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They put a gun in my mouth, beat the

0:01

hell out of me, and he said, "If you

0:04

tell anyone about this, I know where

0:06

your family lives."

0:07

For the first time in my life, I knew

0:09

finally it was game over.

0:10

I'm Molly Bloom.

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Dubbed the poker princess.

0:13

The former waitress who took a small

0:15

poker game run out of a dingy nightclub

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to the biggest underground poker games

0:19

in the world.

0:21

celebrities to millionaires

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They literally made a Hollywood movie

0:24

about it.

0:25

The game turned from legal to illegal.

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I had become the biggest game runner in

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New York City.

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Leonardo DiCaprio, Ben Affleck, and

0:32

Tobey Maguire, politicians. She was

0:34

making four to six million dollars a

0:36

year. It was unbelievable.

0:37

$250,000 buy-in.

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So, I couldn't sit down unless I brought

0:40

$250,000 to lose.

0:42

That's right.

0:42

And you saw someone lose $100 million

0:44

dollars in a night.

0:45

Yes. This is where the science of how

0:47

you make people feel became a really big

0:50

tool.

0:50

And I would memorize people's lives, the

0:52

names of their kids, what they cared

0:53

about, favorite food order, drink order.

0:55

These things can absolutely be used for

0:57

good, but I just became obsessed.

1:00

What had been about trying to be an

1:02

entrepreneur and be gutsy started to be

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exclusively about the money and the

1:05

power.

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But I paid a huge price for it. I

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started to partner with people that were

1:10

not the right people to partner with. In

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the middle of the night, I get arrested

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by 17 FBI agents, machine guns. They put

1:15

me in handcuffs, and they put this piece

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of paper in front of me that says "The

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United States of America versus Molly

1:20

Bloom."

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The FBI gives you an ultimatum. They

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were going to give you millions if you

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snitched on the players in the game.

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I had 48 hours.

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What happens then?

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2:01

Oli,

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what do I need to understand about your

2:03

earliest context to understand you?

2:06

Going right in.

2:09

Um

2:11

I think

2:12

it almost always starts with the family

2:15

uh in childhood and

2:18

I am from uh a family of you know, my

2:21

two little brothers are incredible

2:23

humans, but like the craziest

2:26

overachievers you can ever imagine.

2:28

And then I have these two

2:31

incredible parents who were very

2:34

powerful influences in our lives. My dad

2:37

stood on this platform of you cultivate

2:41

discipline and if you have a fear, you

2:44

walk through it and you learn how to

2:47

suffer constructively for your dreams,

2:49

for your goals.

2:50

And then my mom, you know, she was this

2:54

she insisted on kindness and integrity.

2:57

So there's this whole ecosystem of

3:00

extraordinary

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and I didn't know how I fit into that at

3:04

all.

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And I desperately wanted a seat at that

3:08

table.

3:09

And probably during the times that we

3:12

were raised, there are these ideas of

3:14

what success looked like and how you get

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there. And it was

3:19

genius and talent and specific skill

3:23

set.

3:25

You know, but I knew

3:27

that I had to be successful or and this

3:29

is not hyperbolic, I literally did not

3:32

want to live. I mean, I remember when I

3:34

was applying to law school, I said to my

3:35

dad,

3:36

"If I don't get into an Ivy League law

3:38

school, I don't know like how

3:41

I don't want to live, you know?" And

3:43

Do you Do you mean that?

3:44

I

3:45

It's hard to know what you mean at 18

3:47

years old,

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but

3:50

in my mind,

3:52

you

3:53

clear proof and evidence that you're

3:55

extraordinary by these accomplishment

3:57

accomplishments. And my brothers had

3:59

already started to make that happen.

4:02

And

4:02

Why law?

4:03

Mhm?

4:04

Why law?

4:06

Because one day at the dinner table,

4:10

my dad said to me,

4:12

"Do you like to argue and read a lot?

4:14

Maybe you should go to law school."

4:16

And then I And then I started to kind of

4:18

read books about the law and fiction a

4:22

lot. I I mean, I was I loved stories.

4:25

Um and and then started to think about

4:29

getting paid to argue for a living and

4:31

all the glory that could come from that

4:33

if you're fighting for justice or you're

4:36

you know, fighting to

4:37

save somebody who's innocent, you know,

4:39

the the sort of high points,

4:42

the aspirational

4:44

points of what it would be like to be

4:47

a lawyer in a movie or a book.

4:49

You're thinking about the glory.

4:50

Yeah.

4:52

Yeah.

4:53

For sure.

4:55

Why do you think you cared so much about

4:56

glory?

4:58

I don't think I cultivated much

5:00

self-esteem. I don't think I knew who I

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was. And I don't think that I believed I

5:05

was inherently worthy. I believed that I

5:08

had to achieve something big, huge,

5:10

extraordinary,

5:12

worldly

5:13

in order to

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to then

5:17

feel

5:19

relief from that existential ache of

5:22

that I that that followed me around my

5:24

whole life, you know.

5:27

So, you

5:29

you go off and try and pursue a a career

5:31

in law, at least that's what you think

5:32

you're going to do.

5:33

Yeah.

5:34

You're going to go to Harvard, right?

5:36

Well, I wanted to go to Harvard.

5:38

I didn't even end up

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going at all or even finishing my last

5:42

semester and a half at school because

5:45

I just couldn't

5:48

I couldn't muster the the energy and

5:51

ambition it took to go

5:53

do all these things. I I just had

5:56

I had hit a wall and I think I was

5:58

really questioning

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the conventionality of it all. So, I

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ended up like not applying to law

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schools and then just saying

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I just need a year.

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And

6:09

the closest place that was warm on the

6:12

ocean from Colorado in a straight line

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was California.

6:16

When you moved here, um your father

6:18

again bringing him back into the

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picture, he's a very ambitious person.

6:21

How did he receive this news that you

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were

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Not

6:24

coming to LA?

6:25

Not happy about it. Not going to

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financially support it.

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Really disappointed.

6:32

So, you get here and he's he's no longer

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supporting you financially at all.

6:35

Mhm.

6:36

So, what do you do to make money?

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I mean, I got a job. I had to get a job

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the day I got here and I went to this

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restaurant in Beverly Hills.

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Went to a

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you know, got a job for a couple days.

6:50

It was terrible.

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And then I went to this other rest I'm I

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went to this other restaurant and kind

6:56

of lied and said, cuz no one else was

6:58

hiring in this Beverly Hills area. And

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it was a fine dining establishment and I

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lied and said that I had fine dining

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experience.

7:07

I got fired

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a couple weeks later.

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My boss said, "You're the worst waitress

7:11

we've ever seen and you've ruined like

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thousands of dollars of bottles of wine

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trying to open them."

7:19

He said, "But

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you know, people seem to to take to you

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and you're a hard worker, so why don't

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you come work

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for our real estate development company

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as my executive assistant?"

7:33

Oh, so it was the boss of the restaurant

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that

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Yes.

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offered you the job as the exec

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Yes, they they had a bunch of holdings.

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They had some real estate. They had some

7:40

restaurants. They had a fund.

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So, you became his

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EA, his PA.

7:45

Yeah.

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And this led you to poker.

7:47

Yes. He came in the office one day and

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he said, and they're always zany things

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to it sort of like thrown at me.

7:55

And he said, um

7:57

I need you to serve drinks at my poker

7:58

game tomorrow night.

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And I, you know, I tell this story cuz

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it's just

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so indicative of of the naivete and

8:08

where I was. I I do remember

8:12

Googling what kind of music do pick

8:13

poker players like to listen to and what

8:14

do they eat. And then I proceeded to

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make this incredibly embarrassing

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playlist with songs like The Gambler on

8:20

it. You know, and got this cheese plate

8:24

and showed up for this very fancy

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uh

8:28

poker game in in Hollywood with

8:31

A-list

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celebrities. And you know, there's some

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names that

8:37

of people that have already talked about

8:39

being in the game and those are the

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names that

8:41

I don't mind

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naming just to give context. It was Ben

8:45

Affleck and Tobey Maguire and

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Leo DiCaprio.

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And then, you know, but apart from the

8:52

actors, it was also

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the head of some of the biggest

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investment banks in the world and the

8:57

head of some of the biggest movie

8:58

studios

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and politicians who were household names

9:02

and

9:03

people in the tech world that were about

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to take their

9:06

companies public. I mean, it was

9:09

it was unbelievable.

9:11

Quite a few people have come out as you

9:12

say and said that they were

9:14

they played in those games.

9:15

Yeah.

9:15

I I was watching a video earlier of like

9:16

even Dan Bilzerian I think says

9:18

Yes, Dan played.

9:19

He played in those games.

9:21

Was was Were those games that legal or

9:23

illegal?

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Cuz

9:26

Legal to play in?

9:27

Legal to play in?

9:28

For sure.

9:29

Legal

9:32

I

9:33

What when I started running the games

9:36

I hired

9:37

uh

9:38

defense attorneys and had them analyze

9:40

the federal statutes and to help me

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figure out a way

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to do it legally because in the early

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days

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I wouldn't have done it illegally.

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That was an evolution.

9:54

So you start as a basically an assistant

9:57

to the games that your boss is running.

10:00

These are secret games, right?

10:01

Right.

10:01

Very secretive.

10:02

Very.

10:03

And take me on the journey of what

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happens next.

10:05

Okay.

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So that first game

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you know, I'm

10:11

just shell-shocked essentially.

10:14

And also really mortified about the

10:16

playlist and the cheese plate

10:18

from Gelson's, you know.

10:21

Um

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but

10:23

but man am I intrigued.

10:25

You know, getting to be a at 23 years

10:29

old getting to be a fly on the wall

10:32

in this room

10:34

where the

10:35

these conversations are open and candid

10:37

and you are

10:39

I'm like you. I've always been

10:40

fascinated in psychology. I've always

10:42

been

10:43

an information data junkie. I love to

10:46

learn. I love to observe. And so this

10:49

was

10:50

as compelling as it could be.

10:53

And then I remember at the end of the

10:55

night because people were tipping with

10:57

chips.

10:58

It wasn't straight cash.

11:00

I remember making $3,000 for refilling

11:03

some drinks.

11:05

And so two things became really apparent

11:06

to me. One, this was incredible access

11:10

to a network of people that I don't know

11:12

if I would have ever had access to.

11:15

And to learn from people at this age of

11:18

23 when I didn't know who I was or who I

11:21

wanted to be. And number two, that there

11:23

was something that happened when there

11:27

was a token or a chip was the was the

11:29

economic system that made people very

11:32

liberal.

11:33

Cuz I'd worked as a wait, you know, I

11:34

was a I was a waitressing everywhere.

11:37

I'd hustle my butt off for a couple

11:39

hundred dollars a night. You know, all

11:41

of a sudden the chip is involved and

11:43

it's not real money.

11:45

So,

11:47

I

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just became obsessed.

11:51

And so, I learned about poker.

11:53

I wanted to learn the rules of the game,

11:56

the vernacular. I didn't want to seem

11:59

like a novice.

12:01

Um

12:02

and then I started to try to figure out

12:05

how do I stay in this room?

12:08

And

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this is where

12:13

one of the places where effective

12:15

presence became

12:17

a really big tool.

12:18

What's effective presence?

12:19

Effective presence is the science of how

12:21

you make people feel. Everybody has

12:23

their own emotional footprint that they

12:25

leave on the world.

12:27

And um there are

12:29

really marked things you can do

12:32

to have either positive or negative

12:33

effective presence or neutral, which is

12:35

also not great.

12:37

Um

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so,

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I remember talking to my mom.

12:42

And I remember saying,

12:44

"You don't even understand how

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compelling this is."

12:47

And

12:49

I don't I want to stay in this room more

12:51

than anything, but I don't know how I

12:53

could ever confer value in this room.

12:55

Did you feel like you were going to be

12:56

kicked out of the room?

12:57

I just felt like maybe I was disposable.

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Like maybe they would just bring in an

13:01

another

13:02

woman at some point to serve drinks.

13:05

Or you know, I just I didn't

13:09

I just didn't want to be disposable.

13:11

I wanted to find some reason

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to be

13:18

to be valuable in that room to, you

13:19

know, and and to be able to come back.

13:23

And I start I was talking to my mom so

13:25

much about everything that I hoped to

13:27

gain and and

13:28

where my mind was going with this

13:31

opportunity.

13:32

And you know, that I said to her, "But

13:34

Mom, I I have no idea how to bring value

13:36

to this room. These people have

13:37

everything."

13:39

And she said something that was really

13:41

profound to me. She said, um

13:44

"You know, maybe instead of thinking

13:45

about all the things you want to get,

13:47

you could think about what you could

13:48

give."

13:50

And then she reminded me of that quote

13:51

by Maya Angelou that everyone loves and

13:53

loves to quote, which is people are

13:54

going to forget what you said and what

13:55

you did, but they're never going to

13:57

forget the way you made them feel.

13:59

And I thought about that and it's so

14:00

true.

14:01

And I guess I had this suspicion that

14:04

these people with their power and their

14:06

success

14:08

and their access

14:10

were different from the rest of us, that

14:11

they believed that they were worthy.

14:14

You know, that they didn't have harbor

14:15

that secret fear that they weren't good

14:17

enough.

14:18

And what I found

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unequivocally is that that wasn't true.

14:23

And that many times someone at that

14:26

level

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is even more convinced or needs even

14:30

more

14:32

validation.

14:34

And so I started to try to understand

14:37

how to make people feel important, seen,

14:40

heard, remembered, how to establish

14:42

trust, how to establish

14:44

authentic connection because something

14:45

that I realized

14:47

by observing these games is that

14:50

everybody wanted something from these

14:52

people.

14:53

That was the nature of the relationship.

14:56

And so if I could figure out how to

15:00

establish a real connection. You know,

15:02

there's there's emotional intelligence,

15:04

right? Which usually has a focus on the

15:07

outcome. How to win friends and

15:08

influence people. Effective presence is

15:10

more about being in the present with

15:13

someone,

15:14

focus on the connection, not the

15:15

outcome.

15:17

And

15:19

this is truly what I focused on um for

15:21

the first 6 to 7 months

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is just

15:26

creating a real connection with people.

15:29

Observing them and and

15:31

you know, trying to

15:34

train my mind to focus on what's unique

15:37

about this person. What's truly unique

15:39

about this person and then getting to a

15:41

point where you're vulnerable enough to

15:43

say,

15:44

"God, I'm really fascinated by this

15:46

thing that you do." You know, whether

15:47

it's at the poker table or in business

15:49

or just in life and and focusing in on

15:53

the details and and really

15:56

getting outside of yourself and becoming

15:58

curious and becoming a great listener,

16:00

which by the way, you are an insanely

16:02

great listener.

16:03

Well, thank you.

16:05

Um, and I just have found, probably like

16:09

you have,

16:10

that there is such incredible value in

16:12

that and that no matter how much

16:15

somebody is celebrated or um, you know,

16:20

has

16:21

has a a public following or whatever,

16:24

it's so seldom that someone just sits

16:26

down with them and listens. Just gets in

16:28

it with them.

16:29

Tiffany, as you were saying that, I was

16:30

just thinking about how much of a

16:32

competitive advantage listening is. We

16:34

think that the competitive advantage is

16:36

had in speaking.

16:37

Mhm.

16:38

But I've If I've learned anything from

16:39

doing this podcast, it's that to truly

16:41

understand someone and then be able to,

16:43

in this context, ask them a question,

16:44

but in the world of business, to deliver

16:46

them a solution to their problem, which

16:48

is getting a sale,

16:50

to create the upper hand,

16:52

you simply have to listen.

16:53

Yes.

16:54

And you have to listen for as long as

16:55

you possibly can.

16:55

Yes.

16:56

And this is what what the great thing of

16:58

what I've learned from doing this

16:59

podcast, but

17:00

even from this conversation is I'm I'm

17:03

My next question is going to be so much

17:04

better for the fact that I listened to

17:06

you.

17:06

Right. And actively listened.

17:08

Actively listened.

17:09

Presently listened. I think we walk

17:11

around armored with our egos.

17:13

And I think that

17:17

true connection happens when somebody

17:21

when you're able to disarm somebody and

17:23

they're able to disarm you and the egos

17:26

slip away and it's just two people.

17:28

So when you go in and you start listing

17:30

off your accomplishments and painting

17:32

yourself as this

17:34

you know all of a sudden it's like

17:35

competition up ego's up and and then

17:39

there's not true connection.

17:41

You can't penetrate

17:42

No.

17:43

that kind of wall can't you? Both built

17:45

two walls between yourselves cuz you're

17:46

showing off.

17:47

Right.

17:48

You need the walls to come down to form

17:49

the connection.

17:50

Yeah.

17:51

When people hear that they go you know

17:53

this this idea of effective presence and

17:56

understanding how to be kind of a

17:57

different jigsaw shape piece to each

17:59

individual to get the best out of them

18:00

or what you want from them.

18:02

People will say oh manipulation.

18:03

Mhm.

18:04

Which you know the the fine line between

18:06

sales and persuasion and negotiation and

18:09

manipulation it's all there you know.

18:13

Is this positive manipulation?

18:15

So

18:17

effective presence, EQ, active

18:20

listening, all of these things that you

18:23

learn can absolutely be used for good or

18:26

they can be used for bad.

18:28

But I think something that is different

18:30

about at least the brand of effective

18:33

presence that I value

18:35

is it's about your experience connecting

18:38

with a human being.

18:40

It's not about for me cuz I used to do

18:43

that right? I used to if

18:45

the the way I used to do things is I

18:47

would do all my research on you and I'd

18:48

come in here with a with a few talking

18:50

points so that I could instantly connect

18:52

on something with you and show you that

18:53

you and I are are the same.

18:56

And I

18:57

I don't really do that anymore although

18:59

I don't hate that strategy.

19:01

Um

19:02

but I think it just depends on how you

19:05

use it. I think when you use it in a

19:08

manipulative way

19:11

I think it's easier

19:14

to see.

19:16

Versus if you kind of take a few breaths

19:18

before you go into a room and you say,

19:22

this

19:23

my what I want to do here is to connect

19:26

with someone,

19:28

to have that human-to-human feeling,

19:32

and you know, to

19:34

to be of service in some way to a uh

19:38

in a greater way to humanity. And by the

19:41

way, that can also include yourself.

19:44

You know?

19:45

But I think it's about

19:47

disconnecting from the outcome,

19:49

disconnecting from the transaction,

19:52

and connecting as a human being.

19:55

So, how'd you get from being the

19:57

waitress in these rooms serving drinks

19:59

to

20:01

running your own poker nights?

20:03

This is a funny story.

20:05

Okay, so

20:08

couple months go by, right?

20:10

And I'm like,

20:12

I don't want to serve drinks in these

20:13

rooms.

20:14

I want to I want to start my own games.

20:16

I want to own these rooms.

20:18

You know, this was

20:20

someone who felt powerless in the world.

20:25

If I could control these nine seats,

20:27

you know, this thing that has so much

20:29

control over these people that are so

20:31

powerful,

20:32

that was compelling.

20:35

The money was compelling.

20:37

I had this whole idea of how I would

20:40

design the experience, that was

20:42

compelling.

20:43

Um and also,

20:46

you know, I'd sort of learned in those 6

20:48

to 8 months that that I was an

20:49

entrepreneur. I was a problem solver. I

20:51

could I could think on my feet. I had

20:52

metacognition. I could feel a certain

20:54

way inside,

20:56

terrified, nervous, scared, and still

21:00

act with composure. These things that

21:03

wouldn't quite present at a dinner table

21:06

growing up with Jordan and Jeremy Bloom

21:08

to culminate into an idea or uh you

21:11

know, sort of like that seat. All of a

21:13

sudden, I just started to feel in my

21:15

flow, you know?

21:17

And

21:18

so but I was very loyal to my boss.

21:22

And

21:23

he is an interesting character.

21:26

He was

21:28

slightly psychopathic.

21:30

Uh

21:32

so I I you know, I just bided my time

21:34

and I tried to figure out how I was

21:35

going to do this and and then he made it

21:37

quite simple for me because he called me

21:39

and he said, "You're focused too much on

21:41

the game. I need you back in the office.

21:43

I'm giving the game to someone else. Her

21:44

name is da da da da da. She's going to

21:46

be calling you."

21:48

And by this point, I had really kind of

21:51

gotten into like I had started to think

21:53

about how I was going to build this

21:54

game. I had I was keeping

21:56

um the books on everyone. I was

21:59

uh recruiting players. I you know, I I

22:02

really had I was doing much more than

22:05

just waitressing.

22:07

And

22:09

I thought about it and I was like, I got

22:10

to take my shot. I can't just

22:13

go.

22:14

I can't just let him take this. Like

22:16

this is this opportunity is

22:18

too important for me.

22:19

So

22:21

I had developed friendships and

22:22

alliances.

22:24

And so I planned a game

22:27

and I moved it to a really luxurious

22:29

location.

22:31

And I hired a full staff of people and

22:32

had them memorize everyone's favorite

22:34

food order, drink order,

22:36

uh

22:37

the names of their kids, what they cared

22:39

about in life,

22:41

upgraded my playlist, do a little Frank

22:43

Sinatra maybe. I don't remember what it

22:44

was, but it was better.

22:46

Moved out of this dingy basement, had it

22:49

catered by, you know, the the best

22:51

restaurants in town. Up up you know,

22:54

like

22:55

the best liquors, Cuban cigars. I mean,

22:57

I

22:58

I wanted people to walk into this room

23:01

and feel like they were in Monaco. Or

23:03

feel like they were James Bond for the

23:05

night.

23:06

And I I really as the games were on I I

23:09

really like

23:10

got into the science of scent science

23:13

and temperature and humidity and um

23:17

food and all these things that elicit

23:20

the feel good chemicals.

23:23

And so and then I invited everyone

23:24

except for my boss.

23:31

And at the end of the night

23:33

it the game went really late and then at

23:34

5:00 in the morning I got this text

23:36

message

23:38

from my boss and he said, "Get over

23:39

here."

23:40

Uh to this day I don't know why I went.

23:42

I just went.

23:44

And he made me go wait in this like

23:46

bedroom.

23:47

And he made me wait for a long time and

23:49

I I I thought I said to myself, "He's

23:51

going to kill me." I mean, I don't even

23:53

know what's going to happen right now.

23:55

Cuz he was a

23:56

was a terrifying

23:59

individual.

24:00

And a very powerful.

24:02

And just to give you some context, when

24:05

I started working for him

24:06

I used to always say to him, "I'm really

24:08

worried about your soul."

24:11

Like you're not a nice person, you know?

24:14

And and I saw him in a business context.

24:17

And then later when I got to know him

24:18

better I saw him with his family and he

24:20

was very kind.

24:21

But he used to say to me all the time,

24:24

"You you're going to

24:25

you're going to get trampled over.

24:27

Like you need to toughen up."

24:29

And so anyway, so he walks into the room

24:31

and he has this terrifying look on his

24:32

face and he looks at me and he goes,

24:34

"I'm proud of you."

24:36

It was like graduation day.

24:39

For better or worse,

24:40

you know?

24:42

It's hard to know how to feel about that

24:43

moment now sitting here decades later.

24:47

So from that moment when you host that

24:49

first game, you upgrade everything. You

24:50

upgrade the experience for your

24:51

customers.

24:52

Mhm.

24:52

Um eventually

24:55

you set your sights on New York but for

24:56

a variety of different reasons, and you

24:58

moved the games from being based in

25:00

California and LA to being based in New

25:02

York City.

25:03

I lost the LA game.

25:05

You lost it, someone took it from you.

25:06

Yes.

25:07

Hm, karma.

25:08

Yeah,

25:09

totally.

25:13

Not going to argue with that.

25:14

Who who took it from you?

25:16

Uh, one of the most famous movie stars

25:19

in the game.

25:21

Leonardo DiCaprio?

25:23

No.

25:23

Uh, someone took the games from you, a

25:26

movie star said, "I'm going to go do it

25:29

at my house."

25:30

Give me an option first.

25:32

Um,

25:33

you can either

25:34

start making less money.

25:38

So, this is very interesting.

25:40

There was this player in the game

25:42

who you can't name.

25:43

I I won't name.

25:45

Mhm.

25:46

But they're big male movie star.

25:48

Making so much money.

25:49

Okay. How much money we talking, like

25:51

hundreds of millions?

25:52

Yeah.

25:52

Okay.

25:53

But became

25:55

I would say logically obsessed with this

25:57

game and structuring the game so that he

25:59

could win all the time.

26:01

So, make sure that he was the best

26:03

player in the game and that there were

26:04

no other uh, there was no one better

26:06

than he was.

26:07

Dan Bilzerian said that he was kicked

26:09

out of the game because he was really

26:10

good.

26:11

Oh, well, listen, I

26:13

Dan showed up playing this kind of

26:17

ruse that he was just this clueless

26:21

trust fund kid, okay?

26:23

And people bought it. And I sat I sat

26:27

there watching him and I'm like, this

26:28

dude knows what he's doing, you know?

26:31

And I and I said, "Respect, right? Like,

26:34

you're hustling, I'm hustling, but you

26:36

can't play in this game, you're going to

26:37

take everyone's money.

26:39

You're bad for business. I wish you the

26:41

best."

26:42

So, you kicked Dan Bilzerian out of the

26:44

game.

26:45

I had to.

26:48

He was too good.

26:49

Yeah.

26:50

Okay, so he wasn't he was telling the

26:51

truth.

26:52

Yeah, and yeah, for sure.

26:55

So this this Hollywood star that took

26:57

you that stole your game from you.

26:59

So he was really obsessed with the game

27:01

and he was obsessed with the money that

27:02

he was making and being the biggest

27:04

winner.

27:05

And the truth is at the end of the year

27:08

the money that I was making by that

27:10

point was millions.

27:11

And he believed that was money that

27:14

should be going into his pocket even

27:15

though by this point I was traveling the

27:17

world recruiting players. I had a staff

27:19

of 20 people. I handled all the

27:22

logistics. I handled

27:23

credit extensions, collections. I was on

27:26

the hook if someone didn't pay. I had I

27:27

had a full business. I was paying my

27:29

taxes, you know, um there was so much

27:32

work and sweat equity and I had branded

27:34

the game in this incredible way and I uh

27:38

I you know, I took notes every single

27:40

game. Here are the areas that work, here

27:42

doesn't. Let me do some deeper research.

27:45

Um

27:46

and you know, just really thinking

27:48

turning down

27:50

cash and cars and free rolls from the

27:52

pros

27:54

I to get a seat

27:56

to protect the integrity of the game and

27:59

you know, like taking paying the debts

28:01

from my own bank account so that to make

28:03

sure people got paid faster. I mean

28:05

there was It wasn't I wasn't serving

28:07

drinks anymore.

28:08

And so when he said to me, "You're

28:09

making too much money,

28:11

you have the option of making less and

28:14

I'll let you keep the game."

28:17

Look, by this time I

28:19

I had become a strategic thinker. I had

28:21

really been able to

28:25

get out of emotional decision-making,

28:28

but I do believe that there's a time and

28:29

a place for emotional decision-making

28:31

and and so I knew that turning down that

28:34

offer, there was a

28:35

large

28:37

the odds were I was going to lose the

28:38

game, but I knew that accepting that

28:40

offer meant no autonomy for me, no

28:42

freedom, and no dignity, and

28:45

What was the offer, sorry?

28:46

I had to would have to cap my salary and

28:50

make it and and have him approve how

28:53

much I'm making.

28:55

Why would What was he bringing to the

28:56

table where you can just kick him out?

28:58

Was he bringing a lot of

28:59

Celebrity power, yeah.

29:00

and celebrity power.

29:01

Yeah, this in this town?

29:03

So he he was he basically said to you,

29:04

"Listen, you're making a lot of money.

29:06

I'm I'm bringing a lot to the table cuz

29:08

I'm bringing celebrities and contacts

29:09

and legitimacy to this. So

29:12

I'll put a cap on your earnings and I

29:14

get the rest of what you're making, but

29:16

I'll continue to do my part."

29:17

Yes.

29:17

So he kind of wanted to make you his

29:18

employee.

29:19

Right.

29:20

How did you feel about that?

29:21

I never want to be anyone's employee

29:23

ever again.

29:23

But how did you feel about him?

29:26

Cuz when you said it, you looked a bit

29:27

pissed off.

29:28

To be honest.

29:29

Uh did I?

29:31

A little bit. You looked a bit like

29:32

there was still a little bit of maybe

29:33

resentment to that moment.

29:34

You know, I think that there's just

29:35

conviction to that moment.

29:37

Right.

29:37

Of cuz I think we live uh

29:40

in a day and age where a lot of people

29:41

try to um

29:43

not in a day and age it's it's reality

29:46

that a lot of people um

29:50

try to misuse power.

29:52

And I think it's really important to

29:56

talk about

29:59

you know, sort of dignity in the face of

30:00

that and and

30:02

and turning the offers down.

30:04

So you said no, what happens then?

30:06

Called me about a week later and with

30:07

this

30:09

almost jubilant

30:12

laugh and tone was like, "Don't You're

30:14

done."

30:17

How could he ensure that you were done?

30:19

He had colluded with the biggest

30:23

whale in the game. A whale in the in a

30:25

gambling context with a lot of money

30:27

who's not very good, who's willing to

30:28

lose a lot of money.

30:29

And this person had endless funds and he

30:32

had colluded

30:34

with him

30:36

to have the game at his house and that

30:39

was where the money was for everyone.

30:42

And you asked me a question, how do I

30:43

feel about this person?

30:45

Um

30:46

here's my answer.

30:47

This was a really long time ago.

30:50

Um

30:52

and

30:54

I've totally forgiven him.

30:58

So, you lose the game.

30:59

I lose the game.

31:01

I was

31:03

devastated.

31:05

What's going through your mind at that

31:06

moment?

31:07

I'm done.

31:08

I'm never going to be able to make this

31:09

much money again. I'm never going to be

31:12

I'm going to have to go join

31:13

some you know, I'm going to have to go

31:16

work for someone else. I'm not going to

31:17

be able to be my own boss. I'm not going

31:19

to live in this

31:21

fascinating, adventurous underworld

31:23

where I get to, you know, pull the

31:25

strings and move the chess pieces and

31:28

and

31:29

and I have to go join the real world

31:31

where

31:34

I'm not extraordinary. You know, I mean,

31:37

I'm just telling you what's gone through

31:38

my mind. Now, when I say these things,

31:39

it's like

31:41

it is what it is, but

31:43

So, you eventually moved to New York.

31:46

Yes.

31:46

Um 30 years old at this point?

31:49

I'm 31 at that point.

31:51

Okay.

31:51

Yeah.

31:53

Um so,

31:55

you know, I

31:56

I bet

31:56

my parents said this is a great time for

31:58

you to go back to school. You've saved

31:59

all this money. You've learned all this,

32:02

you know, you've gained all this

32:03

information. You have this incredible

32:04

network.

32:05

And I said to them, you're absolutely

32:07

right. But I have something that I need

32:10

to prove to myself, at least. Because

32:12

the plan was never to run Poker Room for

32:14

the rest of my life. I don't think

32:15

that's something that's sustainable. The

32:17

lifestyle was not conducive for raising

32:19

a family.

32:20

Um

32:21

late nights

32:23

you know, crazy adrenaline. It was not

32:25

something that I could imagine myself

32:28

doing for the rest of my life. I knew I

32:30

needed to walk away at some point. I

32:31

knew I needed to parlay it into

32:32

something that was

32:35

less underground, less gray.

32:37

But,

32:39

you know, I have to tell you, there was

32:41

something very thrilling about it.

32:44

Um

32:46

but then I got angry.

32:48

And I had something to prove and there

32:50

was just nothing that was going to stop

32:51

me.

32:52

What made you angry?

32:54

Feeling like I had been disposed of so

32:56

effortlessly.

32:59

Something that I, you know, something

33:01

stolen from me that I had

33:04

curated and built and, you know, he said

33:07

karma before and and there is

33:10

some truth to that, but

33:12

I did everything

33:15

justly.

33:17

You know?

33:18

I left money on the my own money on the

33:21

table to curate this incredible

33:22

experience. Um I I ran the games with

33:26

ultimate integrity.

33:28

You know, I I wasn't unkind to anybody.

33:32

I just felt

33:34

it was really unfair.

33:36

And so, also,

33:39

I was embarrassed.

33:42

You know?

33:44

So, I decided I was going to build the

33:46

biggest poker game in the world.

33:48

Like

33:49

five times, 10 times bigger than the

33:51

game in LA.

33:52

And then I would go away.

33:55

I decided after doing some research

33:58

that I would do it in New York City

34:00

cuz it seemed like there were a lot of

34:02

gamblers

34:03

on Wall Street.

34:05

There were many problems with my plan.

34:07

First of all, I didn't really know

34:09

anyone in New York City.

34:10

It's

34:11

that sort of like billionaire

34:15

Wall Street world is not so easy to

34:16

penetrate.

34:18

Um secondly, it was 2008.

34:21

So, the economy

34:23

and Wall Street had just been brought to

34:25

its knees

34:27

in the most profound way since probably

34:29

the depression.

34:31

And thirdly, there were some pretty

34:33

scary characters running

34:37

games in in New York who'd been doing it

34:39

for 20 years.

34:43

But, you know, it's it's testament to

34:47

when

34:49

when the

34:50

you're obsessed with something, when

34:52

when

34:53

the end like you'll do anything

34:55

unfettered ambition, you'll do anything

34:57

to get there.

34:59

Things are possible for better or worse.

35:03

So,

35:04

you know, I made moves.

35:06

I did research. And I interviewed poker

35:08

players.

35:10

And I found out who the right people

35:11

were to talk to, and I found out

35:14

what was wrong with the current system.

35:17

What was wrong with the current games

35:19

and and where I could improve on that. I

35:20

already knew I could I already knew I

35:21

could bring the branding and the

35:23

experience, which was meaningful. It

35:25

truly was meaningful.

35:27

Um but what I found is in these big

35:29

games in these New York games, a lot of

35:31

the game runners were kind of running a

35:33

Ponzi scheme. If they didn't get paid,

35:35

they wouldn't pay out. They're playing

35:37

in their own games. Whether they were

35:38

winning or losing would dictate the rake

35:40

of that night. And the rake is the

35:41

illegal tax that most of the game

35:44

runners were taking.

35:46

And so, it was a matter of treating

35:48

people fairly. It was a matter of being

35:50

trustworthy and consistent and um having

35:54

integrity.

35:55

And and then I and

35:57

you know, the biggest thing I could do

36:00

to instill that trust and to have

36:02

integrity and to eradicate the fear was

36:05

to become the bank.

36:08

I would now MDB Inc. would now become

36:10

the bank.

36:11

Guarantee the games.

36:13

Pay if there is

36:15

um if somebody stiffed, I would pay.

36:18

What does a stiff mean?

36:19

Meaning they

36:20

lost money in the game and then didn't

36:22

pay the debt.

36:23

Okay.

36:25

I I understand that. Surely to get the

36:27

chips they have to pay that for them up

36:28

front.

36:28

No, when you run a weekly game,

36:30

ultimately you establish a credit

36:32

relationship with someone.

36:33

Okay, right.

36:34

Um, because otherwise like these people

36:37

would have to bring $5 million in cash

36:39

to every week. It's just not reasonable.

36:41

It's not feasible.

36:42

So, tell me about the peak of your New

36:44

York games then. So, when you're at the

36:46

peak, what does that look like?

36:47

So, I started this big game.

36:49

Called?

36:51

They're all just called Molly's Game.

36:52

Okay.

36:52

Yeah.

36:53

Um,

36:55

So, it was a $250,000 buy-in. And then

36:58

this was the game that someone would

37:00

ultimately end up losing $100 million in

37:02

one night in.

37:03

Say that again.

37:06

Someone

37:06

Explain explain all of this to me like

37:07

I'm a chimpanzee from that documentary

37:09

you talked about before we started

37:10

recording.

37:12

So, when you sit down to play at a poker

37:13

game,

37:15

there are a couple

37:16

numbers that matter. What's the buy-in?

37:19

My LA game, the buy-in to sit down and

37:21

get chips and get a chair was $50,000. I

37:24

started at $10, I raised it to 50.

37:27

The New York game was $250,000.

37:30

So, I couldn't sit down unless I brought

37:32

$250,000 to lose.

37:34

That's right. Then, the other

37:38

relevant numbers are what are the

37:40

blinds? Meaning, what do you have to bet

37:44

um,

37:45

each round

37:47

to

37:49

to to to play the game.

37:51

To start at the start of the round.

37:52

Yeah, and there's a small blind and a

37:53

big blind and it just goes around the

37:54

table.

37:55

Yeah.

37:55

And and so, these games played so big,

37:58

there was so much action, the blinds

37:59

were so high that, you know, that

38:01

initial buy-in would be gone with some

38:04

people in the first 20 minutes.

38:06

So, then they'd have to come to me and

38:07

say, "I need another 250." And I would

38:08

have to decide in that moment,

38:11

"Can they pay this?

38:12

Are they good for the money?"

38:14

Um, and so, I would have to

38:16

start to establish this relationship,

38:18

this financial relationship with people

38:21

based on trust a lot of times.

38:23

But, there are a couple things that kept

38:24

that kept me safe.

38:26

Number one, to stiff this game was

38:28

social reputational suicide.

38:32

People would start to say, "Oh,

38:34

they don't have money anymore." Number

38:36

two, there wasn't a game like it where

38:38

you could play with some of your biggest

38:40

heroes. I mean, there was so much

38:42

business that got done at these games.

38:43

The things that I saw created, you know,

38:45

was mind-blowing.

38:47

But also,

38:47

And you couldn't just go to the police

38:48

if they stiffed you, right?

38:50

No, there's there's no recourse unless

38:52

you're willing to go to

38:54

um

38:55

muscle.

38:57

Mafia?

38:58

Yeah.

38:59

Organized crime.

39:00

Why couldn't you go to the police?

39:02

Because it's not

39:06

illegal to stiff me or a or a or a game.

39:11

It's illegal to stiff You need a

39:13

gambling license in order to have those

39:16

types of privileges.

39:18

So, you can go to jail in Vegas for

39:20

stiffing

39:21

your gambling debt. But you can't go to

39:23

jail for stiffing me.

39:26

Okay.

39:27

I gave you the money. It's a loan.

39:31

So, what you're saying you you saw

39:32

someone lose a hundred million dollars

39:33

in a night?

39:34

Yes.

39:35

How how how did that happen?

39:40

The game was playing huge. They were

39:42

also playing backgammon. They were also

39:44

betting sports.

39:47

Obviously, I didn't I can't guarantee a

39:49

hundred million dollars.

39:50

So, I'm out after a certain point.

39:53

But

39:55

and that was shortly

39:56

before I got in trouble, but that game

39:58

that I established, the the combination

40:01

of the the big game in LA and the big

40:03

game in New York

40:04

sort of joined together and became a

40:05

billionaire's game, and people over

40:08

a year's time would lose a billion

40:09

dollars.

40:11

People were I mean,

40:13

there was rumors that a couple

40:15

billionaires went broke

40:16

playing in that game.

40:18

Fully broke.

40:19

And this

40:20

Here comes to a part

40:23

of this story

40:25

that

40:26

is I think really important.

40:29

I started to see something I could not

40:31

unsee anymore.

40:33

Which was

40:34

in the beginning, I just believed rich

40:37

people

40:38

could never lose their money, knew what

40:39

they were doing.

40:41

Um and that this was just their form of

40:43

entertainment. And what I started to see

40:46

is that a

40:48

a vast majority of the players in these

40:50

games, particularly the big games, were

40:51

gambling addicts.

40:53

Totally owned by the addiction of

40:57

gambling.

40:58

And

41:00

I at some point

41:02

had to decide

41:04

whether I was okay

41:06

with playing my part in that.

41:10

And

41:12

my answer by my actions was clearly yes.

41:15

But I paid a huge price for it inside.

41:18

And I that

41:21

sort of started to enable me to make

41:24

other decisions that were not aligned

41:25

with my integrity.

41:27

And that had a directly inverse

41:29

proportional effect on how much I liked

41:31

myself, how much I

41:34

my self-esteem, how much I believed in

41:36

myself,

41:37

the kind of person I started to be.

41:40

And um

41:44

what had been up until this point

41:48

about trying to be an entrepreneur and

41:50

be gutsy and make money and and you

41:53

know, sort of like source power and but

41:55

do it in in a a way where I'm retaining

41:58

who I am and integrity

42:00

started to be exclusively about the

42:02

money and the power and the status.

42:05

And I started other games in the city

42:07

and I

42:10

didn't

42:11

care

42:13

if somebody could afford it or not.

42:16

And I was drinking a lot and I was

42:18

taking a lot of

42:20

um

42:21

pharmaceutical pills like Adderall to

42:24

stay up and Xanax to come down and

42:28

um you know, just started to live

42:31

this life of of very little

42:34

self-analysis.

42:36

You compromised your integrity.

42:37

I did.

42:39

Big time.

42:41

How?

42:43

I'm not I don't

42:45

have judgments

42:48

whether or not like

42:51

you know, that sports betting just

42:53

became legal. Sports betting so many

42:55

people on my indictment got indicted for

42:58

sports betting. Now it's legal. Now if

43:00

you live in New York, New Jersey,

43:02

you can download an app, connect it to

43:03

your bank account, watch a tennis game,

43:05

pretty much everything that happens in

43:07

that game is a bettable moment. You can

43:09

also do that with a Charles Schwab

43:10

account.

43:12

I harbor no judgment for

43:17

DraftKings whoever the companies are,

43:19

the CEOs are.

43:20

It matters who you are.

43:22

Right? For me,

43:25

once I realized that what I was doing

43:28

was

43:29

using all my resources, all my skills,

43:33

all my intelligence

43:34

to do to

43:37

to push an activity

43:40

that was ruining a lot of people's

43:41

lives,

43:44

that was a insult to my integrity. That

43:47

that was getting out of alignment with

43:49

who I am and what I care about in the

43:51

world.

43:52

What were you good at? So at that peak

43:55

moment, when you do a skills order of

43:57

why you were successful,

43:59

Mhm.

43:59

what appears on that skills order?

44:01

Very good at strategy.

44:03

Seeing a problem,

44:05

coming up with a solution,

44:07

setting a goal

44:08

that has,

44:10

you know, most of the time

44:12

pretty slight odds, figuring out how to

44:14

get there.

44:15

So, I'd become very good at strategy.

44:18

I'd become, um,

44:20

really good with people.

44:22

I became so good at it that I became

44:24

manipulative.

44:26

And I was

44:27

using those skills to manipulate people

44:29

for my personal gain, period. It's not a

44:32

win-win.

44:37

And all of these things, the the

44:39

lifestyle that you've chosen to live in

44:40

the way you've chosen to live it, you

44:41

speak of the internal conflict this

44:44

creates.

44:45

Yeah.

44:46

Right? Um Were you depressed at that

44:48

point in your life?

44:49

How was if I was a fly on the wall when

44:51

you were going home?

44:52

What would I have seen? What would I,

44:54

you know, if if I was a fly on the wall

44:56

that could

44:58

feel what you're feeling, what would I

44:59

felt? And what would I have seen?

45:02

I was very depressed.

45:05

Very disappointed with myself.

45:08

Um

45:09

and completely

45:12

powerless over these forces.

45:16

Money.

45:18

At the By this point, drugs.

45:21

And when I say drugs, like I wasn't

45:23

I didn't like the inconsistency and the

45:25

unreliability of street drugs. I liked

45:28

the the consistency and formulation of

45:30

of, um,

45:32

pharmaceuticals. They allowed me to be

45:35

productive and not feel myself.

45:37

Not feel the world.

45:39

Um, I was drinking a lot.

45:41

Why didn't you want to feel the world?

45:42

What were you escaping from?

45:43

Myself. What I was doing.

45:47

The

45:49

the way that I was living.

45:50

What was it you were so ashamed of about

45:52

the way that you were living outside of

45:53

the games?

45:54

I had stopped

45:56

really communicating, showing up for my

45:58

family.

46:00

At times didn't treat people

46:02

that worked for me

46:04

as well as I'd like to.

46:06

I started to have

46:08

you know, New York was a was a trip. I

46:11

had

46:12

all these beautiful, interesting,

46:14

compelling women that worked for me.

46:16

And although I always wanted them, I

46:19

always wanted to mentor them and

46:21

and provide them with opportunity, the

46:23

truth is is that I just made sure they

46:26

made enough money so they stayed in that

46:27

darkness with me.

46:30

And I didn't

46:32

hold myself to the same accountability

46:35

that I would hold myself now to in a

46:36

friendship.

46:39

I pay them so much money. I don't have

46:41

to show up for their birthday, right?

46:44

It was a it I had even if I didn't act

46:48

like it, in my mind there was a

46:49

hierarchy. So I had no authentic

46:51

relationships or very few.

46:54

Um

46:56

Those were the reasons.

46:57

Were you in a relationship at this

46:59

point?

47:00

So I was in a relationship for most of

47:02

the LA game and that ended right around

47:04

the same time that my game ended.

47:08

And then I went to

47:12

New York and had sort of a secret

47:14

relationship.

47:16

One of the big player's little brother

47:20

who kind of did my role in the beginning

47:23

of handing out chips and everything.

47:26

I found to be this deeply fascinating,

47:28

brilliant

47:29

heart-centered person and so we were in

47:32

the secret relationship but I didn't

47:33

want anyone to know cuz he was

47:37

he didn't measure up to the

47:39

the persona that I was trying to sell.

47:41

Which was very hurtful to him.

47:45

How did he know?

47:46

I told him we can't tell anyone.

47:48

Did you tell him why you can't tell

47:49

anybody?

47:50

Said it's bad for business.

47:53

Is that what hurt him?

47:54

You just saying it was bad for business?

47:56

Cuz if you said that to me and we're in

47:57

a relationship, I'd think, "Okay, you

47:59

Okay, you don't want to com- uh

48:00

complicate the dynamics. You don't want

48:02

some people to know that someone you're

48:03

in you're involved with romantically is

48:05

also kind of attached to the game." So,

48:08

Yeah, I mean, I think in the beginning

48:09

it made sense, right? But down the road,

48:11

I think it became very clear.

48:14

And we we had conversations about it.

48:17

Mhm.

48:18

At some point, the the mafia show up.

48:20

Yeah.

48:22

So, here's the kind of uh

48:25

levels and stages of the

48:28

the train wreck.

48:30

So, the first thing that happened was I

48:31

I had just recruited these guys.

48:33

They were Russian-American businessmen.

48:36

They had the air of being Ivy League.

48:39

Seemed so legitimate.

48:40

I had people vetted within an inch of

48:42

their life. I used to hire the same

48:44

people that vet politicians, for

48:45

instance,

48:47

to vet people.

48:48

I had bank employees on my payroll to

48:50

find out people's liquidity. I mean, it

48:51

was a whole process, you know? It's a

48:53

lot of money.

48:54

And

48:55

big risk to bring some a stranger into a

48:58

room with important people.

49:01

And their stories checked out, but there

49:02

is something in my gut that told me it

49:04

was off.

49:05

And it turns out that they were running

49:07

the biggest insurance fraud scheme in

49:08

New York City history.

49:10

And they had alleged ties to the Russian

49:13

mob.

49:14

So, then the feds start to pay attention

49:16

to this $100 million poker game where

49:19

people can show up with

49:21

millions of dollars in cash and get a

49:23

check.

49:24

Right?

49:25

Pretty ripe for a

49:27

corruption.

49:29

Um and interesting for them.

49:32

The next thing that happened was I had a

49:35

Yeah, I had a run-in with Italian

49:36

organized crime.

49:37

And I I guess naively I thought that

49:41

I knew that

49:42

gambling was always one of the ways that

49:45

organized crime earns.

49:48

But, you know, I was having the games at

49:49

the Plaza Hotel with billionaires and

49:53

players for the New York Yankees and I I

49:54

just believed that there was enough

49:56

separation.

49:58

But by this time I had become the

49:59

biggest game runner in New York City and

50:01

they didn't care.

50:02

They didn't care who my clients were.

50:04

And they

50:05

were really clear with me. Uh

50:08

you know, if you want to continue to run

50:09

these games, you're going to have to

50:11

give us a piece.

50:13

And

50:14

we all know Vinnie in that movie, right?

50:18

And I tried to politely I politely

50:20

declined their offer and

50:22

tried to explain to them in business

50:24

terms why that wouldn't work for me and

50:26

and just went on my merry way

50:28

and started to avoid their calls.

50:31

And uh they didn't just go away.

50:34

And they sent this terrifying guy to my

50:37

apartment.

50:39

And he put a gun in my mouth

50:41

which is

50:42

something that you just never forget.

50:46

And he beat the hell out of me.

50:50

And um took everything that was in my

50:52

safe including photographs.

50:55

The you know, a couple things I had from

50:57

my grandmother.

51:00

And

51:01

you know, he said

51:04

I think your answer will be different

51:05

next time.

51:07

And if you tell anyone about this

51:10

I know where your family lives in in

51:11

Colorado.

51:14

And so

51:15

a couple things here.

51:17

First of all, if somebody comes into

51:18

your apartment in the you know, in the

51:20

real world, in real life

51:22

and puts a gun in your mouth and steals

51:24

things from you and beats you up

51:27

cracks your ribs

51:29

you have somewhere to go.

51:31

You call the police, you call your

51:32

family, you call your friends.

51:35

It was

51:36

undeniable now that what I was doing was

51:39

so deeply dangerous and underground.

51:42

And I was completely alone in it. I I

51:44

was too afraid to to tell anyone.

51:46

And so I'm trying to like

51:48

And also

51:49

now I'm not just putting my own life in

51:51

danger, right?

51:53

Like I'm in way over my head.

51:56

And my family's a danger in danger now.

52:01

And I'm just I mean it is so heavy

52:04

and so much and for the first time in my

52:07

life

52:09

I don't have any strategy.

52:11

I don't

52:13

I have no idea what I'm going to do.

52:16

And then I got so lucky.

52:19

Uh you know, my only contact with

52:20

outside world was

52:22

food delivery um

52:26

and and then and the New York Times. And

52:28

a couple days later I got the New York

52:29

Times and it said 125 arrested in the

52:32

biggest mob-related takedown

52:34

in New York City history.

52:36

And I never heard from them again.

52:39

But you know

52:41

disaster is a coming.

52:44

It's just

52:46

And the the last thing that happened

52:47

before the whole thing blows up was um

52:50

you know, for most of my poker running

52:52

career I was I was running these games

52:53

legally

52:54

according to this playbook that had been

52:56

written for me by

52:58

by my attorneys.

53:00

And one of the biggest ones that

53:02

differentiated me from a lot of the

53:04

games in the city

53:05

and LA was that I didn't take a rake.

53:08

I didn't take a a percentage of each pot

53:10

at the end of the game

53:12

you winners tip.

53:14

You know

53:15

I'm extending people millions of

53:16

dollars.

53:18

I'm in charge of the nine seats that

53:20

people are

53:22

a lot of them are

53:24

pathologically addicted to.

53:26

At the end of the night I I got paid a

53:28

lot of money. I was making four to six

53:29

million dollars a year.

53:31

And um

53:32

Just from tips?

53:33

Yeah.

53:35

So what where did that

53:37

four to six million dollars a year come

53:38

from from

53:40

The winners. So the winners would play

53:42

in the game and if they won,

53:45

you know,

53:46

they would tip a percentage, 1 to 5% of

53:49

their wins.

53:50

Games were huge.

53:53

Then I was running multiple games around

53:55

the city.

53:58

Paying my taxes. I have an event

54:00

planning company.

54:02

But, you know,

54:05

I was a mess.

54:07

And

54:08

I started to get reckless about who I

54:10

was letting in the games and

54:13

and and who I was letting play and my

54:15

debt sheet started to get bigger and I

54:16

started to take a rake.

54:18

I started to partner with some people

54:19

that,

54:21

you know, were not necessarily

54:26

the right people to partner with and um

54:29

and the the feds had thrown a

54:31

confidential informant in the games by

54:33

that point.

54:35

And he tracked that. And so, around the

54:38

end of that year, I got a text message

54:40

from one of my employees at one of my

54:41

games and they said, "The FBI's here

54:43

looking for you.

54:45

Don't come here."

54:46

And so, um

54:48

you know, I

54:50

I knew finally it was game over.

54:54

It was game over.

54:55

Mhm.

54:57

And you realized that when you got that

54:58

call saying the FBI are here looking for

55:00

you.

55:00

Yeah.

55:02

How did you feel at that moment when you

55:04

hear Someone calls me and says the FBI

55:05

are looking for me.

55:07

Terrified.

55:09

I want my mom and I want my dad. I want

55:12

to go back in time. I don't want to do

55:14

any of this.

55:17

Don't even know how to process this.

55:20

And then,

55:21

a couple hours later it got even worse.

55:24

I got um

55:26

you know, I went back to my apartment

55:27

and the whole time, I mean, it's like

55:29

you're in a movie. You're

55:31

up

55:31

looking around every corner. Is Are they

55:33

going to be there to apprehend me?

55:35

And um

55:37

I packed a bag and grabbed my dog and

55:40

you know

55:41

tried to book a plane ticket to Denver

55:43

from JFK.

55:45

And

55:46

my credit card got declined which was

55:48

strange. And then my debit card got

55:50

declined which was really strange.

55:52

And I logged into my accounts and the

55:54

account balance read negative nine

55:55

million nine hundred ninety nine

55:57

thousand ninety nine dollars in all of

55:59

my accounts.

56:02

Why?

56:03

Because the feds had seized every single

56:04

penny.

56:06

And then some.

56:14

So what happens then? Did you manage to

56:15

get out of New York?

56:16

I did. I managed to get out of New York.

56:18

I got home to Colorado.

56:20

I'm at my mom's house. My attorneys are

56:22

talking to

56:24

the feds and they said

56:26

basically in in this country

56:30

you as a person have the presumption of

56:32

innocence

56:34

but your property does not.

56:36

So someone can't just come get you

56:39

unless

56:40

it was under some of those like

56:42

after 9/11 or whatever but you know

56:44

let's let's just keep it simple.

56:45

Someone can't can't just get you, throw

56:47

you into jail, say that you're guilty.

56:49

You have

56:51

the right to a trial.

56:52

With your money, with your property,

56:54

it's different.

56:56

There's a division of the government

56:58

called asset forfeiture that can just

57:00

take it. And then you have to go into

57:02

legal proceedings to try to get it back.

57:04

And so basically what that would involve

57:06

is me going on record talking about this

57:09

game and telling how I made this money

57:11

which for the most part I'd made it

57:13

legally

57:15

but you know, the past several months I

57:17

hadn't and it would be an admission on

57:19

record of a crime.

57:21

So I couldn't.

57:22

I couldn't do that.

57:25

And at this point they said we she we're

57:27

not interested in her as

57:30

you know, we're we're not pursuing

57:31

anything criminally against her and if

57:33

we are, we'll let her know.

57:35

So, I just went I just

57:38

I just went home.

57:39

What do your parents think of you when

57:40

you come home at this point?

57:42

I don't even know what they think of me.

57:43

I think they're extremely worried.

57:46

I think that

57:49

my dad had been writing me handwritten

57:50

letters every year telling me that what

57:53

I was doing was going to end badly,

57:55

pleading with me to do something

57:57

different.

57:58

Um So, I think my dad was angry.

58:03

Um my mom's just scared and I think

58:06

they're also relieved.

58:08

Right? Like

58:10

they were you know

58:13

They knew that what I was doing was

58:15

dangerous. They knew it was

58:17

I was up late at night running around

58:19

with large sums of cash. I mean, they

58:22

had many sleepless nights.

58:25

At some point the FBI gives you an

58:28

ultimatum regarding

58:30

becoming a snitch.

58:32

Oh, okay. So,

58:33

it took 2 years.

58:35

For those 2 years, I moved in with my

58:37

mom. I got sober.

58:39

I

58:40

At 35 years old?

58:41

No, I'm not 35 yet. I'm

58:43

33?

58:44

33.

58:46

Um got sober.

58:50

Trekked to Machu Picchu, did some soul

58:52

deep soul searching. Um finally got a

58:56

job, moved back to Los Angeles.

58:59

7 days later, this is 2 years later,

59:01

okay? I don't think anything's coming. I

59:03

have

59:05

rehabilitated myself, you know, and I've

59:07

been living with my mom and my grandma

59:10

in the mountains of Colorado.

59:13

So, I move back to LA 7 days later, in

59:15

the middle of the night, I get arrested

59:17

by 17 FBI agents, machine guns, high

59:19

beam flashlights. They put me in

59:21

handcuffs and they put this piece of

59:23

paper in front of me that says The

59:24

United States of America versus Molly

59:26

Bloom.

59:27

I'm thrown into this wild indictment.

59:30

I'm looking at real time in prison.

59:32

How much?

59:33

The press release said 90 years. I think

59:35

realistically it was more like 10.

59:38

Um but

59:40

um

59:41

you know, I have a day and a half to get

59:42

to New York City to find an attorney

59:45

that's going to represent me in the

59:46

fight of my life and I don't have a

59:48

dollar.

59:50

My dad and I aren't speaking.

59:53

Why?

59:55

Because he got mad at me and I got mad

59:56

at him.

59:59

Because the

60:01

the age-old

60:04

unexplored resentments

60:07

and rife

60:09

you know, came to a head.

60:14

This is my biggest fear,

60:16

right?

60:18

Failing this spectacularly

60:20

in front of the world. The tabloids are

60:22

covering it.

60:24

So,

60:25

I had a day and a half to get to New

60:26

York City to find an attorney.

60:29

And you know, I don't have a dollar. My

60:30

mom just put her house up to bail me out

60:32

of jail.

60:33

My dad's and I aren't speaking.

60:35

So,

60:36

my best friend,

60:39

you know, loaned me a little money, but

60:41

I'm

60:42

sitting down with people who are quoting

60:43

three to six million dollars.

60:46

And

60:47

250 to even look at it.

60:51

And so, I have

60:52

like eight meetings that day before the

60:54

indictment or before the arraignment.

60:56

And

60:57

seven out of the eight all said, you

60:59

know, Molly, I really wish you the best,

61:01

but without a retainer I can't represent

61:02

you. And then I met Jim Walden

61:04

who

61:06

uh was at a very prestigious

61:09

law firm

61:10

and kind of like listened to my story,

61:14

looked at my mom, and said,

61:16

"I'm going to help you."

61:20

And Jim and I started working together.

61:23

And I'll never forget something he said

61:25

to me.

61:26

You know, I went in and I said, "Look, I

61:28

don't have the money to fight this, so

61:30

but

61:31

I can't do 10 years.

61:34

You know, and I I I have to have a life

61:35

after this. So, what is our strategy and

61:38

what is our angle?" And he said, "You

61:40

know what? Integrity is going to be our

61:41

strategy and our angle."

61:43

I'm just sitting across from Jim Walden,

61:45

who is nothing but integrity, who is

61:48

this attorney who has spent his life

61:49

fighting the good fight, who continues

61:52

to fight the good fight, who spent the

61:53

first part of his career in the Eastern

61:55

District of New York fearlessly going

61:57

after the five crime families, who's

61:59

looking at my indictment and saying this

62:00

is [ __ ]

62:02

Right?

62:03

And um

62:04

and taking on this case and and fighting

62:06

for me because no one else would.

62:08

And

62:10

he's talking about integrity, and I just

62:12

had this moment of like

62:16

it all hit me, you know?

62:18

Who I wanted to be,

62:20

how far I had come from that, and for

62:23

what?

62:25

And uh

62:26

I made a decision in that room that day

62:29

that I

62:30

could never ever abandon myself again in

62:33

that way. I could never abandon the

62:35

things that I knew to be true to my to

62:38

who I am. And and one of those is is is

62:41

integrity and doing what I believe to be

62:43

the right thing.

62:45

And

62:46

you know, a couple weeks later

62:48

the prosecutors wanted to meet me,

62:50

and they really wanted me to be a

62:52

confidential informant.

62:53

Snitch?

62:54

Yeah.

62:55

And you know, Jim believes this is the

62:57

whole reason that they brought the

62:59

indictment.

63:00

So that you would snitch on the players

63:02

in the game and

63:03

Yeah, and they didn't care about the

63:05

mobsters

63:06

or the people running the insurance

63:07

fraud scheme. I think they already had

63:09

what they needed on those.

63:10

They cared about inside information that

63:13

I could potentially provide them with on

63:15

the billionaires, the bankers, the

63:19

celebrities, the politicians.

63:21

And I you know you spend enough time

63:22

with people you do get that inside

63:24

information. Now I want to be really

63:26

clear about something.

63:28

If there was someone in my game that was

63:30

doing really bad like if Epstein was in

63:33

my game and I knew that he was

63:34

trafficking children or whatever like I

63:37

would have given that information freely

63:39

and before this.

63:41

But what I knew

63:43

Was Epstein in your game?

63:45

No.

63:45

you were saying

63:46

No no no I'm saying if there was a

63:48

character like him right? I would have

63:51

Never protected someone like him.

63:53

Mhm.

63:54

But the things that they were interested

63:56

in to me

63:58

Who's booking sports?

64:00

It's about to become legal in two years

64:02

in New York and New Jersey. You're going

64:03

to drag somebody's family through the

64:05

mud and I'm going to be the you know

64:07

your your your accomplice with that?

64:12

Did they offer to restore your bank

64:13

accounts if you

64:14

to give me all my money back.

64:16

Which was how much money?

64:17

Millions.

64:18

So they were going to give you millions

64:19

if you snitched?

64:20

Yeah.

64:21

And also

64:23

They were going to give me a deferred

64:24

prosecution which would have kept you

64:26

know sort of given me a guarantee that I

64:28

would stay out of jail.

64:30

And I went home and I

64:33

You know I had a very short amount of

64:34

time to to make this choice something

64:36

like 48 hours.

64:37

And here's where I got to with it.

64:40

This place that I was in was 100% my

64:43

fault.

64:44

I did all of this. I had near perfect

64:47

information about the law. I had great

64:49

parents. I had a college education

64:52

almost completed. I had all the

64:54

opportunities in the world.

64:56

And I had chosen this and I had chosen

64:58

this path.

64:59

And

65:01

I had to own that you know and turning

65:03

around and

65:06

Ruining the lives of people who had

65:09

played in my game who'd made me very

65:10

wealthy. Many of them I saw their kids

65:12

grow up. To get out of the trouble of my

65:15

own choices did not feel in alignment

65:18

with

65:20

my true self.

65:24

So, you ultimately get sentenced?

65:26

I get sentenced.

65:28

I get a judge that's very disappointed

65:30

with me.

65:31

And um

65:33

but ultimately a

65:34

pretty reasonable guy who said, "Listen,

65:37

you were running poker games and it

65:38

seems like you've done a lot to change

65:39

your life.

65:41

I'm not I'm not going to sentence you to

65:42

prison."

65:43

Which

65:45

it's hard

65:46

to adequately express to you how big

65:48

that moment is.

65:49

Because you can do all you know I I used

65:51

to say to

65:52

Jim all the time, "Whatever, I'll go to

65:54

federal prison. I'll learn a new

65:55

language. I'll mentor some women." And

65:57

he's like, "That's not what it's like

66:00

in the prison system,

66:02

you know?"

66:04

People are dangerous and a lot of the

66:06

guards are dangerous and women get

66:08

raped. It's not It's not a country club.

66:11

And in my mind I was just like, "I can

66:13

handle it. I can handle it. I can handle

66:15

it." But in that moment when you get

66:16

sentenced to not go to prison and you

66:18

not you're not going to lose your

66:19

freedom,

66:21

um you don't realize

66:25

how big it is until

66:26

that happens, you know? And probably

66:29

would have been even bigger if it went

66:30

the other way, but

66:32

I mean, I felt like

66:34

I I mean, I I lost my feet, you know?

66:37

And

66:40

oh man, you know, here

66:42

here we are going to dinner

66:44

after the sentencing and there's

66:47

my best friend Ali who stuck with me

66:49

through everything and my family and

66:51

even my old boss came.

66:53

And I'm looking around the table and

66:54

everyone's living their lives

66:56

having kids.

66:58

My brother's a heart surgeon. He's in

66:59

residency.

67:01

He just graduated Harvard. My other

67:03

brother just got inducted into the

67:04

Colorado Sports Hall of Fame.

67:06

And I'm just sitting there and I'm like,

67:09

"Here I am, the family felon. You know,

67:11

I'm 30 Now I'm 35 years old. Millions of

67:14

dollars in debt.

67:16

A convicted felon.

67:18

A social pariah,

67:20

to some degree.

67:21

Like,

67:23

I'm all in for

67:25

for a comeback, but how does that even

67:28

happen? Where do you go from here?"

67:31

So, I just remember going back and

67:34

walking the mountains. You know, going

67:35

back, moving in with my mom. Walking the

67:38

mountains, walking,

67:40

meditating, trying to figure out what is

67:43

the way out here.

67:44

You know, one of the things I always

67:46

always talk to my friends about is as

67:47

you become more and more successful, you

67:48

get to see behind other curtains.

67:51

Mhm.

67:51

I call it, you know, it's like a

67:53

Totally.

67:53

Yeah, like you It's a curtain you didn't

67:54

even know was there. And you meet this

67:56

other group of people and you find out

67:57

that they're making money in this other

67:58

Yeah.

67:59

set of ways. And you go, "What the [ __ ]

68:00

Like, you guys have been back here doing

68:02

this stuff all the time?"

68:03

So, I I can so That

68:05

That so resonates. Yeah.

68:06

these money games that I didn't even

68:07

know existed. Like, you do this and you

68:09

trade this and you do this and you flip

68:10

this and

68:11

And And you go, "What the [ __ ] I was

68:12

like I was earning like minimum wage

68:14

over here. And you billionaires around

68:16

here just like doing billion-dollar

68:17

things with these little games that I

68:19

didn't even know existed."

68:21

Um and that's what I've come to learn in

68:22

my life is like

68:23

Yeah.

68:23

I got to see behind a lot of curtains

68:24

and I was like, "Oh, [ __ ] I can do I

68:26

can earn this much money without doing

68:28

any work? Or you can do like this?" And

68:30

What are those things that you came to

68:31

learn about when you got to see behind

68:33

the curtain?

68:35

Couple things.

68:36

First of all, I thought behind that

68:38

curtain I was going to find

68:40

the most contented, generous,

68:43

non-petty,

68:45

like, extraordinary people. And that's

68:48

not what I saw

68:49

for the most part. There were

68:50

exceptions.

68:52

Um

68:54

I just saw people who were kind of like

68:56

unwilling to fail.

69:00

Because

69:02

I don't know. Cuz they're obsessed with

69:03

money. Uh I I mean, you know, it's just

69:06

drive a lot of a lot of times.

69:08

Or being dragged.

69:09

Or being dragged.

69:10

Right.

69:13

Was it more being dragged than drive?

69:15

Or was it more drive than dragged?

69:17

I Could they Could they stop if they

69:19

wanted, you know, could they Were they

69:20

in control of their obsessions?

69:23

Dragged.

69:25

In that in those settings.

69:27

Mhm.

69:28

It's what I've tend to tend to find.

69:29

Yeah.

69:30

I've met a lot of billionaires, and I

69:32

with the odd exception, I'm like, damn,

69:34

unhappy.

69:35

Yeah.

69:35

I can't stop.

69:36

Yeah. Have Have you ever read that book,

69:38

The Psychology of Money?

69:39

Yeah. Yeah.

69:40

Don't you love that story in there?

69:42

I love it. I don't know what story in

69:43

particular you're talking about, but

69:44

Don't remember when

69:46

Joseph Heller's at the house of the

69:49

of the billionaire, and someone walks up

69:52

and says, "Heller, like, this guy just

69:54

made in one day what your

69:57

gross sales were for Catch 22, or

69:59

whatever." And Heller just goes, "Yeah,

70:01

but I have something he'll never have."

70:03

He goes, "What could that possibly be?"

70:05

"Enough."

70:06

Boom.

70:08

Mhm.

70:10

That's peace.

70:12

Most of these people that I knew do not

70:14

have peace, and peace should not be

70:15

underrated.

70:17

Peace, contentment, the ability to find

70:19

joy in small moments.

70:22

And then have the big moments. I am all

70:25

for adrenaline. I still chase it.

70:30

I have to chase it less, now that I'm a

70:31

mom.

70:33

But I chase it in healthier ways, you

70:35

know, heli-skiing, whatever it is,

70:37

climbing mountains.

70:38

Um

70:41

but to sit, lay your head down at the

70:43

end of the day, and be able to say, "I

70:46

know who I am."

70:49

And

70:51

there may be times where I

70:53

lose sight of that, but I have a process

70:57

for that.

70:59

And, you know,

71:01

I've made these living amends to these

71:03

people I love so much.

71:05

What else did you see behind that

71:06

curtain?

71:07

Um

71:08

of dissatisfaction with life?

71:09

Yeah.

71:10

Um

71:11

I saw a much bigger world than I knew

71:14

existed.

71:15

And a much more malleable world.

71:17

That's super key. That's that malleable

71:19

point.

71:20

I thought like

71:22

the walls were a lot more solid.

71:24

In life generally?

71:25

Yeah.

71:27

But you realize success is something

71:29

that we can all bend, control,

71:32

manipulate.

71:34

I think all is a pretty powerful word. I

71:37

think if we are willing to do the work

71:40

that it entails,

71:42

um on ourselves,

71:44

uh

71:45

yes, I think success, money,

71:47

abundance is is

71:50

is much more available

71:53

than than I originally thought.

71:56

Is that because you see very ordinary

71:58

people

71:59

achieving very extraordinary results?

72:02

And you And then once you see how

72:04

they're doing it, you go, ah, okay.

72:07

Yes.

72:08

Precisely.

72:09

Mhm.

72:10

That's also what I feel.

72:11

Yeah.

72:13

Yeah.

72:13

That's cool. I've I haven't

72:16

thought about that, and that's really

72:17

cool. I like that.

72:19

And this next the way that my story ends

72:22

really

72:24

kind of

72:25

speaks to that.

72:27

Um

72:29

or not ends, but, you know,

72:31

That chapter.

72:31

begins again.

72:32

Yeah.

72:33

Um So, I'm walking around the mountains,

72:35

I'm thinking to myself like, what's the

72:36

way out?

72:37

And I just realized

72:39

there's a unique story here. We've seen

72:41

this version of a story, it just usually

72:43

has a male

72:45

star, right?

72:46

Wolf of Wall Street or something.

72:47

Right. Right. Right. Right.

72:48

And um

72:49

so, So, like, I'll write this book,

72:51

and it'll sell so well and my life will

72:53

change, you know. And went to New York

72:55

publishing and there was a lot of

72:57

publishers that wanted to give me a lot

72:59

of money for a celebrity takedown book.

73:01

And I wasn't willing to do that. So, I

73:03

got rejected a lot, but I just kept, you

73:05

know, I was just persistent and I got

73:06

this book deal.

73:08

I I got my my own press and everything

73:11

and I waited to

73:13

for this, you know, I released the book

73:15

and I I waited for my life to change and

73:17

I think like

73:18

100 people read the book or something.

73:20

Really?

73:21

Maybe maybe a little more than 100, but

73:23

not enough to even earn back my advance,

73:24

which wasn't that big.

73:27

And then I said to myself,

73:29

I still believe in this story.

73:31

I still believe that the story is the

73:32

way out. I just believe it. I could see

73:34

it.

73:35

I'm going to have to bring in the big

73:36

guns. And I said to myself, I need to

73:39

get I need to

73:43

go speak to one of the most powerful

73:46

filmmakers in Hollywood.

73:48

I had a bunch of meetings and I was

73:50

like,

73:51

it can't be something small. It has to

73:53

be something big. And so, I made this

73:55

short list of people who really come

73:58

who really are successful, who who are

74:00

the A-list here, you know, and it was

74:02

like Shonda Rhimes, Steven Spielberg, um

74:06

you know, Aaron Sorkin.

74:08

And there was another

74:10

component that this person had to have,

74:12

another feature to their personality.

74:13

They had to be fearless because there

74:16

were so many people, as you can imagine,

74:18

in

74:20

the political world, in Hollywood, in um

74:24

you know, the billionaires making calls

74:25

saying like, "Don't make this

74:27

Molly Bloom movie."

74:29

Because they don't want to take the risk

74:30

at all, even though I'm

74:32

you know, I I went to bat for them, they

74:34

don't want to take the risk at all that

74:35

they could be portrayed in this movie.

74:37

Anyway,

74:38

so I you know, I loved The West Wing and

74:41

I loved Social Network and I loved the

74:43

characters that and and the a of like

74:45

message and humanity that comes out from

74:47

his writing. So,

74:49

I was like, "I need a meeting with him."

74:51

With who?

74:52

Aaron Sorkin.

74:53

And he happens to also be the

74:55

highest-paid screenwriter in Hollywood.

74:56

So,

74:58

he's a good bet. Right?

75:01

That that number doesn't come from thin

75:03

air.

75:04

So, most people laughed me out of their

75:07

office. They're like, "Your book sold 10

75:09

copies."

75:10

You know, like this It was in the press

75:13

a couple years ago.

75:15

Aaron Sorkin's never going to look at

75:16

this.

75:17

And

75:19

um I just kept with it. I was just

75:21

persistent. Cuz I had seen

75:24

you know?

75:25

As you'd seen.

75:26

I'd seen

75:28

how people get successful.

75:30

Which was

75:31

Persistence.

75:32

Of course you have to have a good

75:33

product. Of course you had have a good

75:34

story. I believed in the story.

75:36

But

75:37

I got rejected so many times, you know?

75:40

So, finally I get this meeting with

75:41

Aaron.

75:43

And I remember trying to mentally

75:45

prepare for it.

75:48

I'm living with my mom.

75:50

You know, I'm by all societal measures

75:54

the classic loser. You know what I mean?

75:56

Like I'm like living in my mom's

75:58

basement. I have no money.

76:01

I don't have all any of the trappings of

76:03

of the world and the success world, you

76:05

know?

76:06

But I said to myself,

76:09

"You walk in there with humility of

76:11

lessons learned, but you walk in there

76:13

like

76:14

you are wor- you like you're worthwhile,

76:16

you know?"

76:18

Isn't there some famous quote that he

76:20

said about how you were the most

76:21

confident down-and-out person he'd ever

76:22

met?

76:23

Oh, yeah. So, when I was like when when

76:25

when I was done telling him my story, he

76:27

said, um

76:28

"Well, I'll tell you one thing. I've

76:29

never met someone so down on their luck

76:31

and so full of themselves."

76:32

So down on their luck and so full of

76:33

themselves.

76:35

I certainly was not full of myself, but

76:39

That's what you were giving.

76:41

That's what I was

76:43

And yeah, I mean the TLDR of that is

76:46

he he takes it on.

76:48

He drops what he's doing.

76:50

He takes it on. He decides to make it

76:53

his direct royal debut as well as

76:54

writing it.

76:56

The movie comes out. It's nominated for

76:58

every award, BAFTAs, Oscars, Golden

77:01

Globes.

77:03

Um also, I had

77:06

done a lot of really good negotiating on

77:09

my part on the money part. They wanted

77:11

to give me nothing up front and promise

77:13

me back end and I did enough research to

77:14

know that that wasn't

77:16

ever going to happen. The back end in

77:17

Hollywood is notoriously

77:19

When you say you did well, what do you

77:20

mean? Give me something some How can I

77:22

gauge that?

77:24

So, I can just tell you that I got

77:31

15 times

77:33

what someone normal normally would have

77:35

gotten in my position.

77:37

And your position was?

77:38

A book that didn't really sell.

77:40

You were the owner of the IP, I guess.

77:41

Yeah. Life rights. A life rights deal.

77:43

Like if that book had become a best

77:46

seller and it already had a built-in

77:48

audience and I had

77:50

a million followers on Instagram and you

77:52

know, there was this compelling package.

77:54

Sure.

77:55

So, how well did that movie do?

77:57

It did extremely well. I mean 50 million

77:59

people saw it.

78:00

Do you have an idea of numbers of like

78:02

value? Do they Do they give you a

78:04

a value? Cuz I know they say oh, opening

78:06

box office was X.

78:07

Like lifetime value?

78:08

Yeah.

78:09

Um they don't because you have a back

78:12

end They they they give you a sort of

78:13

convoluted

78:14

Okay.

78:15

back end number. But every everyone made

78:17

money on the movie.

78:19

And it got nominated for awards and um

78:23

you know, I'll never forget

78:26

getting the the bank wire again and it

78:28

it takes a really long time. You know,

78:30

you don't just get paid up front. You

78:32

get like 50 grand

78:33

and then you get the rest of it 3 years

78:35

later, 4 years later, whenever the movie

78:37

gets made. And it was a rocky road to

78:39

make the movie cuz it was all set up at

78:41

Sony.

78:42

Everything was going smoothly. It had

78:44

this big budget, like big movie studio

78:46

budget. And then

78:48

Kim Jon Un

78:51

got pissed about the interview. Remember

78:53

the Seth Rogen movie?

78:54

Oh, yeah. Yeah.

78:55

And he hacked Sony Studios and the

78:57

chairwoman was Amy Pascal and she was

78:59

the one that really believed in the

79:00

movie and she had to step down and then

79:02

the new chairperson wasn't that

79:05

passionate and so then we had to set it

79:06

up kind of like

79:07

at festivals. So, you know,

79:12

nothing's ever a smooth ride.

79:16

So, you get a big check from this movie.

79:18

I do.

79:19

Um but I'm still

79:21

I still owe millions. Not not today

79:23

sitting here, but at that point. So, I

79:25

had to figure out like

79:28

what is

79:30

what's the next move?

79:32

And um

79:36

I remember the first time I didn't even

79:37

think about speaking, you know, like a

79:39

speaking career or anything.

79:41

Um I just remember the first time I got

79:43

hired to speak. It was in front of

79:44

thousands of people for Google.

79:47

Mhm.

79:48

And I had never spoken publicly. And I

79:51

think I just got on that stage and just

79:53

blacked out.

79:55

Yeah.

79:55

So awful and I was so bad at it.

79:58

But the money was compelling.

80:01

The adventure was compelling.

80:03

And so, you know, it allows me now to

80:07

make a really great income and then also

80:10

work on the other things I'm working on,

80:11

which is

80:12

um

80:13

a podcast and a community called The

80:15

Smart Girl's Guide to Everything.

80:17

It's basically using the strategy, the

80:20

access, the network, the resources that

80:22

I've been able to accumulate in my life

80:24

and applying it to real life.

80:26

And then I'm writing that a book on

80:28

effective presence.

80:30

And um I have a 1 and 1/2 year old at

80:34

home.

80:35

Which wasn't a straight ride, right?

80:36

No.

80:38

You I read that you had IVF nine times.

80:40

Nine times.

80:41

People don't understand the pain of

80:43

having IVF even once and then it not

80:45

going to plan.

80:46

Yeah.

80:46

To have it nine times.

80:48

Yeah. It's It's the It's the mental

80:50

anguish.

80:51

You know, it was interesting for me cuz

80:52

and I think this is important to talk

80:54

about and I'm glad you brought this up.

80:56

So, I froze my eggs at 36.

80:58

Um

81:00

and I was told

81:02

"You're going to be good. You have a lot

81:04

of eggs. You're young, you know,

81:05

whatever." And I cuz And my point is

81:07

here is I I think it's a big

81:09

money-making industry and I think they

81:10

oversell the technology and it's not to

81:13

say don't do it

81:14

but to do your own research.

81:16

Mhm.

81:17

In my case, what I realized is

81:19

doing three rounds of an egg freezing

81:22

procedure would have probably

81:24

given me a a much better shot. The

81:26

technology is getting better but eggs

81:28

are 80% water. So, freezing a flying is

81:30

is kind of tricky. Anyway, so I thought

81:32

I had purchased this

81:35

insurance policy on my fertility.

81:38

And then when I met Fiona's dad

81:41

I was 41 and I said, "Okay, great. Let's

81:43

thaw out these magical eggs." And none

81:45

of them worked.

81:47

And I was 41 and my fertility metrics,

81:50

basically the doctor said, "I'll give

81:52

you a 4% chance of making this happen."

81:55

And

81:57

nine rounds later,

81:58

um

82:01

it worked.

82:05

And I'm so happy I didn't miss it.

82:09

But that was a special moment.

82:11

Oh.

82:13

Also terrifying.

82:14

Terrifying moment.

82:16

The most vulnerable you'll ever be in

82:18

your entire life. Up until the point

82:20

that Fiona was born

82:22

I thought to myself, I believed, I went

82:24

through life believing, But,

82:26

after everything that I had to go

82:27

through, there's nothing I can't handle.

82:30

And then you have a baby

82:32

and you realize

82:33

losing this this little life

82:36

is something that I don't think I can

82:37

handle.

82:39

And of course

82:40

there are people that do and they do it

82:42

with grace, but you just know in that

82:44

moment

82:46

that there is something that would that

82:47

is changed in you that will never be the

82:50

same.

82:50

Terrifying.

82:53

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84:04

Fiona comes to you when she's 18 years

84:06

old, she says, "Mom,

84:09

I would like to be a success."

84:11

Mhm.

84:12

What advice have you got for me, Mom?

84:15

What do you say to Fiona?

84:16

Well, we're going to be having this

84:17

conversation well before she's 18.

84:23

I want to

84:26

I want to help her cultivate

84:28

her passions, her talents. I want to

84:30

teach her

84:33

about her mind

84:35

the ways that I have had to learn

84:37

um how to manage that mind.

84:40

How to manage fear, how to manage

84:43

the internal critic.

84:45

Um

84:46

I want to teach her to sit with hard

84:49

emotions, not to run

84:51

run from them, to figure out what they

84:53

can teach us. I want to teach her to go

84:55

into the shadows, the parts of ourselves

84:57

that we don't want to look at, and look

84:59

at it. Don't wait until you get beat up

85:01

by the mob, federally indicted, you

85:03

know, like

85:04

addicted to drugs and alcohol to finally

85:07

go into those shadows to look at the

85:09

demons that you haven't dealt with.

85:12

Um all these things that I learned

85:14

through

85:16

the trials and tribulations of my life,

85:18

I want to teach her at a young age. I

85:20

want to teach her that her worth is not

85:22

dictated by the things that she

85:23

produced, but she is inherently worthy.

85:26

At the same time,

85:28

it is

85:30

she will not be happy unless she has

85:33

purpose in life.

85:35

I believe that to be true. I I don't

85:36

know who said it, but it was very

85:38

succinctly said to love and to work.

85:41

You know?

85:42

I believe that people need a reason to

85:45

get up in the morning,

85:47

to go into the world

85:49

and feel a purpose.

85:51

I I don't care if that purpose is

85:53

stay-at-home mom or president of the

85:54

United States.

85:56

Will you teach her anything that you

85:58

learned specifically from being in those

85:59

rooms with the billionaires, athletes,

86:01

politicians?

86:02

Absolutely. I'll teach her about risk.

86:05

What will you teach her about risk?

86:07

You know, I've seen thousands of hands

86:08

of winning and losing poker, and I've

86:10

kept spreadsheets, Excel spreadsheets on

86:12

people for years.

86:14

And I've then watched

86:17

the choices they make and how they get

86:19

to the numbers that I look at the end of

86:20

the year.

86:22

Is it the business choices or

86:24

The The choices they're making in the

86:25

game and then in their greater life.

86:28

A lot of times when people lose,

86:32

they become

86:35

Mhm.

86:37

unwilling to take another big risk.

86:40

And if you aren't willing to take risks

86:42

in life, over time, you will lose the

86:44

game.

86:47

The people that took calculated risks,

86:52

over time, won.

86:53

People that took impulsive risks,

86:57

didn't.

86:58

But people that took calculated risks

87:00

over time and didn't let a past failure

87:03

or uh

87:04

an external condition stand in that way,

87:07

won the game.

87:08

I think a healthy relationship with risk

87:11

is super important.

87:13

I think um

87:16

being able to stay composed when there's

87:19

chaos inside, chaos outside,

87:22

is incredibly important in those rooms.

87:23

I think being able to

87:27

know when to use your emotional mind to

87:30

make choices and know when to use your

87:32

in your rational mind and being able to

87:34

toggle between the two in an intentional

87:37

and and uh

87:40

smart way is super important.

87:43

And I think ego and greed

87:46

is the reason that I've seen so many

87:48

lives come undone, including my own.

87:55

The person that sits before me today,

87:59

you know, been on a journey to say the

88:00

least, lived many many lives in many

88:02

different chapters.

88:04

Um

88:06

what are you most proud of about

88:08

yourself now? When you reflect on the

88:09

person you are versus the person you

88:11

were,

88:12

what what are what are the some of the

88:13

things you're most proud of about

88:14

yourself?

88:18

I'm I'm proud that when I

88:21

that I that I stay self-aware.

88:23

And when I believe that I'm wrong or

88:25

believe that I'm

88:28

behaving in a way that is

88:31

is not aligned with who and what I want

88:33

to be in the world, then I'm willing to

88:34

either say sorry or do that work

88:38

really deeply, relentlessly do that work

88:41

to change.

88:42

I'm willing that I mean I'm proud that I

88:44

just continued to

88:47

I'm proud that I stayed

88:48

open.

88:49

Is there anything you're not proud of?

88:52

From my past or in the present?

88:56

Yeah, I mean there are little things

88:57

that I'm working on, but I wouldn't say

89:00

that I'm not proud of of them because I

89:04

think having grace for yourself and

89:06

learning how to forgive yourself and and

89:08

treat yourself with compassion

89:10

is a huge

89:12

is something that I had to learn as a

89:14

survival skill

89:16

back in those dark days.

89:18

Um but something that I continue to

89:20

practice.

89:21

Uh the only times that I'm not proud of

89:23

myself

89:24

are if I'm staring straight into

89:26

something that I know that I'm

89:31

totally ignoring that's causing harm in

89:32

the world.

89:33

To myself, to other people.

89:38

Well, we have a closing tradition on

89:39

this podcast where the last last guest

89:41

leaves a question for the next guest not

89:42

knowing who they're going to leave the

89:43

question for.

89:44

And the question left for you

89:47

is

89:49

what is the message you needed to hear

89:52

when you were younger

89:54

that you didn't hear?

89:58

And who was the best person to

90:01

say it that didn't say it?

90:07

Um

90:08

Okay, that's a great question and a hard

90:09

question and I think

90:12

I think

90:13

the answer is

90:16

stop searching for the evidence that you

90:18

were worthwhile, that you're good enough

90:19

and just start to believe it and I think

90:21

the person to say it to me is me.

90:25

I think I was my own worst critic.

90:27

Um you know,

90:30

we all have certain challenges in our

90:32

life, but I think at some point taking

90:35

responsibility

90:37

for your own [ __ ]

90:39

is the most important thing a human

90:41

being can do.

90:46

Are you there now? Like are you there at

90:48

the point now where you know

90:50

your self-worth is isn't going to come

90:52

from glory?

90:54

Not 100%,

90:56

but I'm like

90:58

90.

90:59

Do you think Do you think we ever

91:01

overcome

91:03

these desires to to seek, you know,

91:04

these things cuz they they feel to be so

91:06

hardwired in us, especially if they come

91:07

at a formative age from people that are

91:09

important to us like our parents or the

91:11

context we're raised in. It's almost

91:12

like a an oven. It's like if you think

91:14

about anything that you bake.

91:15

Yeah.

91:15

You can't unbake the thing.

91:17

Like you can't unbake

91:18

You can't unbake a cake. You know,

91:20

there's lots of things you can like you

91:22

know, separate using various chemical

91:23

processes.

91:24

Yeah. Um

91:27

I think maybe if you're willing to go

91:29

live a monastic life and just meditate

91:31

all day and like not live in the real

91:33

world, even then I I know that for me

91:37

ev- anytime I think I have something

91:38

completely figured out, something fixed,

91:40

something else will happen in life and

91:41

it'll crop up. So that's why I think

91:43

it's so important to have a process for

91:45

how you deal with these things and I

91:46

think anybody that says I did this work

91:48

on myself and now I'm fine

91:51

isn't being fully truthful.

91:53

I agree.

91:54

I completely agree and I think that's

91:56

the the most honest answer to give and

91:57

also I think it's the true answer. It's

91:58

the answer that all the psychologists

92:00

and

92:01

psychologists and psychiatrists that I

92:03

sit here with tell me as well is it's

92:04

the answer I've seen in my life that

92:06

it's more about management than it is

92:08

about taking our traumas or our

92:10

hardwiring to zero which

92:12

and I think that's important to say

92:13

because people that are struggling with

92:14

the same recurring patterns in their

92:15

life hear that and go I can't thank god

92:17

it's not just me.

92:18

Yeah.

92:19

You know, I cuz they'll beat themselves

92:20

up when their therapy doesn't work or

92:22

the podcast they listen to doesn't

92:23

change them.

92:23

right or like when staring at the sun

92:25

and sitting in an in an ice cube bath

92:27

doesn't fix their like

92:28

they're still toxic after their ice

92:29

bath.

92:30

You know what I mean?

92:31

And they're like [ __ ] they want a

92:32

refund.

92:33

Molly, thank you so much.

92:34

Thank you so much.

92:35

Thank you for your wisdom, your honesty.

92:37

Um you don't have to be so honest. And I

92:39

in particular the amount of life lessons

92:41

you've been able to draw from this

92:42

experience I think is of tremendous

92:44

value. So it's no surprise you're a

92:45

speaker. It's I've I'd bet extensively

92:48

on your podcast being a huge success as

92:50

well. And I'm really excited about this

92:51

book because I really do think that

92:53

effective presence is clearly one of

92:55

your absolute, you know,

92:57

dominant skills. Um just from meeting

92:59

you today as well I when the minute you

93:00

said that explain it to me I was like,

93:01

"Oh yeah, I get it."

93:03

So and that's an unbelievably powerful

93:04

skill because all we face in this world

93:05

is other people.

93:06

Yeah.

93:06

And so knowing how to get the best from

93:08

those people in whatever context that

93:10

might be is ultimately the superpower

93:12

that anyone could possess.

93:15

It's funny. Every year around this time

93:17

of year for whatever reason I go on a

93:19

little bit of a psychological shift. And

93:20

that psychological shift I think is

93:22

somewhat inspired by summer, but it's

93:24

also inspired by the fact that I want to

93:27

feel strong in this season of life. And

93:29

as I age, strength training is my number

93:31

one form of training. And the question

93:33

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93:35

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93:37

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93:39

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93:40

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93:43

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93:48

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94:03

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Interactive Summary

Molly Bloom, known as the 'Poker Princess', details her journey from a waitress to running the world's most exclusive underground poker games. She discusses the high-stakes environment involving celebrities and billionaires, the psychological 'effective presence' she used to succeed, her eventual legal downfall and entanglement with the FBI and organized crime, and her path toward redemption, sobriety, and personal growth after losing everything.

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