to explain to them in business
terms why that wouldn't work for me and
and just went on my merry way
and started to avoid their calls.
And uh they didn't just go away.
And they sent this terrifying guy to my
apartment.
And he put a gun in my mouth
which is
something that you just never forget.
And he beat the hell out of me.
And um took everything that was in my
safe including photographs.
The you know, a couple things I had from
my grandmother.
And
you know, he said
I think your answer will be different
next time.
And if you tell anyone about this
I know where your family lives in in
Colorado.
And so
a couple things here.
First of all, if somebody comes into
your apartment in the you know, in the
real world, in real life
and puts a gun in your mouth and steals
things from you and beats you up
cracks your ribs
you have somewhere to go.
You call the police, you call your
family, you call your friends.
It was
undeniable now that what I was doing was
so deeply dangerous and underground.
And I was completely alone in it. I I
was too afraid to to tell anyone.
And so I'm trying to like
And also
now I'm not just putting my own life in
danger, right?
Like I'm in way over my head.
And my family's a danger in danger now.
And I'm just I mean it is so heavy
and so much and for the first time in my
life
I don't have any strategy.
I don't
I have no idea what I'm going to do.
And then I got so lucky.
Uh you know, my only contact with
outside world was
food delivery um
and and then and the New York Times. And
a couple days later I got the New York
Times and it said 125 arrested in the
biggest mob-related takedown
in New York City history.
And I never heard from them again.
But you know
disaster is a coming.
It's just
And the the last thing that happened
before the whole thing blows up was um
you know, for most of my poker running
career I was I was running these games
legally
according to this playbook that had been
written for me by
by my attorneys.
And one of the biggest ones that
differentiated me from a lot of the
games in the city
and LA was that I didn't take a rake.
I didn't take a a percentage of each pot
at the end of the game
you winners tip.
You know
I'm extending people millions of
dollars.
I'm in charge of the nine seats that
people are
a lot of them are
pathologically addicted to.
At the end of the night I I got paid a
lot of money. I was making four to six
million dollars a year.
And um
Just from tips?
Yeah.
So what where did that
four to six million dollars a year come
from from
The winners. So the winners would play
in the game and if they won,
you know,
they would tip a percentage, 1 to 5% of
their wins.
Games were huge.
Then I was running multiple games around
the city.
Paying my taxes. I have an event
planning company.
But, you know,
I was a mess.
And
I started to get reckless about who I
was letting in the games and
and and who I was letting play and my
debt sheet started to get bigger and I
started to take a rake.
I started to partner with some people
that,
you know, were not necessarily
the right people to partner with and um
and the the feds had thrown a
confidential informant in the games by
that point.
And he tracked that. And so, around the
end of that year, I got a text message
from one of my employees at one of my
games and they said, "The FBI's here
looking for you.
Don't come here."
And so, um
you know, I
I knew finally it was game over.
It was game over.
Mhm.
And you realized that when you got that
call saying the FBI are here looking for
you.
Yeah.
How did you feel at that moment when you
hear Someone calls me and says the FBI
are looking for me.
Terrified.
I want my mom and I want my dad. I want
to go back in time. I don't want to do
any of this.
Don't even know how to process this.
And then,
a couple hours later it got even worse.
I got um
you know, I went back to my apartment
and the whole time, I mean, it's like
you're in a movie. You're
up
looking around every corner. Is Are they
going to be there to apprehend me?
And um
I packed a bag and grabbed my dog and
you know
tried to book a plane ticket to Denver
from JFK.
And
my credit card got declined which was
strange. And then my debit card got
declined which was really strange.
And I logged into my accounts and the
account balance read negative nine
million nine hundred ninety nine
thousand ninety nine dollars in all of
my accounts.
Why?
Because the feds had seized every single
penny.
And then some.
So what happens then? Did you manage to
get out of New York?
I did. I managed to get out of New York.
I got home to Colorado.
I'm at my mom's house. My attorneys are
talking to
the feds and they said
basically in in this country
you as a person have the presumption of
innocence
but your property does not.
So someone can't just come get you
unless
it was under some of those like
after 9/11 or whatever but you know
let's let's just keep it simple.
Someone can't can't just get you, throw
you into jail, say that you're guilty.
You have
the right to a trial.
With your money, with your property,
it's different.
There's a division of the government
called asset forfeiture that can just
take it. And then you have to go into
legal proceedings to try to get it back.
And so basically what that would involve
is me going on record talking about this
game and telling how I made this money
which for the most part I'd made it
legally
but you know, the past several months I
hadn't and it would be an admission on
record of a crime.
So I couldn't.
I couldn't do that.
And at this point they said we she we're
not interested in her as
you know, we're we're not pursuing
anything criminally against her and if
we are, we'll let her know.
So, I just went I just
I just went home.
What do your parents think of you when
you come home at this point?
I don't even know what they think of me.
I think they're extremely worried.
I think that
my dad had been writing me handwritten
letters every year telling me that what
I was doing was going to end badly,
pleading with me to do something
different.
Um So, I think my dad was angry.
Um my mom's just scared and I think
they're also relieved.
Right? Like
they were you know
They knew that what I was doing was
dangerous. They knew it was
I was up late at night running around
with large sums of cash. I mean, they
had many sleepless nights.
At some point the FBI gives you an
ultimatum regarding
becoming a snitch.
Oh, okay. So,
it took 2 years.
For those 2 years, I moved in with my
mom. I got sober.
I
At 35 years old?
No, I'm not 35 yet. I'm
33?
33.
Um got sober.
Trekked to Machu Picchu, did some soul
deep soul searching. Um finally got a
job, moved back to Los Angeles.
7 days later, this is 2 years later,
okay? I don't think anything's coming. I
have
rehabilitated myself, you know, and I've
been living with my mom and my grandma
in the mountains of Colorado.
So, I move back to LA 7 days later, in
the middle of the night, I get arrested
by 17 FBI agents, machine guns, high
beam flashlights. They put me in
handcuffs and they put this piece of
paper in front of me that says The
United States of America versus Molly
Bloom.
I'm thrown into this wild indictment.
I'm looking at real time in prison.
How much?
The press release said 90 years. I think
realistically it was more like 10.
Um but
um
you know, I have a day and a half to get
to New York City to find an attorney
that's going to represent me in the
fight of my life and I don't have a
dollar.
My dad and I aren't speaking.
Why?
Because he got mad at me and I got mad
at him.
Because the
the age-old
unexplored resentments
and rife
you know, came to a head.
This is my biggest fear,
right?
Failing this spectacularly
in front of the world. The tabloids are
covering it.
So,
I had a day and a half to get to New
York City to find an attorney.
And you know, I don't have a dollar. My
mom just put her house up to bail me out
of jail.
My dad's and I aren't speaking.
So,
my best friend,
you know, loaned me a little money, but
I'm
sitting down with people who are quoting
three to six million dollars.
And
250 to even look at it.
And so, I have
like eight meetings that day before the
indictment or before the arraignment.
And
seven out of the eight all said, you
know, Molly, I really wish you the best,
but without a retainer I can't represent
you. And then I met Jim Walden
who
uh was at a very prestigious
law firm
and kind of like listened to my story,
looked at my mom, and said,
"I'm going to help you."
And Jim and I started working together.
And I'll never forget something he said
to me.
You know, I went in and I said, "Look, I
don't have the money to fight this, so
but
I can't do 10 years.
You know, and I I I have to have a life
after this. So, what is our strategy and
what is our angle?" And he said, "You
know what? Integrity is going to be our
strategy and our angle."
I'm just sitting across from Jim Walden,
who is nothing but integrity, who is
this attorney who has spent his life
fighting the good fight, who continues
to fight the good fight, who spent the
first part of his career in the Eastern
District of New York fearlessly going
after the five crime families, who's
looking at my indictment and saying this
is [ __ ]
Right?
And um
and taking on this case and and fighting
for me because no one else would.
And
he's talking about integrity, and I just
had this moment of like
it all hit me, you know?
Who I wanted to be,
how far I had come from that, and for
what?
And uh
I made a decision in that room that day
that I
could never ever abandon myself again in
that way. I could never abandon the
things that I knew to be true to my to
who I am. And and one of those is is is
integrity and doing what I believe to be
the right thing.
And
you know, a couple weeks later
the prosecutors wanted to meet me,
and they really wanted me to be a
confidential informant.
Snitch?
Yeah.
And you know, Jim believes this is the
whole reason that they brought the
indictment.
So that you would snitch on the players
in the game and
Yeah, and they didn't care about the
mobsters
or the people running the insurance
fraud scheme. I think they already had
what they needed on those.
They cared about inside information that
I could potentially provide them with on
the billionaires, the bankers, the
celebrities, the politicians.
And I you know you spend enough time
with people you do get that inside
information. Now I want to be really
clear about something.
If there was someone in my game that was
doing really bad like if Epstein was in
my game and I knew that he was
trafficking children or whatever like I
would have given that information freely
and before this.
But what I knew
Was Epstein in your game?
No.
you were saying
No no no I'm saying if there was a
character like him right? I would have
Never protected someone like him.
Mhm.
But the things that they were interested
in to me
Who's booking sports?
It's about to become legal in two years
in New York and New Jersey. You're going
to drag somebody's family through the
mud and I'm going to be the you know
your your your accomplice with that?
Did they offer to restore your bank
accounts if you
to give me all my money back.
Which was how much money?
Millions.
So they were going to give you millions
if you snitched?
Yeah.
And also
They were going to give me a deferred
prosecution which would have kept you
know sort of given me a guarantee that I
would stay out of jail.
And I went home and I
You know I had a very short amount of
time to to make this choice something
like 48 hours.
And here's where I got to with it.
This place that I was in was 100% my
fault.
I did all of this. I had near perfect
information about the law. I had great
parents. I had a college education
almost completed. I had all the
opportunities in the world.
And I had chosen this and I had chosen
this path.
And
I had to own that you know and turning
around and
Ruining the lives of people who had
played in my game who'd made me very
wealthy. Many of them I saw their kids
grow up. To get out of the trouble of my
own choices did not feel in alignment
with
my true self.
So, you ultimately get sentenced?
I get sentenced.
I get a judge that's very disappointed
with me.
And um
but ultimately a
pretty reasonable guy who said, "Listen,
you were running poker games and it
seems like you've done a lot to change
your life.
I'm not I'm not going to sentence you to
prison."
Which
it's hard
to adequately express to you how big
that moment is.
Because you can do all you know I I used
to say to
Jim all the time, "Whatever, I'll go to
federal prison. I'll learn a new
language. I'll mentor some women." And
he's like, "That's not what it's like
in the prison system,
you know?"
People are dangerous and a lot of the
guards are dangerous and women get
raped. It's not It's not a country club.
And in my mind I was just like, "I can
handle it. I can handle it. I can handle
it." But in that moment when you get
sentenced to not go to prison and you
not you're not going to lose your
freedom,
um you don't realize
how big it is until
that happens, you know? And probably
would have been even bigger if it went
the other way, but
I mean, I felt like
I I mean, I I lost my feet, you know?
And
oh man, you know, here
here we are going to dinner
after the sentencing and there's
my best friend Ali who stuck with me
through everything and my family and
even my old boss came.
And I'm looking around the table and
everyone's living their lives
having kids.
My brother's a heart surgeon. He's in
residency.
He just graduated Harvard. My other
brother just got inducted into the
Colorado Sports Hall of Fame.
And I'm just sitting there and I'm like,
"Here I am, the family felon. You know,
I'm 30 Now I'm 35 years old. Millions of
dollars in debt.
A convicted felon.
A social pariah,
to some degree.
Like,
I'm all in for
for a comeback, but how does that even
happen? Where do you go from here?"
So, I just remember going back and
walking the mountains. You know, going
back, moving in with my mom. Walking the
mountains, walking,
meditating, trying to figure out what is
the way out here.
You know, one of the things I always
always talk to my friends about is as
you become more and more successful, you
get to see behind other curtains.
Mhm.
I call it, you know, it's like a
Totally.
Yeah, like you It's a curtain you didn't
even know was there. And you meet this
other group of people and you find out
that they're making money in this other
Yeah.
set of ways. And you go, "What the [ __ ]
Like, you guys have been back here doing
this stuff all the time?"
So, I I can so That
That so resonates. Yeah.
these money games that I didn't even
know existed. Like, you do this and you
trade this and you do this and you flip
this and
And And you go, "What the [ __ ] I was
like I was earning like minimum wage
over here. And you billionaires around
here just like doing billion-dollar
things with these little games that I
didn't even know existed."
Um and that's what I've come to learn in
my life is like
Yeah.
I got to see behind a lot of curtains
and I was like, "Oh, [ __ ] I can do I
can earn this much money without doing
any work? Or you can do like this?" And
What are those things that you came to
learn about when you got to see behind
the curtain?
Couple things.
First of all, I thought behind that
curtain I was going to find
the most contented, generous,
non-petty,
like, extraordinary people. And that's
not what I saw
for the most part. There were
exceptions.
Um
I just saw people who were kind of like
unwilling to fail.
Because
I don't know. Cuz they're obsessed with
money. Uh I I mean, you know, it's just
drive a lot of a lot of times.
Or being dragged.
Or being dragged.
Right.
Was it more being dragged than drive?
Or was it more drive than dragged?
I Could they Could they stop if they
wanted, you know, could they Were they
in control of their obsessions?
Dragged.
In that in those settings.
Mhm.
It's what I've tend to tend to find.
Yeah.
I've met a lot of billionaires, and I
with the odd exception, I'm like, damn,
unhappy.
Yeah.
I can't stop.
Yeah. Have Have you ever read that book,
The Psychology of Money?
Yeah. Yeah.
Don't you love that story in there?
I love it. I don't know what story in
particular you're talking about, but
Don't remember when
Joseph Heller's at the house of the
of the billionaire, and someone walks up
and says, "Heller, like, this guy just
made in one day what your
gross sales were for Catch 22, or
whatever." And Heller just goes, "Yeah,
but I have something he'll never have."
He goes, "What could that possibly be?"
"Enough."
Boom.
Mhm.
That's peace.
Most of these people that I knew do not
have peace, and peace should not be
underrated.
Peace, contentment, the ability to find
joy in small moments.
And then have the big moments. I am all
for adrenaline. I still chase it.
I have to chase it less, now that I'm a
mom.
But I chase it in healthier ways, you
know, heli-skiing, whatever it is,
climbing mountains.
Um
but to sit, lay your head down at the
end of the day, and be able to say, "I
know who I am."
And
there may be times where I
lose sight of that, but I have a process
for that.
And, you know,
I've made these living amends to these
people I love so much.
What else did you see behind that
curtain?
Um
of dissatisfaction with life?
Yeah.
Um
I saw a much bigger world than I knew
existed.
And a much more malleable world.
That's super key. That's that malleable
point.
I thought like
the walls were a lot more solid.
In life generally?
Yeah.
But you realize success is something
that we can all bend, control,
manipulate.
I think all is a pretty powerful word. I
think if we are willing to do the work
that it entails,
um on ourselves,
uh
yes, I think success, money,
abundance is is
is much more available
than than I originally thought.
Is that because you see very ordinary
people
achieving very extraordinary results?
And you And then once you see how
they're doing it, you go, ah, okay.
Yes.
Precisely.
Mhm.
That's also what I feel.
Yeah.
Yeah.
That's cool. I've I haven't
thought about that, and that's really
cool. I like that.
And this next the way that my story ends
really
kind of
speaks to that.
Um
or not ends, but, you know,
That chapter.
begins again.
Yeah.
Um So, I'm walking around the mountains,
I'm thinking to myself like, what's the
way out?
And I just realized
there's a unique story here. We've seen
this version of a story, it just usually
has a male
star, right?
Wolf of Wall Street or something.
Right. Right. Right. Right.
And um
so, So, like, I'll write this book,
and it'll sell so well and my life will
change, you know. And went to New York
publishing and there was a lot of
publishers that wanted to give me a lot
of money for a celebrity takedown book.
And I wasn't willing to do that. So, I
got rejected a lot, but I just kept, you
know, I was just persistent and I got
this book deal.
I I got my my own press and everything
and I waited to
for this, you know, I released the book
and I I waited for my life to change and
I think like
100 people read the book or something.
Really?
Maybe maybe a little more than 100, but
not enough to even earn back my advance,
which wasn't that big.
And then I said to myself,
I still believe in this story.
I still believe that the story is the
way out. I just believe it. I could see
it.
I'm going to have to bring in the big
guns. And I said to myself, I need to
get I need to
go speak to one of the most powerful
filmmakers in Hollywood.
I had a bunch of meetings and I was
like,
it can't be something small. It has to
be something big. And so, I made this
short list of people who really come
who really are successful, who who are
the A-list here, you know, and it was
like Shonda Rhimes, Steven Spielberg, um
you know, Aaron Sorkin.
And there was another
component that this person had to have,
another feature to their personality.
They had to be fearless because there
were so many people, as you can imagine,
in
the political world, in Hollywood, in um
you know, the billionaires making calls
saying like, "Don't make this
Molly Bloom movie."
Because they don't want to take the risk
at all, even though I'm
you know, I I went to bat for them, they
don't want to take the risk at all that
they could be portrayed in this movie.
Anyway,
so I you know, I loved The West Wing and
I loved Social Network and I loved the
characters that and and the a of like
message and humanity that comes out from
his writing. So,
I was like, "I need a meeting with him."
With who?
Aaron Sorkin.
And he happens to also be the
highest-paid screenwriter in Hollywood.
So,
he's a good bet. Right?
That that number doesn't come from thin
air.
So, most people laughed me out of their
office. They're like, "Your book sold 10
copies."
You know, like this It was in the press
a couple years ago.
Aaron Sorkin's never going to look at
this.
And
um I just kept with it. I was just
persistent. Cuz I had seen
you know?
As you'd seen.
I'd seen
how people get successful.
Which was
Persistence.
Of course you have to have a good
product. Of course you had have a good
story. I believed in the story.
But
I got rejected so many times, you know?
So, finally I get this meeting with
Aaron.
And I remember trying to mentally
prepare for it.
I'm living with my mom.
You know, I'm by all societal measures
the classic loser. You know what I mean?
Like I'm like living in my mom's
basement. I have no money.
I don't have all any of the trappings of
of the world and the success world, you
know?
But I said to myself,
"You walk in there with humility of
lessons learned, but you walk in there
like
you are wor- you like you're worthwhile,
you know?"
Isn't there some famous quote that he
said about how you were the most
confident down-and-out person he'd ever
met?
Oh, yeah. So, when I was like when when
when I was done telling him my story, he
said, um
"Well, I'll tell you one thing. I've
never met someone so down on their luck
and so full of themselves."
So down on their luck and so full of
themselves.
I certainly was not full of myself, but
That's what you were giving.
That's what I was
And yeah, I mean the TLDR of that is
he he takes it on.
He drops what he's doing.
He takes it on. He decides to make it
his direct royal debut as well as
writing it.
The movie comes out. It's nominated for
every award, BAFTAs, Oscars, Golden
Globes.
Um also, I had
done a lot of really good negotiating on
my part on the money part. They wanted
to give me nothing up front and promise
me back end and I did enough research to
know that that wasn't
ever going to happen. The back end in
Hollywood is notoriously
When you say you did well, what do you
mean? Give me something some How can I
gauge that?
So, I can just tell you that I got
15 times
what someone normal normally would have
gotten in my position.
And your position was?
A book that didn't really sell.
You were the owner of the IP, I guess.
Yeah. Life rights. A life rights deal.
Like if that book had become a best
seller and it already had a built-in
audience and I had
a million followers on Instagram and you
know, there was this compelling package.
Sure.
So, how well did that movie do?
It did extremely well. I mean 50 million
people saw it.
Do you have an idea of numbers of like
value? Do they Do they give you a
a value? Cuz I know they say oh, opening
box office was X.
Like lifetime value?
Yeah.
Um they don't because you have a back
end They they they give you a sort of
convoluted
Okay.
back end number. But every everyone made
money on the movie.
And it got nominated for awards and um
you know, I'll never forget
getting the the bank wire again and it
it takes a really long time. You know,
you don't just get paid up front. You
get like 50 grand
and then you get the rest of it 3 years
later, 4 years later, whenever the movie
gets made. And it was a rocky road to
make the movie cuz it was all set up at
Sony.
Everything was going smoothly. It had
this big budget, like big movie studio
budget. And then
Kim Jon Un
got pissed about the interview. Remember
the Seth Rogen movie?
Oh, yeah. Yeah.
And he hacked Sony Studios and the
chairwoman was Amy Pascal and she was
the one that really believed in the
movie and she had to step down and then
the new chairperson wasn't that
passionate and so then we had to set it
up kind of like
at festivals. So, you know,
nothing's ever a smooth ride.
So, you get a big check from this movie.
I do.
Um but I'm still
I still owe millions. Not not today
sitting here, but at that point. So, I
had to figure out like
what is
what's the next move?
And um
I remember the first time I didn't even
think about speaking, you know, like a
speaking career or anything.
Um I just remember the first time I got
hired to speak. It was in front of
thousands of people for Google.
Mhm.
And I had never spoken publicly. And I
think I just got on that stage and just
blacked out.
Yeah.
So awful and I was so bad at it.
But the money was compelling.
The adventure was compelling.
And so, you know, it allows me now to
make a really great income and then also
work on the other things I'm working on,
which is
um
a podcast and a community called The
Smart Girl's Guide to Everything.
It's basically using the strategy, the
access, the network, the resources that
I've been able to accumulate in my life
and applying it to real life.
And then I'm writing that a book on
effective presence.
And um I have a 1 and 1/2 year old at
home.
Which wasn't a straight ride, right?
No.
You I read that you had IVF nine times.
Nine times.
People don't understand the pain of
having IVF even once and then it not
going to plan.
Yeah.
To have it nine times.
Yeah. It's It's the It's the mental
anguish.
You know, it was interesting for me cuz
and I think this is important to talk
about and I'm glad you brought this up.
So, I froze my eggs at 36.
Um
and I was told
"You're going to be good. You have a lot
of eggs. You're young, you know,
whatever." And I cuz And my point is
here is I I think it's a big
money-making industry and I think they
oversell the technology and it's not to
say don't do it
but to do your own research.
Mhm.
In my case, what I realized is
doing three rounds of an egg freezing
procedure would have probably
given me a a much better shot. The
technology is getting better but eggs
are 80% water. So, freezing a flying is
is kind of tricky. Anyway, so I thought
I had purchased this
insurance policy on my fertility.
And then when I met Fiona's dad
I was 41 and I said, "Okay, great. Let's
thaw out these magical eggs." And none
of them worked.
And I was 41 and my fertility metrics,
basically the doctor said, "I'll give
you a 4% chance of making this happen."
And
nine rounds later,
um
it worked.
And I'm so happy I didn't miss it.
But that was a special moment.
Oh.
Also terrifying.
Terrifying moment.
The most vulnerable you'll ever be in
your entire life. Up until the point
that Fiona was born
I thought to myself, I believed, I went
through life believing, But,
after everything that I had to go
through, there's nothing I can't handle.
And then you have a baby
and you realize
losing this this little life
is something that I don't think I can
handle.
And of course
there are people that do and they do it
with grace, but you just know in that
moment
that there is something that would that
is changed in you that will never be the
same.
Terrifying.
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Fiona comes to you when she's 18 years
old, she says, "Mom,
I would like to be a success."
Mhm.
What advice have you got for me, Mom?
What do you say to Fiona?
Well, we're going to be having this
conversation well before she's 18.
I want to
I want to help her cultivate
her passions, her talents. I want to
teach her
about her mind
the ways that I have had to learn
um how to manage that mind.
How to manage fear, how to manage
the internal critic.
Um
I want to teach her to sit with hard
emotions, not to run
run from them, to figure out what they
can teach us. I want to teach her to go
into the shadows, the parts of ourselves
that we don't want to look at, and look
at it. Don't wait until you get beat up
by the mob, federally indicted, you
know, like
addicted to drugs and alcohol to finally
go into those shadows to look at the
demons that you haven't dealt with.
Um all these things that I learned
through
the trials and tribulations of my life,
I want to teach her at a young age. I
want to teach her that her worth is not
dictated by the things that she
produced, but she is inherently worthy.
At the same time,
it is
she will not be happy unless she has
purpose in life.
I believe that to be true. I I don't
know who said it, but it was very
succinctly said to love and to work.
You know?
I believe that people need a reason to
get up in the morning,
to go into the world
and feel a purpose.
I I don't care if that purpose is
stay-at-home mom or president of the
United States.
Will you teach her anything that you
learned specifically from being in those
rooms with the billionaires, athletes,
politicians?
Absolutely. I'll teach her about risk.
What will you teach her about risk?
You know, I've seen thousands of hands
of winning and losing poker, and I've
kept spreadsheets, Excel spreadsheets on
people for years.
And I've then watched
the choices they make and how they get
to the numbers that I look at the end of
the year.
Is it the business choices or
The The choices they're making in the
game and then in their greater life.
A lot of times when people lose,
they become
Mhm.
unwilling to take another big risk.
And if you aren't willing to take risks
in life, over time, you will lose the
game.
The people that took calculated risks,
over time, won.
People that took impulsive risks,
didn't.
But people that took calculated risks
over time and didn't let a past failure
or uh
an external condition stand in that way,
won the game.
I think a healthy relationship with risk
is super important.
I think um
being able to stay composed when there's
chaos inside, chaos outside,
is incredibly important in those rooms.
I think being able to
know when to use your emotional mind to
make choices and know when to use your
in your rational mind and being able to
toggle between the two in an intentional
and and uh
smart way is super important.
And I think ego and greed
is the reason that I've seen so many
lives come undone, including my own.
The person that sits before me today,
you know, been on a journey to say the
least, lived many many lives in many
different chapters.
Um
what are you most proud of about
yourself now? When you reflect on the
person you are versus the person you
were,
what what are what are the some of the
things you're most proud of about
yourself?
I'm I'm proud that when I
that I that I stay self-aware.
And when I believe that I'm wrong or
believe that I'm
behaving in a way that is
is not aligned with who and what I want
to be in the world, then I'm willing to
either say sorry or do that work
really deeply, relentlessly do that work
to change.
I'm willing that I mean I'm proud that I
just continued to
I'm proud that I stayed
open.
Is there anything you're not proud of?
From my past or in the present?
Yeah, I mean there are little things
that I'm working on, but I wouldn't say
that I'm not proud of of them because I
think having grace for yourself and
learning how to forgive yourself and and
treat yourself with compassion
is a huge
is something that I had to learn as a
survival skill
back in those dark days.
Um but something that I continue to
practice.
Uh the only times that I'm not proud of
myself
are if I'm staring straight into
something that I know that I'm
totally ignoring that's causing harm in
the world.
To myself, to other people.
Well, we have a closing tradition on
this podcast where the last last guest
leaves a question for the next guest not
knowing who they're going to leave the
question for.
And the question left for you
is
what is the message you needed to hear
when you were younger
that you didn't hear?
And who was the best person to
say it that didn't say it?
Um
Okay, that's a great question and a hard
question and I think
I think
the answer is
stop searching for the evidence that you
were worthwhile, that you're good enough
and just start to believe it and I think
the person to say it to me is me.
I think I was my own worst critic.
Um you know,
we all have certain challenges in our
life, but I think at some point taking
responsibility
for your own [ __ ]
is the most important thing a human
being can do.
Are you there now? Like are you there at
the point now where you know
your self-worth is isn't going to come
from glory?
Not 100%,
but I'm like
90.
Do you think Do you think we ever
overcome
these desires to to seek, you know,
these things cuz they they feel to be so
hardwired in us, especially if they come
at a formative age from people that are
important to us like our parents or the
context we're raised in. It's almost
like a an oven. It's like if you think
about anything that you bake.
Yeah.
You can't unbake the thing.
Like you can't unbake
You can't unbake a cake. You know,
there's lots of things you can like you
know, separate using various chemical
processes.
Yeah. Um
I think maybe if you're willing to go
live a monastic life and just meditate
all day and like not live in the real
world, even then I I know that for me
ev- anytime I think I have something
completely figured out, something fixed,
something else will happen in life and
it'll crop up. So that's why I think
it's so important to have a process for
how you deal with these things and I
think anybody that says I did this work
on myself and now I'm fine
isn't being fully truthful.
I agree.
I completely agree and I think that's
the the most honest answer to give and
also I think it's the true answer. It's
the answer that all the psychologists
and
psychologists and psychiatrists that I
sit here with tell me as well is it's
the answer I've seen in my life that
it's more about management than it is
about taking our traumas or our
hardwiring to zero which
and I think that's important to say
because people that are struggling with
the same recurring patterns in their
life hear that and go I can't thank god
it's not just me.
Yeah.
You know, I cuz they'll beat themselves
up when their therapy doesn't work or
the podcast they listen to doesn't
change them.
right or like when staring at the sun
and sitting in an in an ice cube bath
doesn't fix their like
they're still toxic after their ice
bath.
You know what I mean?
And they're like [ __ ] they want a
refund.
Molly, thank you so much.
Thank you so much.
Thank you for your wisdom, your honesty.
Um you don't have to be so honest. And I
in particular the amount of life lessons
you've been able to draw from this
experience I think is of tremendous
value. So it's no surprise you're a
speaker. It's I've I'd bet extensively
on your podcast being a huge success as
well. And I'm really excited about this
book because I really do think that
effective presence is clearly one of
your absolute, you know,
dominant skills. Um just from meeting
you today as well I when the minute you
said that explain it to me I was like,
"Oh yeah, I get it."
So and that's an unbelievably powerful
skill because all we face in this world
is other people.
Yeah.
And so knowing how to get the best from
those people in whatever context that
might be is ultimately the superpower
that anyone could possess.
It's funny. Every year around this time
of year for whatever reason I go on a
little bit of a psychological shift. And
that psychological shift I think is
somewhat inspired by summer, but it's
also inspired by the fact that I want to
feel strong in this season of life. And
as I age, strength training is my number
one form of training. And the question
becomes how do you build muscle and how
do you become strong in terms of
supplementation? And this is where
Huel's nutritionally complete protein
product is my best friend for a couple
of reasons. One, it tastes better than
any protein product I've ever tried.
Two, in terms of the nutritionally
complete aspect, it has the vitamin and
minerals you need. It's about 100
calories, so it's incredibly light, but
it also packs over 20 g of protein into
every serving. Try the salted caramel
flavor. It is
the bomb.
And let me know how you get on.
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Molly Bloom, known as the 'Poker Princess', details her journey from a waitress to running the world's most exclusive underground poker games. She discusses the high-stakes environment involving celebrities and billionaires, the psychological 'effective presence' she used to succeed, her eventual legal downfall and entanglement with the FBI and organized crime, and her path toward redemption, sobriety, and personal growth after losing everything.
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