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If what you're saying is true, then I

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mean, this is a revelation. Yeah. And I

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I couldn't speak about it until now that

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it's possible to communicate with

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someone that's passed away.

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And I'm saying it from the point of view

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of being a neuroscientist and a

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psychiatrist. And it's taboo because we

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are afraid that people think we're going

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insane. I mean, I've been part of teams

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that have locked people up and had them

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injected with stuff against their will

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because of things they were saying

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that's not that dissimilar to things

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I've experienced. So, I wanted to find

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out as much science as I could to try to

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back it up. And do you think you found

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the answer?

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>> Yeah. How sure are you?

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>> 100%. And the things I found out are

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going to shock you.

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The floor is yours.

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Okay. So, I'm Dr. Tara Swart. I'm a

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neuroscientist and a medical doctor who

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specialized in psychiatry. And I lost my

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beloved husband to leukemia almost 4

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years ago.

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2 days before our fourth wedding

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anniversary. And everything I believed

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in

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had gone wrong.

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I was just totally lost and broken. But

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then, I started getting signs from my

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husband. And in my desperation, I did

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consult a couple of mediums. But not

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being impressed by them, I ended up

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thinking, "If it's possible to

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communicate with someone that's passed

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away, and I am all about optimizing my

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brain, then I should be able to do it

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myself." So, I went down a rabbit hole.

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And what I've uncovered in this research

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is going to have a really beneficial

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effect on a lot of people. Why? Because

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it means that we are capable of so much

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more than what we think the human mind

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is capable of.

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>> So, listen, here's what I'm going to do.

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I'm going to try and ask the questions

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and challenge you in ways that I think

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the viewer might challenge you. I want

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you to ask me those questions.

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thank you so much because in a strange

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way you are you're part of our history

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and you're on this journey with us and I

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appreciate you for that. So, yeah, thank

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you.

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Dr. Tara Swart,

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good to see you again. You, too. Thank

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you for coming back. You were our most

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viewed guest on the show of all time.

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Our last conversation did just over 20

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million views and downloads, which is

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pretty staggering, but you're back to

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talk about something entirely different

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this time.

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>> Mhm.

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Which is this idea of science, which

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kind of intertwines with all of your

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work on neuroscience that you've done

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throughout your career.

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My first question to you is what is it

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that you think you know that the vast

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majority of people don't quite

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understand, comprehend, or have accepted

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yet. And take me right back to the sort

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of first principles of

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that thinking.

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I believe that we are capable of so much

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more than what we think the human mind

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is capable of now. And I believe that

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the brain actually filters down the

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capability of the mind so that we can

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exist on this material plane. And

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things that I found out during research

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for The Science is going to shock you.

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The abilities that we have that we're

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not aware of are way beyond what you

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might even imagine right now. In what

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departments and facets of my life?

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Let's just start with something really

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simple. How many senses do you think we

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have? Five. I can I can smell, I can

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touch, um I can hear, I can see.

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Um

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is it five though? I think Yeah, five.

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Is it five? Have you heard of a sixth

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sense?

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Being able to see ghosts and stuff?

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Okay. So, I think most people would

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agree that we have five senses. And some

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people would say, "Isn't there something

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like a sixth sense?" And I don't think

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it's agreed what that might be. So, I

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actually did a literature review of

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several pieces of research about how

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many senses humans have.

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And we actually have 34 as we currently

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understand it. 34?

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And so, what does this mean? Like, what

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is the cuz you're making an assertion

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here?

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What is the assertion that you're

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making, and what does that mean for the

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material sort of uh consequences of my

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life?

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I'm making hypothesis based on both the

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analogy of the observable universe and

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the fact that we have this expanded

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suite of senses to challenge you to

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understand that you are capable of much

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more than you think you are. And you

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know, you're a really good case in point

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for me because you love rationality and

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data and science, and you don't really

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love intuition and

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the you know, the unknown, the unseen.

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So, you know, I think if I can convince

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you of anything by the end of this

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podcast, then

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the impact that that could have on

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society, I think, is huge. I mean, the

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things I found out are going to shock

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you. What do you mean by that?

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I, as you know, was a was a psychiatrist

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in the past. So, I'm able to diagnose

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people and say whether they have a

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mental illness or not.

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In the past 4 years,

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I've been keeping a secret,

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and

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there were times in that 4 years that I

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had to ask myself if I was in clinical

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depression,

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if I was psychotic, if I was manic,

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if

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the way that my consciousness was

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expanding,

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I mean, Steve, I've I've been part of

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teams that have locked people up and

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put,

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you know, had them injected with stuff

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against their will because of things

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they were saying. That's not that

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dissimilar to things I've experienced in

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the last 4 years.

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So,

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I guess we better get into the secret

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because I sat here with you almost 2

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years ago now, and we had a fantastic

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conversation,

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but there was something you didn't tell

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my audience when we had that

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conversation that reached more than 20

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million people. There was something at

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that moment in time that you didn't tell

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me,

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which was this secret you've been

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keeping.

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What is the secret, Tara?

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Um

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I lost my beloved husband to leukemia

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almost 4 years ago.

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And I've written this book which

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mentions my personal story, so

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and I trust you. So, I really wanted to

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come back on

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the podcast and just explain a little

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bit to people about what's been going on

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for me for the last 4 years.

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So, your husband

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Robin.

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You met him 2016.

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And he passed he passed away from

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leukemia in

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2021.

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>> 2021. Now, from 2021 when he passed

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away, what what happened in your life?

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What was going on in your world? If I

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was a fly on the wall in your contacts,

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what would I have seen?

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He'd been given 2 weeks to live, but he

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actually lived for 3 and 1/2 weeks.

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And he died 2 days before our fourth

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wedding anniversary, so I was literally

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reading condolence cards on my fourth

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wedding anniversary.

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If it wasn't for the people that I have

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around me who became like a fortress,

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I don't think I would be here today.

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You know, never having had that

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experience before, it was just so so

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devastating. Um

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and even though I'm a neuroscientist and

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a psychiatrist, I just

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I just was like like totally lost and

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broken.

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And then

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I started seeing robins in the garden

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every single time I went to the window,

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both in Hampshire and London.

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I've never ever seen so many robins in

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my life, like not before or since. I

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still see them sometimes, but

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I noticed it. I thought

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of course, that's what I want to see. I

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have no idea what it means if anything.

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Um

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and then about 6 weeks after he passed

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away,

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I was asleep

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and I heard a noise in the distance and

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we had been burgled once, so I went to

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check it wasn't the alarm in the

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garages.

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Couldn't work out what it was, thought

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maybe it was birds in the distance, went

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back to sleep, it was about 4:00 a.m.

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And then I got woken up

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by a massive thump to my shoulder.

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I wouldn't demonstrate it on you because

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it would be too much for me to hit you

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that hard. It wasn't like a tap. So,

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opened my eyes

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and I could see next to my bed

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a very vague, hazy version of Robin as

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if he was pushing himself through

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treacle to be seen.

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And I was just transfixed and I saw him

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become more and more clear.

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I could see the outline of his hair and

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his face and then suddenly he just

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dissolved from the top down and my eyes

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went like this and I remember seeing his

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shins and his feet. And I was like up on

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my elbow watching and I I just gasped

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out loud.

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In my desperation, I did consult a

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couple of mediums.

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And again, I had that dual conversation.

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I said to myself, this is the kind of

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thing that crazy, desperate people do.

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And within the same breath, it's okay

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for me to be crazy and desperate right

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now. I've lost my best friend, my life

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partner, like my everything I thought

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about how the world worked has crashed

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around me.

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And I ended up think, you know, being

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not being impressed by the mediums and

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just at some point, I can't even

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remember when now, thinking, if it's

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possible to communicate with someone

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that's

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passed away.

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And he was my husband and my best

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friend.

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And I am all about optimizing my brain

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and expanding my consciousness, then I

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should be able to do it myself. That's

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that's the start of my journey that I've

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written about in signs.

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And do you think you found the answer?

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>> Yeah.

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How sure are you? 100%.

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I mean if if if what you're saying is

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true then

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that's a pretty I mean that's a

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revelation, right? So many people have

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lost lost people or

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um

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have gone through different types of

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loss in their life and it you're telling

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me that through

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the work you've done over the last

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couple of years and the research you've

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done

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you understand how to communicate with

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them in some capacity? Mhm.

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And you're 100% sure? 100%. So listen,

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here's what I'm going to do. I'm going

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to I'm going to

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I'm going to I'm going to challenge you

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in ways that I think um

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the viewer might

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challenge you sat at home. So I'm going

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to try and ask the questions that the

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viewer might ask because there's you

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know people

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the I this idea is quite a significant

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perspective shifting one. So my job in

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this conversation, although these are

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sensitive matters matters of course is

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just to try and play devil's advocate

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where I can.

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I just I want to say that you know you

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know me Yeah, I know you.

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>> know that you've asked me to come back

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on the podcast several times and I've

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come when I'm ready. Yeah. So I want you

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to ask me those questions.

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>> Yeah. So when does this journey begin

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then? So this you suffer this tragic

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loss in your life. You go to the

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mediums.

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You're let down by them. Where does this

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begin? Where does your research your

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your journey of discovery begin?

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It starts with this decision to um

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you know, try to

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communicate with him myself.

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There's a realization at some point that

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it's not a one-way thing that when

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people pass away, they also have to

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learn. So it's it's it's like two people

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having to learn a language to speak to

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each other. Like two people who speak a

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different language having to learn a

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language that they can both speak.

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That's that's how it felt.

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Obviously as a scientist, I then wanted

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to find out as much science as I could

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to to try to back it up which really

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comes down to the science of whether

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the mind or the psyche or the soul can

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exist separately from the body. Mhm.

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And I will say that way before I even

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started thinking about this stuff, just

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the the moment that he died, which he

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died in front of me,

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once he'd actually passed away, I

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remember a really strong feeling of

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looking at his body and just knowing

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that wasn't him.

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And that the essence of who he was, I

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didn't know where it was, but it was not

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there lying in that bed.

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And when did you

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realize that you were going to start to

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collect research and do research on this

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idea of being able to communicate in

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ways that most people don't realize we

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can communicate through signs? And also,

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when you talk about being able to

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communicate through

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these 30-plus senses, is that just with

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the dead or is that with each other?

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Like, can I communicate through you

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know, is there other ways that I can tap

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into these senses that you discovered

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through your research

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that will help me be more effective with

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the living, too? Mhm.

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I mean, I think it starts with yourself.

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So, I think that the fact that if you're

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not even aware that you've got 34

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senses, then you're obviously not

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consciously tapping into

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something that you're not aware of.

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And and some of them are non-conscious

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senses anyway. Um things like the pH of

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your blood or like the balance of oxygen

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and carbon dioxide in your blood. You're

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you know, you're not going to be

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conscious of those. You can't

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necessarily exert much control over

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them, although obviously if you slow

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down your breathing or you do a certain

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type of breath work, it it could have an

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impact on those things. The conclusion

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that I came to,

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so like I said, I went to the brink a

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few times. I went to the brink

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Let me give you the first example. I

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realized that the first anniversary was

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coming up on October 26th.

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And around, you know, a couple of months

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before that, I was doing the best that I

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had been doing so far, but I was very

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aware this anniversary was coming, and I

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wanted to prepare myself mentally.

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But from the 4th of October,

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I suddenly like was in aches and pains

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all over my body, which actually lasted

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for 6 or 7 weeks and it was accompanied

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by me feeling so depressed

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that I actually had to look in the

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mirror and like go through the criteria

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for clinical depression and work out if

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I was actually depressed or not.

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Um

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and I didn't meet all the criteria, but

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I was in this physical pain. I could not

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understand why.

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I went for a massage. It was so painful

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I didn't go again for a year.

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So eventually I looked through my um

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diary or calendar on my phone

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and I looked back to October 4th, which

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was the day that it started,

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and that was the day that I'd taken him

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home to die.

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That was the day I took him home from

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hospital. I didn't remember that date,

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but clearly my body had and the trauma

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was just re-emerging as like physical

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pain.

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Um

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and I only realized quite a lot later

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that I had to to do some somatic work to

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actually get rid of

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the last bits of trauma that

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um talking therapy can't actually get

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to. Somatic work. So body body work,

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whether that's massage or dance or art

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or craniosacral therapy or

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tai chi, you know, like anything

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physical.

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Because basically there's an area in the

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brain. It's actually inside, so I can't

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really show it to you on this, but it's

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kind of inside there.

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And that part of the brain is to do with

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articulating speech

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and it basically gets shut down by

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trauma.

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So those sort of phrases like I'm

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speechless or I'm dumbfounded or I have

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no words

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indicates the fact that there may be

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residual trauma that's held in your body

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that you can't actually articulate and

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get out and solve through talking

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therapy.

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So it requires some kind of physical

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therapy. So that was obviously to do

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with my um sense of pain.

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And it took me a little while to kind of

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put together what that might mean by

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really like tapping into why it was my

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body

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um manifesting pain to to sort of remind

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me of something or show me something.

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But also, in the first couple of weeks

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after

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um, Robin's body

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Robin's body was taken away the morning

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after he died. And it was uh

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just under 2 weeks till the cremation.

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In that time, I would wake up in the

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morning and I would be absolutely

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freezing cold, like shaking and

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shivering. And it was October, it wasn't

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like midwinter.

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And I would blast up the heating. When

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someone else was in the house, I would

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realize it it was like a sauna, it was

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actually a bit embarrassing and had to

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like, you know, turn it down and like

15:57

open some windows. And Robin actually

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hated being cold. And he would have been

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in the morgue in a refrigerated drawer

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that whole time. And again, I think it

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was my sense of temperature that was

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kind of on the same wavelength as where

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I didn't consciously think of where he

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was, but I was feeling freezing cold.

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So, it was

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looking back, it was things like that

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were coincidences, absolutely. But then,

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over time, and I'm talking a couple of

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years, I could ask for specific signs

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and get them.

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Sometimes at first it would take a

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while, and then it became like it would

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happen that day.

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I could ask a question in my head and

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get an answer. I mentioned having, you

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know, sort of again being at the brink

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of my sanity, having to question things.

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I was experiencing something called

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thought insertion, which um, in

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psychiatry is one of the symptoms of

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schizophrenia. It's when you have a

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thought in your head that you know isn't

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yours.

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So, I was experiencing that really

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vividly.

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But can you imagine experiencing that

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and at the same time being a

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psychiatrist that is is saying, "Right,

17:01

Tara, you do realize you are having like

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a psychotic symptom."

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And

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so, in my research, one of the things I

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realized that maybe, you know, if you're

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going through grief and you don't know

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the things that I know,

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you can't

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articulate to yourself that grief in

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many ways is like psychosis.

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It's changing the levels of

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neurotransmitters in your head. It's

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changing the electric electric and

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chemical like signaling in your head. I

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just have so much empathy for people

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that

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that have to go through that and don't

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have the wherewithal or the resources

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that

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that I did.

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Do you think one needs to cultivate

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their ability to see signs? Do you think

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it's like going to the gym? Totally.

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Totally. I've It took me years. Um and

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like I said, I believe it took him years

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as well. Um

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So yeah, I I say it's like learning a

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language, but you're right. It's like

17:50

going to the gym. And what does one need

17:51

to do in that gym to grow their

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sign muscle?

17:57

Well, it always starts with believing,

17:58

right?

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>> Yeah. Um Do you think that's what one of

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the big issues in terms of being able to

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access these other dimensions or

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dynamics is most people just don't

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believe in it?

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So I wouldn't I'm not even sure if I'd

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say most people. I'd say a lot of people

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don't believe in it. Or they secretly

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do, but they're scared to talk about it

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cuz they think people ridicule them.

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Yeah. Cuz cuz I don't know. My my brain

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my brain feels like I need to have the

18:23

scientific evidence of things for me to

18:26

accept them because I think sometimes I

18:27

worry that if I don't have

18:29

scientific rigor around my beliefs, then

18:31

I would I'm susceptible to believe

18:33

anything. And I'll believe it in a

18:34

spaghetti monster at the bottom of the

18:35

garden and I'll believe, you know, every

18:37

religion in the world and every and

18:39

everything and then I'm unanchored and

18:40

then I blow around like a plastic bag in

18:42

the wind and then I have no orientation.

18:44

Yeah.

18:44

>> Yeah. So I think rigor is

18:46

the basis of my beliefs. I have to have

18:48

some sort of scientific evidence.

18:50

I know you do. Yeah.

18:53

Um It's not to say I'm not open-minded

18:54

because I've had my mind changed so many

18:56

times in my life that one would be

18:59

dumb now to not be open-minded and to

19:01

not listen. I agree with you about

19:03

rigor. I completely agree with. My

19:04

entire career has been based on that,

19:06

but

19:07

I just you know, I was pushed up against

19:09

a wall, so I had to

19:10

think differently. And I think the

19:12

question that I posed to myself is is

19:14

what if? You had to think differently.

19:17

So, um the psychologist Carl Jung talks

19:20

about um when he talks about the

19:22

collective unconscious, he talks about

19:24

those basically three main things that

19:27

all humans experience, which is birth,

19:29

life, and death. And so, we have this

19:31

common experience, which is actually

19:34

part of our inherited gene and brain

19:36

structure. Um so, everyone who's ever

19:39

lived will experience those things.

19:41

But if we look at ancient wisdom,

19:43

for a start,

19:45

we are made of the carbon and hydrogen

19:47

and oxygen and nitrogen that came from

19:49

the Big Bang. So, we're all made of the

19:51

same thing. Our ancestors lived in the

19:53

cycle with nature. I think us actually

19:55

having broken our connection to nature

19:57

is a huge part of why we're so

19:59

disconnected and unhappy.

20:01

So, if you think of the life cycle of a

20:03

salmon, for example,

20:05

it, you know, it goes through its life

20:08

cycle, and eventually its bones

20:10

contribute to the phosphorus on the um

20:12

floor of the forest. So, it never really

20:14

goes away.

20:15

Um

20:16

in many other ways, our ancestors

20:18

repeatedly saw the cycles of nature, and

20:20

therefore

20:21

always kind of knew that everything gets

20:23

renewed and nothing ever completely goes

20:25

away. And

20:27

I think that's a really important thing

20:28

to return to. I think,

20:30

you know, when we question things, which

20:32

you're absolutely right to do,

20:34

I think we have to look at things that

20:36

we didn't think were true that we now

20:38

know are true as just ways of being open

20:42

to the fact that things in the future

20:44

might become obvious or known that

20:47

aren't known now. I think that is an

20:49

important place of being open-minded to

20:52

to sit at.

20:53

And so, for example,

20:56

um

20:58

want to hear about slime mold?

21:00

You tell me if that's something I want

21:02

to hear about.

21:04

So, slime mold are single-celled

21:06

organisms like amoeba

21:09

who go about their daily life on their

21:11

own very happily as long as their basic

21:13

needs are met.

21:14

But if for example, they're facing

21:17

potential starvation, they will come

21:20

together and form a slug because the

21:22

slug can move towards your vegetable

21:25

patch, you know, a new food source, and

21:27

they can survive.

21:29

Equally, if they are

21:31

if they are facing potential um

21:34

extinction,

21:36

they will come together and form a a

21:38

sporing body like a mushroom.

21:41

So, that's got a stalk

21:43

and a fruiting body that can release

21:45

spores that will go into the atmosphere

21:47

to all different places where these new

21:49

baby organisms can can grow and thrive.

21:52

But if you think about it,

21:54

the single cells in the stalk

21:58

are sacrificing themselves for the

21:59

greater good cuz there's no chance that

22:01

they're

22:02

they're going to get released into the

22:03

atmosphere as a spore cuz they're in the

22:05

stalk.

22:06

So, some of them actually cheat and

22:08

climb up the stalk to get into the

22:10

fruiting body and displace other cells

22:11

from the fruiting body.

22:14

So, things like that and for example,

22:16

the mycorrhizal network, which is how

22:19

mushrooms and mycelium feed the roots of

22:23

trees, even trees that have been felled

22:26

can be kept alive for centuries because

22:28

the my- mycorrhizal network, which is

22:30

the connection between mycelium and tree

22:32

roots, can bring water and sugar to that

22:36

tree stump to keep it alive.

22:38

And trees and mycelium don't even only

22:41

do it for the same species, they do it

22:42

because they're part of the entire

22:44

forest and it's symbiotic relationship.

22:47

And they care about each other.

22:50

Things like this would have been like

22:52

thought to be fantastical 10 years ago.

22:55

Um you know, we're in in LA at the

22:57

moment and I saw the driverless car for

22:59

the first time. Now, when I was growing

23:02

up watching sci-fi,

23:04

I never thought I'd see that in my life.

23:07

So, that's all I'm saying that

23:10

and and I'm saying it from the point of

23:11

view of being a cognitive scientist and

23:13

I'm talking about the nature of

23:14

consciousness. I'm not talking about

23:16

other not asking you to believe, you

23:18

know, other parts of science, but based

23:20

on the fact that

23:22

we don't know everything. We've learned

23:23

loads of things that we thought weren't

23:25

true before.

23:27

I strongly believe there's a benefit to

23:30

humanity of raising this kind of

23:32

question and having this conversation

23:35

which

23:37

I ask you why it's a taboo conversation.

23:39

What, you know, why shouldn't we be

23:41

enlightened? Why shouldn't we feel

23:42

better? Why shouldn't we be more

23:44

connected?

23:45

Whatever we've been doing up until now

23:47

certainly hasn't been working.

23:50

When when was it that you made the

23:51

decision that you were going to write a

23:53

book about

23:54

this called The Signs? Was there a

23:56

particular moment in this process where

23:58

you realized that you were going to to

24:00

dig deeper and that then you were

24:01

ultimately going to share this with the

24:02

world?

24:04

I wasn't intending to write a book at

24:05

all, but I'd got to the point where I

24:07

had something that I could share with

24:08

people that I actually thought would be

24:09

useful. And at this point you're

24:11

communicating with Robin

24:13

on a daily basis.

24:14

>> On a daily basis.

24:15

>> Yeah.

24:16

Give me some color to that. What does

24:17

that mean? Give me some examples if you

24:19

can. Well, either will be that like I'll

24:21

ask a question in my mind and the answer

24:24

will come in my mind, but I know it's

24:25

not my own thought. Or

24:28

I'll just get a direct like message from

24:29

him in my mind that I know isn't me, but

24:32

mostly it's the signs. So, I've talked

24:35

talked to you about the first

24:36

anniversary and how hard that was. By

24:38

the time of the second anniversary,

24:43

I was actually in America

24:46

and I'd been filming in studio for a

24:48

week and then I was on the road on the

24:50

Navajo Nation

24:52

and that was due to I was due to fly out

24:54

of the Navajo Nation on the second

24:56

anniversary of Robin's passing.

24:58

And

25:00

on by that point, I was feeling a bit

25:02

like I'd completely burnt out.

25:05

And I had a choice about how to

25:07

re-emerge. Um, you know, whether that

25:09

was going to be in a good way or I

25:11

wasn't going to be able to make it. Um,

25:14

and I had this analogy of a phoenix

25:16

rising from the flames in my mind.

25:18

So, on that trip, I said,

25:22

"Darling,

25:24

send me the sign of a phoenix." You said

25:26

that to who? To Robin, in my head.

25:28

And I I chose the phoenix cuz it's

25:30

really unusual. So, it's not like if I

25:32

said, you know, a dog, I'm probably

25:34

going to see a dog on the pavement every

25:36

day. But I chose something that is not

25:38

an easy thing to see.

25:40

And I was actually in Oklahoma City

25:42

where,

25:43

you know, you wouldn't expect

25:45

necessarily to see like something

25:47

unusual. Every single day between my

25:49

hotel and the studio, I went through

25:51

Chinatown and I passed a restaurant

25:53

called the Phoenix Garden with a big

25:54

emblazoned

25:55

like, you know, sign.

25:57

And

25:58

on the way there, I had had an indirect

26:01

flight from Boston and the flight

26:03

leaving Boston was late, so I missed my

26:04

connection in Chicago and I had to spend

26:07

a night in Chicago.

26:09

And then I was, you know, late for

26:10

filming and stuff. And so, when I was

26:12

leaving

26:13

to go to LA,

26:15

I was leaving on a on a

26:18

Sunday.

26:19

And from the Monday onwards, I had a

26:21

podcast every single weekday in LA.

26:24

And so, the team said to me, "We know

26:26

that you cannot miss that flight. We are

26:27

not going to put you on an on an

26:29

indirect flight. We absolutely promise

26:30

you direct flight to LA, so you're fine

26:33

from Monday onwards."

26:35

We were in the middle of nowhere for

26:36

like a week and basically, my flight

26:39

wasn't booked cuz we didn't know which

26:41

airport we were going to be at. We

26:43

arrived on the eve of the anniversary of

26:45

Robin passing and my flight was booked

26:47

that day and it was from Flagstaff in

26:50

the Navajo Nation to LA,

26:53

Flying on the day of his anniversary, no

26:55

direct flights. I had to fly through

26:57

Phoenix, Arizona on the day of his

26:58

anniversary.

27:01

You probably heard of that old analogy

27:03

of when you buy a car, you end up seeing

27:04

the car everywhere on the road. Like I

27:06

buy buy a new car and then I go

27:07

everywhere and it seems like everybody's

27:08

got my car because of Do they call it

27:10

confirmation bias in science, in

27:12

psychology? Where once you've got

27:14

something in your head, you're more

27:15

likely to see that thing. Mhm. I think

27:17

they've done studies on this where if

27:18

you are exposed to something or you're

27:20

told to think about something, you'll

27:21

see it more in the world. How do you

27:23

separate what you're saying from that

27:25

proven psychological phenomenon?

27:28

I don't. I say use it to your advantage.

27:31

But how do you know that wasn't what was

27:32

happening in your life? Because if you

27:34

thought about the word Phoenix and then

27:36

over the course of a couple of days,

27:38

you're looking at everything, but you're

27:39

only going to register the things that

27:40

are emotionally reg- resonant.

27:44

You know, I might have seen Phoenix a

27:45

lot of time over the last 7 days. And it

27:46

means nothing to you. Yeah, so I didn't

27:48

I didn't register it. Again, I would say

27:51

the number of times this has happened.

27:52

There is this the sort of like

27:55

how narrow I make the criteria. So, you

27:58

know, sometimes I say I need to see a

28:01

button or a symbol of a button or the

28:03

word button, but it's got to have

28:05

happened three times by 11:00 p.m.

28:07

tomorrow.

28:08

Um and one of my friends says that, you

28:11

know, we share something which is if you

28:12

see a pair of lions.

28:14

Um and we send each other pictures of

28:16

it, but she says it has to be if you

28:18

went out of your way and you walked a

28:20

different way and then you saw them. If

28:21

it's like you know, the normal way that

28:23

you go or somewhere that you know that

28:25

they exist, that doesn't count. It has

28:26

to be if you went out of your way. So, I

28:28

had a previous um thing with Robin which

28:31

is about the figure of eight or in the

28:33

infinity symbol. Um and there's a story

28:36

in the book of how that was cropping up

28:37

for me when I actually met him.

28:39

But there was a day recently where I had

28:42

some space that I had three spaced out

28:44

meetings in the day. So, I thought I'll

28:45

take the opportunity to walk for an hour

28:47

between them all.

28:48

>> Mhm.

28:49

And for the last meeting of the day,

28:52

I ended up walking past um

28:55

UCH, which is the University College

28:57

Hospital, where he was having treatment.

29:01

And that had been a really traumatic

29:02

time for me when he was in hospital

29:04

there.

29:05

And I have I will have to say I kind of

29:07

avoided that area since then. I'll tell

29:09

you about a particular story that was

29:12

like really traumatizing for me.

29:14

Um so on this walk to um where I was

29:18

going for the evening for a book launch

29:19

event, I ended up walking past the

29:21

hospital.

29:22

And I and I actually said in my head

29:24

like "Why would you make that happen to

29:27

me? Like why why do I have to walk past

29:29

that building? I never want to see that

29:30

building again in my life."

29:33

And again, I said you have to send me a

29:34

sign.

29:36

And um by the time I got to Euston

29:38

Station, so you know, you can people who

29:40

don't know can Google this, it's not

29:41

very far,

29:43

there was an elastic band in the figure

29:44

of eight sign on the pavement, and that

29:47

means something to me.

29:48

Um

29:50

So the thing about this this

29:52

confirmation bias thing is it it's

29:54

dependent on the reticular activating

29:56

system,

29:57

which is the system of your brain that

29:59

filters out what's not crucial to your

30:02

survival and then filters in what it

30:04

wants you to notice.

30:06

And so

30:08

actually, one of the things I've written

30:10

about in the book is the art of

30:12

noticing.

30:14

Because really, we live in this world

30:16

where the li- you know, life is passing

30:18

you by at 100 mph. You're not noticing

30:20

things that could actually be crucial to

30:22

you thriving rather than you just

30:24

surviving.

30:25

And in this model called shared trait

30:28

vulnerability, which falls under the

30:30

field of um research called

30:32

neuroaesthetics,

30:34

so basically, creativity is a positive

30:37

personality trait, right?

30:38

>> Mhm. But there is a a high correlation

30:41

between creativity and psychopathology,

30:43

which is mental illness, particularly

30:46

depression, schizophrenia, and

30:48

alcoholism.

30:49

And there are quite a few high-profile

30:51

examples of um creative people who had

30:54

mental illnesses, like Alexander

30:56

McQueen,

30:57

Kurt Cobain, Van Gogh. So, what that

31:01

shows is that there's an area of overlap

31:05

of three particular ways of thinking

31:08

that are underpinned by neurology

31:10

that are the reasons that people with

31:13

mental illness are so creative. And they

31:17

are basically

31:19

um

31:21

hyperconnectivity.

31:22

So, that's that's two things. That's

31:24

joining the dots in the material world

31:26

of things that aren't obvious to other

31:28

people,

31:29

but it's also hyperconnectivity inside

31:31

the brain. So, if you think about all

31:32

these lobes,

31:35

So happy. If you think about all these

31:37

lobes,

31:38

the more lobes that are firing at the

31:40

same time, and there's also a cortex

31:42

that's known as the association cortex.

31:45

So, that one, you know, these lobes can

31:47

be firing, but they're not necessarily

31:48

connecting up with each other. The more

31:50

interconnected all this firing is in the

31:52

brain, the more the brain opens up to

31:56

new ideas, and so that underpins

31:58

creativity. And also, this usually

32:00

really involves the visual cortex, which

32:02

is in the occipital lobes, and that's

32:04

why sometimes people, whether it's

32:06

through psychedelics or, you know, sort

32:08

of sort of altered states of

32:10

consciousness through creativity, can

32:11

can see things that they didn't see

32:13

before. Mhm. There's also something

32:15

called novelty salience, which is

32:17

noticing new things, um or just noticing

32:20

things of importance that you would

32:21

otherwise have filtered out. And there's

32:24

something called um

32:26

attenuated latent inhibition or low

32:29

latent inhibition, which is to do with

32:31

that filter,

32:32

and it means that the filter allows more

32:34

things in than it normally does.

32:36

>> Mhm. So, you can see we've got

32:38

hyperconnection, we've got noticing more

32:40

things, and we've got the filter like

32:42

loosening and allowing more things in.

32:45

Now, if you've got a high IQ,

32:47

high working memory,

32:49

and you've got cognitive flexibility,

32:51

which is you can think, you know, out of

32:53

the box, that's a really good thing.

32:56

If you've got a low IQ, you've got

32:58

deficits in your working memory,

33:00

and you've got what's called

33:01

perseveration, which is you just go over

33:03

the same thought process process over

33:05

and over again,

33:06

that can lead to you having a

33:07

psychological crisis.

33:10

So, I took that model and thought, "If

33:12

grief is like psychosis, and I'm

33:13

currently in a very vulnerable state,

33:16

is creativity a conduit for me to get

33:19

not only back to the state that I was in

33:20

before, but into a state of expanded

33:24

awareness where I can loosen the filter

33:26

as I choose as I choose fit. I can

33:29

notice things that I would have passed

33:31

by before,

33:32

and I can think differently about how my

33:34

mind works, how the world works,

33:37

possibly what happens after someone

33:39

passes away."

33:41

And then I went and, you know, looked

33:43

into near-death experiences and terminal

33:45

lucidity and dark retreats. Like I said,

33:47

I went down a rabbit hole. And what did

33:49

you find in that rabbit hole?

33:51

At the border of life and death, usually

33:54

within 1 to 24 hours of death,

33:57

someone who has

34:00

whose brain hasn't been functioning, who

34:02

can't remember the names of their own

34:03

children,

34:05

suddenly becomes completely lucid and

34:07

says, "Steven, darling, come over here.

34:09

Let me, you know, let's have a nice like

34:10

mother-son chat."

34:12

And then that gives a lot of people

34:14

hope, but usually that means it's an

34:16

hour or 23 hours till the person's going

34:18

to die. We can't explain that. How can a

34:21

brain that's irreversibly damaged

34:23

suddenly function completely normally?

34:25

There is no explanation for that.

34:27

With the near-death experiences,

34:30

I was particularly compelled by three

34:32

stories.

34:34

Dr. Mary Neal, an orthopedic surgeon,

34:37

she's in that Netflix documentary

34:39

Surviving Death.

34:40

She was submerged underwater for 15 or

34:42

20 minutes. She should never have been

34:44

able to be resuscitated.

34:46

She describes her whole journey of going

34:48

to another realm, seeing, you know, a

34:50

being of light, being told that her life

34:53

isn't over, she has to turn back and

34:54

return to

34:56

the physical world, even though she

34:58

could see her bloated body and her

35:00

friends trying to reach her to

35:01

resuscitate her and they couldn't.

35:03

Dr. Eben Alexander, who wrote Proof of

35:05

Heaven.

35:07

He is a doctor. He was an atheist.

35:10

He was in a coma with bacterial

35:12

meningitis and was pronounced clinically

35:14

dead. And then basically came back and

35:16

said that he saw heaven.

35:18

And he now believes in a God that is

35:20

benign, that cares about the future of

35:22

humanity.

35:23

So, for me as a doctor,

35:25

hearing these stories from other doctors

35:27

was really, really convincing.

35:30

And then there's one story that um Dr.

35:32

Grayson told me, he's a professor of

35:34

psychiatry at University of Virginia,

35:36

who has done 50 years of research into

35:39

near-death experiences.

35:41

And he told me the story of a patient in

35:43

ICU

35:45

who kept going into cardiac arrest.

35:48

And he had a primary nurse, who was a

35:50

young um 20-year-old nurse and they had

35:52

a really close bond.

35:55

And one weekend, she was she had time

35:57

off for the weekend and he had a

36:00

different nurse looking after him.

36:02

And he went into cardiac arrest and he

36:04

had a near-death experience.

36:06

And in that near-death experience,

36:08

he saw his primary nurse. She said to

36:11

him, "Your life isn't over, you have to

36:12

go back and get better.

36:15

And please tell my parents I'm sorry

36:16

about the red MG."

36:19

So, he wakes up in ICU, he's got this

36:21

replacement nurse looking after him.

36:24

And he says, "The strangest thing just

36:26

happened.

36:27

I um

36:30

had this experience of being in this

36:31

other world. I saw um my primary nurse,

36:35

and she said I had to come back. And she

36:37

also said tell my parents sorry about

36:38

the red MG.

36:40

So, the temporary nurse starts bursting

36:42

into tears, runs out of the room. He has

36:44

no idea why.

36:46

Someone comes in and says what's just

36:47

happened. He explains,

36:49

and they tell him

36:51

that his primary nurse was given a red

36:53

MG for her 21st birthday,

36:56

took it out for a test run, crashed it

36:58

into a tree, and died.

37:00

Now, he didn't know she was dead.

37:03

But he saw her on the other side, and

37:05

she told him to come back.

37:08

And the guy that told you this story was

37:10

who relevant to the patient who said

37:12

that? Dr. Bruce Greyson. He um has done

37:15

50 years of research on near-death

37:17

experiences. He's got over 5,000

37:20

recorded cases of patients of his own

37:23

that he's looked after that had

37:25

near-death experiences. And he also

37:27

shared with me with me the numbers of of

37:29

uh

37:30

cases that other people have on

37:31

databases. So, you know, we're looking

37:33

at over 10,000 cases globally recorded

37:36

at the moment.

37:38

What is it that you believe based on

37:39

those near-death experiences like the

37:41

red MG story?

37:42

>> Mhm.

37:43

And based on this phenomenon of terminal

37:47

lucidity?

37:50

So, Professor Alexander Batthyany who

37:51

wrote Threshold about terminal lucidity

37:54

put it really nicely when he said,

37:56

"Maybe at the border of life and death,

37:59

we see something that is true all along,

38:01

but we don't,

38:03

for whatever reason, see it or

38:05

acknowledge it whilst we're alive and

38:07

well, which is that the mind and body

38:10

can operate independently of each

38:12

other."

38:14

It is quite It is quite shocking.

38:15

There's this case from 2009.

38:18

An 82-year-old woman with Alzheimer's

38:20

disease who was nonverbal and

38:22

non-responsive and had no apparent

38:24

recognition of her surroundings or

38:25

families for years.

38:27

And then one day before her death, she

38:29

suddenly sat up in hospital, looked

38:30

around, and recognized her daughter by

38:31

name, spoke clearly, reminisced about

38:34

the past, thanked her family for caring

38:36

for her. Her speech was coherent, her

38:39

memory was intact,

38:40

and her personality recognizable as

38:43

though she had never been ill. She fell

38:45

asleep that evening and died peacefully

38:46

during the night.

38:49

And what do you think's happening there?

38:51

What do you think's happening there?

38:52

It's possibly, you know, partially

38:54

explained by a a surge in

38:56

neurochemicals, but it's not explained

38:58

by how can those neurochemicals act if

39:01

the physical neurons and synapses are

39:03

damaged? So, there is no explanation.

39:05

The only explanation

39:08

is that the mind is not emergent from

39:10

material matter. It's not

39:12

The The mind, the thoughts, the

39:14

emotions, the psyche cannot be solely

39:19

emerging from physical matter. That's

39:21

the only explanation from what we

39:23

understand so far.

39:25

And so, what is it that you now believe?

39:27

You believe that our souls and our

39:28

bodies are two separate things. And

39:30

where does our soul live if it's not

39:33

living inside of me?

39:35

So, like where is Robin? Mhm.

39:37

So, I believe that, you know, whether

39:39

whether you want to call it the

39:40

universe,

39:42

consciousness,

39:43

um collective consciousness, Godhead,

39:47

cosmic soup, I don't The word for it

39:49

isn't important. There's There's

39:51

somewhere

39:52

that that energy goes and it still

39:54

exists in some form. And if you believe

39:57

in reincarnation, then you may believe

39:59

that it then enters another body as a

40:01

vessel and, you know, has a different

40:03

life. Um

40:05

But

40:07

it doesn't go away.

40:09

How do you know?

40:13

I'm going to say something that you're I

40:14

know you're not going to like, but

40:16

I know because I feel it personally. I

40:19

feel it from I feel it like with the

40:20

person I've been closest to in my entire

40:22

life.

40:24

Who I know would never leave me if they

40:25

didn't absolutely have to.

40:28

But I can back that up.

40:31

To the extent of I can I can say you

40:33

can't prove that this isn't true.

40:35

I can back that up with everything that

40:36

I put in the book. And I'm not the only

40:38

one. Dr. David Eagleman at Stanford

40:41

says, you know, this idea of the brain

40:43

being like a radio

40:45

and receiving signals from outside. We

40:47

can't prove it, but we categorically

40:49

cannot say it's not true.

40:51

Professor Donald Hoffman suggests that

40:54

space-time is not the basis of how the

40:56

universe works. Suggests that

40:57

consciousness is the basis of how the

40:58

universe works. We can't prove that's

41:00

not true. And I find that really

41:02

exciting. I mean, as a scientist

41:05

you're supposed to challenge the status

41:07

quo. You're supposed to be curious. You

41:09

can't as a scientist believe that

41:10

everything we know now is all there is.

41:13

There's no point to being a scientist if

41:14

that's what you believe.

41:16

I asked you this question about the gym

41:17

earlier on about is it kind of like

41:18

training in the gym? Are there things

41:20

you think people could do to heighten

41:22

their ability

41:23

to speak to

41:25

loved ones that might have passed or to

41:27

heighten their ability to tap into

41:28

signs?

41:29

So, I go through this in the book and

41:31

and I chose the order quite carefully.

41:33

So,

41:34

I talk about neuroaesthetics, which is

41:37

you know, noticing beauty basically, if

41:39

not like

41:40

actually engaging in the arts. There's a

41:42

lot of evidence for engaging in the arts

41:44

in terms of like um increasing your

41:46

novelty salience, which is noticing new

41:48

things, which is part of the journey of

41:49

opening up that filter. Mhm. Um

41:53

and then there's a whole chapter on

41:54

nature because I think a lot of signs

41:56

come from nature, like

41:58

butterflies, robins, um

42:01

sort of, you know, spiral formations,

42:04

cloud formations. So, noticing nature

42:07

more can help you, you know, also to

42:08

receive these signs. And then community

42:11

is a huge part of it because, you know,

42:13

if I had this conversation with you and

42:15

you totally shut me down and said, "It's

42:17

not provable. This is ridiculous. I'm

42:18

not airing this episode." That would

42:20

have a very different like effect on me

42:23

to you even being open to like asking me

42:25

challenging questions that I welcome,

42:27

but also

42:29

engaging in this conversation and and

42:31

sort of, you know, maybe

42:32

feels a little bit like maybe

42:33

questioning, you know, some things that

42:35

you might do differently. Um

42:37

So, those are three very important parts

42:39

of like sort of part two of the book.

42:42

Part one is more about what are signs,

42:44

what are you missing, you know, have you

42:46

been receiving signs already? One of the

42:48

things that I when I was going through

42:49

my sort of um transition from like being

42:51

religious to being agnostic, I'd say,

42:53

cuz I wouldn't call myself an atheist,

42:55

is

42:56

I was watching all these um

42:58

atheist minds debate and talk and stuff.

43:00

And one of the things one of them said

43:01

is that if coincidence didn't happen in

43:03

our lives, then that would be a miracle.

43:05

Like statistically, mathematically, if

43:07

it's sometimes you don't think of Dave

43:09

and then the phone

43:11

that would actually be more

43:12

mathematically improbable

43:14

than it happening sometimes. Mhm. If you

43:16

think about, you know, the if if you had

43:18

this on a like a distribution curve or

43:19

something,

43:20

it is likely

43:22

mathematically that really unlikely

43:24

things will happen sometimes.

43:27

>> Okay. Right? So, I I've always had that

43:29

in my head as a way to sort of

43:30

rationalize coincidence. So, when

43:32

coincidence happens, I think, well,

43:33

probabilistically,

43:35

really unlikely things have to happen

43:37

and if they never happen,

43:39

then that's a miracle. Okay. Does that

43:41

make sense?

43:41

>> Yeah, it makes sense.

43:42

>> Like mathematically, you'd say like

43:45

likely things happen often,

43:47

unlikely things happen less often,

43:48

>> Yeah. extremely unlikely things happen

43:51

way less often.

43:52

>> Yeah. That's like the nature of like

43:54

maths, right? So, when extremely

43:56

unlikely things happen, I say,

43:58

"Actually, that makes sense because

44:00

probabilistically those things happen

44:01

infrequently. They're not happening

44:02

every single day." Like right now, I'm

44:04

thinking of I can name 10 people. I

44:06

guarantee when I go to my phone, none of

44:07

those 10 people have text me.

44:09

But if I do that every day, one day I'm

44:11

going to say, "Hey Steve, checking in."

44:13

Which makes sense because of the the

44:14

laws of probability.

44:15

>> want you to do that. I want you to just

44:17

like

44:18

be open to naturally thinking of someone

44:20

and seeing if that does happen or, you

44:22

know, kind of or asking for a sign and

44:24

seeing if it comes into your life.

44:27

That that's

44:29

That's all I'm asking. Like what, you

44:30

know,

44:32

just try it. It's not going to hurt you.

44:34

And I'm not just saying that to you. I'm

44:35

saying it to everyone.

44:38

And how do you think that would benefit

44:39

me?

44:41

I think it makes you believe in

44:42

something bigger than yourself.

44:44

Yeah. Um

44:45

>> And why is that so important?

44:47

Because I think a life where all you're

44:49

trying to do is get through and meet

44:51

your needs is

44:54

life can be better than that. Um

44:57

I think a life where you feel more

44:58

connected to yourself, to others, to

45:01

something greater gives you purpose.

45:04

Um

45:05

There's a lot of research that shows

45:06

that having a purpose that transcends

45:08

just yourself is actually really healthy

45:10

and important. And what is that for you

45:12

now, that transcendent layer in your

45:14

life? How do you define it? Is it a

45:16

religion? Is it something else? It's

45:18

definitely not religion. Um

45:21

I guess it's spirituality and, you know,

45:24

a form which will mean different things

45:25

to different people.

45:27

It's definitely about caring for

45:29

humanity. Is it a god?

45:31

A creator?

45:33

For me, no.

45:34

Um but 85% of people globally believe in

45:38

religion and a god, so it's important.

45:41

Um

45:43

I think for me it's

45:45

about

45:46

giving like a voice of relevance and

45:48

helping people to feel seen and heard

45:50

cuz I think that's very lacking. And,

45:53

you know, I'm in the enormously

45:55

privileged position that you have given

45:57

me of being able to do that, and I want

45:59

to use that in a really like positive

46:00

way.

46:01

How does this overlap with or sit

46:04

alongside what people call intuition?

46:08

Cuz you talk about that as well in the

46:09

book. Yeah. Um

46:11

I know there's so much like there's

46:12

still like so much else I want to say.

46:14

Just keep going.

46:15

>> So intuition is I mean intuition is what

46:17

it is. It's accessing inner wisdom,

46:19

right? But I've I've included it as a

46:22

really important part of the book

46:23

because I believe that it's a way to

46:25

receive and interpret your signs.

46:28

But um

46:30

I just want to go back to something I

46:31

said earlier which is about how

46:34

trauma can be stored in your body and

46:36

you know to some extent

46:38

it can't be retrieved through talking

46:40

therapy cuz there aren't words for it

46:42

because it's actually embedded into the

46:43

tissues of your body.

46:45

There's a really exciting new hypothesis

46:48

for how that might work called the

46:49

serotonin hypothesis.

46:52

So previously

46:53

I think it would make sense that if you

46:56

know for example when when Robin was in

46:57

hospital

46:59

I would like

47:01

sit in a very hunched over position and

47:03

my fists would be clenched cuz I felt

47:04

like I was fighting for his life all the

47:06

time and if I relaxed for a millisecond

47:08

he could die.

47:09

Um

47:10

so it makes sense to me that that

47:13

those postural issues would show up for

47:15

me later and you know in terms of like

47:17

aches and pains and you know perhaps

47:19

sort of well not perhaps my as my

47:22

Pilates and yoga teachers keep telling

47:24

me like issues with you know certain

47:25

parts of my spine and stuff.

47:27

But um the serotonin hypothesis is very

47:30

exciting as a neuroscientist because

47:33

a lot of people have heard of Bessel van

47:35

der Kolk's work and the book The Body

47:36

Keeps the Score.

47:38

And it makes sense kind of intuitively

47:40

that the body does keep the score and

47:42

and like I've said there's no amount of

47:44

trauma that you can't you can't

47:46

articulate verbally. So we believe we

47:49

understand there are imprints of that in

47:51

the body. Mhm.

47:53

But we have we've never really

47:54

understood how that works. Um and

47:58

we, you know, I've talked before, I

48:00

think with you, about intuition

48:02

through a process called Hebbian

48:03

learning, which is neurons that fire

48:05

together, wire together, gets pushed

48:07

deeper and deeper into neurons from the

48:10

outer cortex, the limbic system, the

48:11

brainstem, into gut neurons, and that's

48:13

why intuition is called gut instinct.

48:16

And we understand that through stress

48:19

postures,

48:20

you could have bracing patterns in your

48:22

muscles for like the trauma that you've

48:24

experienced.

48:26

Fascia is the connective tissue that

48:27

holds your entire body together, all

48:29

your organs, all your muscles.

48:31

And until fairly recently,

48:34

fascia was thought of as a vestigial

48:36

organ. It was cut away in surgery

48:37

without thinking of any that it would

48:39

have any effect on the rest of your

48:40

body.

48:42

Now, it's understood more to actually be

48:44

an an organ of its own and an important

48:46

one.

48:48

And the serotonin hypothesis

48:50

goes some way to explain how the level

48:54

of constriction of capillaries and the

48:56

amount of nutrients that's released to

48:59

skin, fascia, and muscle

49:01

is a mechanism for how trauma is held in

49:03

the body.

49:05

And with that in mind,

49:07

what do we do to get rid of that trauma

49:08

held in the body?

49:09

Physical activities. Um, so dancing,

49:13

singing, drumming, humming, chanting,

49:16

massage, yoga, craniosacral therapy. And

49:21

you'll notice that the ones I started

49:23

with are, you know, very related to

49:24

ancient wisdom. So, our ancestors knew

49:27

this. Um, for example, in ancient Greek

49:31

um

49:32

uh ancient Greek burials, they would

49:34

wail and beat their chests. So, they

49:36

were getting rid of grief by

49:39

like screaming, but also by beating

49:41

their muscles and letting like trauma

49:42

exit their body.

49:44

I'm very well aware that

49:47

there's probably a lot of people who

49:48

have sent this conversation to a friend

49:51

who is struggling right now. Mhm. And

49:53

that that friend who has lost a loved

49:54

one, potentially a husband, potentially

49:56

a wife, potentially, you know, God

49:58

forbid a child or a grandparent or

50:00

something, is listening to this because

50:03

they are in search of answers for their

50:05

own healing. Mhm.

50:07

You've been there. Mhm. You may still be

50:09

there in some

50:11

degree.

50:14

If you were to advise them on

50:18

their own healing journey, what advice

50:20

would you give them?

50:23

The first thing would be

50:26

to not repress or deny how they're

50:28

feeling and, you know, really

50:31

feel the emotions that that have to come

50:33

along with grief. Um

50:37

I've, you know, I had amazing talking

50:39

therapy, which definitely helped me a

50:40

lot. So, if people have access to that,

50:42

um professionally, then great. If not,

50:44

then, you know, if you've got close

50:46

friends that you can talk to, then

50:48

talking it out does help.

50:50

But, I've really learned that there's a

50:52

limit to how much that helps and that

50:54

some sort of

50:56

physical therapy, um is really helpful

50:58

as part of it. Those would be the

51:00

basics, I would say.

51:03

Time in nature has been so healing for

51:05

me. Um

51:06

some form of creative outlet, whether

51:08

it's making or beholding. So, you don't

51:10

have to be good at art if if you

51:13

draw, you know, a picture of how you're

51:15

feeling emotionally or a sketch of your

51:17

loved one, it doesn't have to be good.

51:19

You get benefits from doing that. It's

51:20

an out creative for your grief. That's

51:23

probably the second level and, you know,

51:24

the third level to me is if you've got

51:28

any inclination to receive signs, um or

51:31

just be open to

51:33

you know, white feather landing at your

51:34

doorstep.

51:36

Um

51:38

or a bird coming to visit you or

51:39

something that means something to you,

51:40

then

51:41

that can bring a lot of comfort and

51:43

guidance and joy.

51:45

And you also assert that things like

51:47

being in nature creativity

51:49

honing into our intuition increase the

51:51

probability of us receiving these signs.

51:53

Mhm.

51:54

Well, receiving and being able to

51:56

interpret in a way that's meaningful for

51:58

you.

51:59

Gut instinct.

52:01

Um in the book you talk about how

52:03

strengthening one's gut health can have

52:06

a an impact on gut in instinct.

52:08

>> Mhm. Explain that to me.

52:11

So, the the body is basically the

52:14

physical foundation for um you know, all

52:17

of your senses to be able to to flourish

52:20

to your higher mental faculties to be

52:22

able to flourish and ultimately for you

52:24

know, whatever spiritual experience you

52:27

have of life to to be able to be at its

52:30

fullest and best as well. So, taking

52:32

care of the physical foundations is

52:34

really important. And um you know, we

52:38

could talk about all the usual things

52:39

like sleep and diet and exercise,

52:42

mindfulness, stress management. But, I

52:45

want to really focus strongly on the the

52:47

gut brain access because a lot of new

52:50

research has come up since I wrote the

52:52

source.

52:54

So, it's actually you know, we know a

52:56

lot about this bi-directional

52:58

communication between the brain and the

52:59

gut. It's actually a three-way system

53:02

which is the brain, the gut itself, the

53:04

gut neurons, and the gut microbiome

53:07

which is trillions of bacteria and fungi

53:10

and you know, organisms that

53:12

um

53:13

are basically determining the health of

53:15

our entire system cuz they're connected

53:17

to our immune system, to our skin,

53:20

to our oral microbiome, and

53:23

and the brain.

53:25

So,

53:26

the way that you

53:28

the most direct access you have to your

53:30

brain is through your gut. The gut is

53:33

the most direct way that you can

53:34

influence your brain and you can do that

53:35

through exercise, obviously diet, um

53:40

supplementation,

53:42

even like um meditation and art and

53:45

music therapy have a beneficial effect

53:47

on your gut microbiome as well, which

53:49

has a knock-on effect on the neurons and

53:51

the the brain. And they communicate with

53:53

each other many ways, mostly through the

53:55

vagus nerve.

53:57

What's the vagus nerve? The vagus nerve

53:59

is a cranial nerve, so it comes from

54:00

your skull. It's Latin for wandering

54:03

because it's the longest nerve that goes

54:05

through your body. So, it goes There's

54:07

two, the right and the left, and they go

54:09

all the way from your cranium

54:10

What's my cranium? Your cranium is the

54:12

bone around your brain. Yeah. Um so,

54:14

inside that, um down your neck, they go

54:18

through your diaphragm and to your

54:19

intestine. I'll put a photo up on the

54:21

screen for everybody who wants to see

54:22

where their vagus nerve is. Also other

54:24

nerves, so the nerves that innervate the

54:26

gut organs, um they're called afferent

54:29

intestinal nerves. They're also involved

54:31

in this communication. Then there's

54:33

hormones,

54:35

and there's cytokine um messages, which

54:38

are chemical messages that aren't

54:39

hormonal. Your immune system actually

54:41

also produces neurotransmitters, and

54:43

there are immune cells in your brain as

54:45

well. So, those are all the ways that we

54:48

know currently that the brain and the

54:49

gut communicate with each other.

54:51

And so, what does this mean in terms of

54:53

my gut health and ways to influence my

54:57

my brain? Does it mean that I I need to

54:58

be really big on my prebiotics and my

55:01

probiotics to make sure my my gut's

55:02

intact? And if I do that, then my

55:04

intuition will be sharper. Mhm. So,

55:07

that's true, but I always like people to

55:09

understand what's behind that, not just

55:11

mindlessly take prebiotics and

55:13

probiotics. So, what we're trying to do

55:15

is reduce inflammation throughout the

55:18

system.

55:19

And so, basically, because

55:24

the brain is a small organ in in our

55:26

entire system, but it uses up at least

55:28

20% of our energy, so it's very

55:30

vulnerable

55:32

to um

55:35

what what we call oxidative stress or

55:37

free radicals. So, every time like

55:39

there's any turnover of cells in our

55:41

brain or our body, basically as we live,

55:44

the wear and tear of daily life, we

55:46

release free radicals, which are

55:48

molecules that can damage cells,

55:50

particularly nerve cells. And because

55:53

the brain is has such high turnover of

55:55

energy, it's particularly vulnerable to

55:58

free radical attack. So, reducing

56:01

inflammation and putting things that are

56:04

neuro protective around it, like certain

56:07

vitamins and minerals, is really

56:09

important. And the hippocampus part of

56:11

the brain, which um it has high cell

56:14

turnover cuz it's to do with memory,

56:16

laying down memories, and obviously well

56:18

into adulthood we're still doing that,

56:20

that's also very vulnerable to free

56:21

radical damage. And that's why we can

56:24

get memory and cognitive impairments and

56:26

dementias as we get older.

56:28

So, the the modern Western diet causes

56:31

something called dysbiosis, which is

56:32

that your gut isn't in a good state, and

56:35

that creates a cascade of inflammation,

56:38

and releases molecules, some of which

56:41

can cross the blood-brain barrier, and

56:43

therefore cause inflammation in the

56:44

brain. So, we want to minimize that as

56:46

much as possible.

56:49

And put in as many protective and

56:50

beneficial factors as possible.

56:53

If we're doing that, the system's in

56:55

what we call homeostasis, which is good

56:57

balance. It's kind of starting to take

56:59

care of itself. It's got all the

57:00

nutrients that it needs. It's hydrated.

57:02

It's oxygenated.

57:04

That's when you've got extra resources

57:07

to do the higher mental functions.

57:10

And up until today, pretty much, I've

57:14

described those as being able to solve

57:17

complex problems, being able to think

57:18

flexibly, creatively, override your

57:21

biases.

57:23

But now I'm proposing that there's more

57:24

than that that we can do. There's

57:27

accessing levels of intuition that we

57:30

didn't know we had. Very much through

57:33

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57:35

described trauma being stored in the

57:36

body,

57:38

hidden wisdom is also stored in the

57:40

body. It's not just in your brain.

57:42

And therefore, the same therapies like

57:46

beholding and making art,

57:49

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57:51

dancing, yoga,

57:53

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57:56

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59:16

Use the word dark retreats. I've never

59:18

heard that phrase before.

59:20

So, dark retreats come from um a Tibetan

59:23

religion or philosophy, but it's um it's

59:27

seen throughout the ancient

59:28

civilizations. So, the ancient Greeks

59:30

and Romans used to bury people actually

59:33

for days, and then they would come out

59:35

and be like the seers and the mystics of

59:37

that um community.

59:39

But, there's most research um available

59:42

in dark retreats cuz it's still

59:43

happening today. What is a dark retreat?

59:46

A dark retreat is um have you heard of

59:47

silent retreats, silent meditation?

59:49

>> Yeah.

59:49

>> Yeah. Yeah, my girlfriend went on one.

59:51

Yeah, so that's the kind of thing she

59:52

would do. So, basically, you can go away

59:54

for a few days to a few weeks, and

59:55

you're just in silence, and you're

59:56

meditating and doing breathwork most of

59:58

the time.

59:59

In a dark retreat, you are in

60:02

like pitch black for I mean, you can go

60:06

and do it for a few hours or a weekend,

60:08

but it's meant to be in sevens. So, 7 to

60:10

49 days. The monks do 49 days. If as a

60:14

you know, a person who's interested

60:15

spiritually, you wanted to do it quite

60:17

seriously, you would go for 7 days.

60:20

And you would be in a room or a cave

60:23

that's got double walls, so it's

60:25

completely dark.

60:27

And um

60:30

the reason for doing this is that not

60:31

all of us can have a near-death

60:33

experience, right? So, this is a way of

60:36

emulate It's the closest way of

60:37

emulating that for anyone like you or I

60:39

to get access to the benefits of a

60:42

near-death experience.

60:44

Um which I've outlined them all in the

60:46

book. So, in a dark retreat, at first,

60:49

you sleep a lot because it's dark,

60:50

you're releasing a lot lot of melatonin

60:52

from your pineal gland. So, you fall

60:55

asleep in darkness, you awake in

60:58

darkness, and basically, that kind of

61:00

makes you feel more sleepy, so you sleep

61:02

a lot.

61:03

After a couple of days,

61:05

you start to see

61:10

like

61:11

pulsations of light. It might be like

61:13

little shooting stars or kind of just

61:15

like little sparks here and there.

61:18

And then eventually, it feels like the

61:20

walls

61:22

are dimly alight.

61:25

So, in complete darkness, you start to

61:28

see light.

61:30

Obviously, there's an element of like

61:32

hallucinating at this point. And so,

61:35

after 3 4 5 days, you will actually

61:39

start to see animals, real or sort of

61:42

fantastical.

61:44

And eventually, people see like deities

61:47

or beings like people do in near-death

61:49

experiences.

61:52

Um and when people come out of these

61:53

retreats, they experience many of the

61:56

same benefits like, you know, a real

61:59

sort of

62:01

like joy for life, less fear of death,

62:04

more compassion for other people, less

62:06

fear of failing, so, you know, taking

62:09

more healthy risks. So, it it's a way

62:12

it's basically of emulating a near-death

62:14

experience. And it therefore convinces

62:16

you that there's more than you can see

62:18

in your day-to-day life and

62:21

therefore, that expands your mind in a

62:22

way that's beneficial. Yeah, it's

62:24

another

62:25

example of an altered state of

62:26

consciousness. You can also get altered

62:29

states of consciousness through

62:30

conscious connected or holotropic breath

62:32

work and through the use of psychedelic

62:36

um

62:37

plants as well. How do we know that it's

62:39

it's not just a

62:40

changing of our neurological state or

62:43

the the chemicals in our brain that are

62:44

causing us to interpret things

62:47

differently with our senses because, you

62:49

know, we've all

62:51

I said we all many of us have

62:52

experienced having some kind of

62:53

stimulant or psychedelic or some

62:55

compound in a rave or a festival that's

62:58

made us see the world differently for a

63:00

moment. And science would say that's

63:02

just the neurochemicals in our brain

63:05

doing different things which are

63:06

changing our perception. They wouldn't

63:07

say necessarily that it's a different

63:09

realm or a different dimension.

63:12

Yeah, and I I think you're right. I

63:14

think it is that. So, as a

63:15

neuropharmacologist, I, you know,

63:18

understand as much as the research says

63:20

about the It's mostly, like I said, in

63:23

in the body in the brain with

63:24

psychedelics, it's mostly 5-HT or

63:26

serotonin 2A receptors. And there's a

63:29

level of hyperconnectivity within the

63:31

brain, particularly, as I said, in the

63:34

visual cortex here, which allows people

63:37

to see things that they don't normally

63:38

see. Um and I think the way to

63:42

apply that in your life is

63:46

that it's a glimpse into what's

63:48

possible.

63:49

Mhm. Um once you've experienced that, it

63:52

could either be that you find other

63:54

natural ways of experiencing that. So,

63:56

there's there's a paper I can forward to

63:58

you that shows that certain forms of

64:00

conscious connected breathwork produce

64:02

the same effect as a moderate dose of

64:04

psilocybin. Which is magic mushrooms.

64:06

>> Yes. And this um research came out after

64:10

psilocybin was banned, and practitioners

64:13

thought, "Well, what are other ways that

64:14

we can help people to achieve these

64:15

altered states of consciousness?" Um

64:19

and personally, I believe that, you

64:22

know,

64:23

having like com- a completely like

64:25

awe-inspiring experience in nature, or

64:27

for me, like the ballet, particularly

64:30

when I've been so lucky sometimes to sit

64:31

in the wings, and you just completely

64:33

feel like you're part of it. I mean,

64:35

I've literally had

64:37

a spiritual experience sitting in the

64:38

wings watching, actually, it was one of

64:40

my friends, the principal dancer,

64:41

dancing.

64:43

Just so overwhelming. It's completely an

64:45

altered state of consciousness. Um

64:48

So, there are other There are other ways

64:49

of accessing that. Um

64:52

but I think it depends like why you want

64:53

to and what it means to you.

64:56

But at minimum, these sorts of things

64:58

that I'm talking about are ways of

65:00

understanding that

65:01

there's more to life than what we know.

65:04

And how does that meaningfully change

65:09

like the concept of what happiness is

65:11

and contentment is, and like living a

65:13

good life is.

65:15

So, what I think is really interesting

65:16

is that we don't actually have to

65:19

experience certain things ourselves. So,

65:22

there's a lot of research that shows

65:23

that students from various different

65:26

areas of expertise who simply learn

65:29

about near-death experiences actually

65:31

get some of the same benefits, and that

65:33

these can last for over a year later.

65:37

So, understanding that when someone sees

65:40

that there's something greater than us,

65:41

when someone sees the interconnectedness

65:44

of of everything, when someone

65:46

understands how

65:48

small some of their problems are in the

65:50

greater, you know, picture of things,

65:52

helps people to be more compassionate,

65:55

more grateful, kinder to others, um less

65:59

materialistic.

66:01

Is is really interesting, and I think

66:03

anything that we can do to help us,

66:06

you know, free us from some of those

66:08

chains that I think hold us down in the

66:10

material world, particularly in the

66:12

Western world,

66:13

is

66:14

it's healthy for us physically,

66:17

mentally, emotionally,

66:19

but it also brings in this element of

66:21

spirituality that I think is just so

66:23

lacking in the world at the moment, and

66:25

and could be so helpful, because if we

66:27

look back

66:29

at the way that our ancestors used their

66:31

senses and their intuition to interpret

66:33

the land, like

66:34

a cloud formation could mean that rain's

66:36

coming, but it could also mean that your

66:38

ancestors were talking to you.

66:40

Just seems like such a beautiful way to

66:41

live, and

66:43

when we lived in, you know, in

66:45

Paleolithic times, we didn't have spare

66:47

resources for having fun,

66:49

but we adorned ourselves, we danced, we

66:51

told stories, we made, you know, cave

66:53

art.

66:55

So, I think that just really

66:57

reminds us that those things that are

67:00

often seen as luxuries or frivolous,

67:03

they're not at all, they're

67:04

fundamentally important. Believing in in

67:07

these things itself is good for us. Is

67:10

that what you believe? You believe that

67:11

believing in something transcendent,

67:13

whether it's spiritual or religious, is

67:15

actually just good for us. So, that's

67:17

reason enough to believe it. It's reason

67:19

enough to believe it, but I think it

67:20

will naturally change what you do once

67:23

you believe it. You're not going to live

67:24

in the same way if you if you you know,

67:26

believe some fundamentally different

67:28

things.

67:29

>> And the ways in which it changes what

67:30

you believe are beneficial to you. So,

67:33

are you saying that that is reason

67:35

enough to believe it? Like to want to

67:36

believe it? I think it's reason enough

67:38

to try it. Yeah.

67:40

I mean, sometimes it causes

67:42

people through human history to do awful

67:43

things, right? To kill themselves, to

67:47

to strap bombs to themselves and do

67:49

horrific things because they believe in

67:52

something transcendent.

67:55

It it can also lead to like

67:58

destructive behavior. I mean, I don't

68:00

think there's any evidence from

68:01

near-death experiences that that's the

68:03

case. I think

68:05

I know what that what you're referring

68:07

to is something that's, you know, more

68:09

fundamentally like religious and

68:14

Cuz I was watching that I've been

68:15

watching Jack told me to watch this uh

68:17

capture bin Laden documentary, so I was

68:18

watching it last night and

68:20

these people flew themselves into

68:21

buildings

68:22

because they believe in

68:25

you know, they were obviously

68:26

radicalized in various ways, but they

68:29

they believed in going to a

68:32

afterlife that would be better than this

68:34

one. And they were sacrificing

68:35

themselves

68:37

for the greater good. So, it's just it's

68:38

I guess it's a side point that just but

68:40

the belief in transcendence itself in

68:42

some regard isn't necessarily always

68:43

going to guarantee our behaviors on on

68:46

this planet are productive. Yeah, and I

68:48

was going to say like perhaps it's

68:49

something more dogmatic, but I think

68:51

you're absolutely right to raise that

68:52

point. And I'm not trying to sit here

68:54

and say

68:55

I found like the perfect solution and

68:57

everyone should do this and it's all

68:58

good. Like that's just I know that's not

69:00

true. I'm not trying to say that at all.

69:02

I think we should absolutely be

69:03

questioning everything that that I'm

69:06

saying and I will keep questioning the

69:08

way that I'm living my life and keep

69:10

trying to learn and grow. I guess the

69:12

point is just the belief in something

69:13

transcendent. Does that make our lives

69:15

necessarily better? I guess the answer

69:17

is I can't it can. Yeah.

69:19

I'm really obsessed at the moment

69:20

actually with this idea of purpose and

69:21

meaning because obviously we're living

69:22

in a society that's more and more

69:24

individualistic and

69:25

>> Yeah.

69:26

independence is kind of vogue and

69:29

um because of a variety of things that

69:31

have happened over the last 50 60 70

69:33

years, we have more independence. Women

69:35

in particular have a lot more

69:35

independence which I think everyone is

69:37

very most people are very um supportive

69:40

of.

69:40

>> Mhm.

69:41

We have more choice than ever before and

69:43

with choice comes independence. So I can

69:44

choose now when I have a family and

69:46

maybe I couldn't choose before. Mhm. Um

69:50

and with choice and with freedom

69:52

I think some of our

69:54

more short-term hedonistic desires and

69:57

temptations take hold and we end up

69:59

sacrificing the tribe and shared

70:01

responsibility and dependence and a lot

70:04

of our meaning came from like those

70:05

things. Mhm. So I I feel to some degree

70:08

that when we think about how we ladder

70:10

up from like me to like my family to my

70:13

city to my nation and then maybe to my

70:15

God Mhm. those layers have fallen away

70:17

now for many of us it's just me

70:19

>> Mhm.

70:20

and that's causing a crisis of meaning

70:23

and purpose in in life because we're

70:24

kind of unanchored. Yeah.

70:26

What's your perspective on this and um

70:30

do you think it's true that we're like

70:31

when more unanchored than we've ever

70:33

been and how do you think we get back to

70:35

that if we can relate to feeling a

70:36

little bit lost and unanchored and

70:39

the sort of prevalence in my view of

70:40

people having more and more midlife

70:42

crises and turning to religion or

70:44

spirituality or something?

70:46

>> Yeah, well I I actually called this in

70:48

March 2020 and it's on record cuz I was

70:51

on a podcast and I I said I

70:53

foresee a huge mental health crisis but

70:57

we could choose for it to be a spiritual

70:59

revolution.

71:01

And so then obviously the you know, the

71:03

rest of the pandemic happened and then

71:05

there was sort of a return to society

71:07

which I think people found really hard

71:08

mentally as well.

71:10

And at the same time there was the cost

71:14

of living crisis, the wealth gap, a new

71:16

war, the crime rates, you know,

71:19

certainly in London like just for my

71:20

life experience they had you know,

71:22

significantly grown.

71:24

Um

71:25

for reasons that we're all contributors

71:27

to but you know, it changes how safe you

71:29

feel in society.

71:31

And

71:33

I'm a big fan of technology obviously

71:34

I'm a scientist but

71:36

it is ironic that we seem to be more

71:39

disconnected than ever when

71:41

in in one way we're we're more connected

71:43

than we've ever been before. Mhm. And

71:47

I you know, I I've said this before but

71:48

I'll say it again. I think

71:50

the way out of that is is a return to

71:52

ancient wisdom to true connection which

71:55

I believe can coexist with

71:58

being technologically connected and

71:59

advanced. Um

72:03

but yeah, I just I just think we've lost

72:05

what it means to be human which means

72:07

you know, really being in touch with

72:08

yourself and being part of a community

72:10

and and caring about

72:13

something more than just your own life

72:15

and and your immediate you know, inner

72:17

circle.

72:19

And what is true connection in your

72:20

definition of the word?

72:22

Cuz I guess there's false connection if

72:23

there's true connection. Mhm. So what's

72:25

true connection? Um And what is false

72:27

connection? Well, I'll just go over you

72:28

know, what I've said before cuz it's

72:29

about connection to yourself, to others

72:31

and you know, sort of the world or

72:32

something greater. And I think you know,

72:35

it's about something that's

72:37

that's deep and not transactional. It's

72:39

about something that's meaningful. It's

72:41

about something that's altruistic.

72:45

I I think it's about contributing.

72:48

That day when you walked past the

72:49

hospital,

72:50

what did you experience?

72:54

Um it triggers me seeing that building.

72:57

And I just

72:59

I you know, I had obviously looked on

73:01

Google Maps, but not really realized I

73:03

would walk past it. And if I had

73:05

realized, I would have walked a

73:06

different way. And I remember just

73:08

thinking

73:10

it's unfair that I had to see this

73:11

building. It was unnecessary

73:13

unnecessarily a trigger for me.

73:15

And

73:16

and obviously obviously saying to Robin,

73:18

you need to send me a sign. But there's

73:19

a reason for that, which is you know, I

73:21

mean I went to that hospital every day

73:22

for

73:23

a month for his first day and I think

73:25

about 3 weeks for the second one.

73:27

Um

73:29

but

73:30

he had two admissions to ICU. And

73:34

one of them I'd been, you know, to visit

73:36

him for the day.

73:39

He'd been bedridden for quite a few

73:41

weeks by then. And I came home.

73:45

I was just sort of de-escalating and you

73:47

know, sitting on the sofa and getting

73:48

ready for the evening. And then suddenly

73:50

I saw the emergency line was calling.

73:52

And

73:54

I could hear them saying

73:56

his heart rate went up to 200. Like

73:59

ICU are here now. You know, we did a

74:01

crash call. And they're just like

74:03

talking talking talking. And I suddenly

74:04

just said

74:05

should I come back to the hospital?

74:08

And she said yes. In a tone of voice

74:11

that was like

74:13

you need to get here as quickly as

74:14

possible. Got in the Uber. It's a

74:16

30-minute Uber ride from my house.

74:18

And

74:21

messaged my best friend and said that

74:23

I've got to rush back to the hospital.

74:25

He was on the 15th floor. So, I was like

74:27

waiting for the lift.

74:29

Got up there.

74:30

Saw the matron coming to unlock the

74:32

door. And I just said, "Is he in his

74:33

room?" And she said, "Yes, he's in his

74:34

room." But she her face looked like

74:37

not good.

74:38

Ran round and saw all the machinery from

74:42

ICU in the corridor with like 100 wires

74:44

coming out of the room.

74:47

Ran into the room and just saw Robin sat

74:50

up in bed.

74:51

Huge smile when he saw me.

74:54

And he just said to me,

74:56

"When I thought this was the end, I just

74:58

kept thinking, please let me see her

75:00

face one more time."

75:03

And

75:06

you know, after that he did get a bit

75:07

better, but then

75:10

um

75:11

Well, in that first admission eventually

75:14

I said to him, you know, you've got to

75:15

start sitting up. The doctor said you've

75:17

got to sit out of bed.

75:18

And

75:20

the therapist had come round. He said,

75:22

"I don't want therapy. I've got you."

75:23

So, like I took the therapy.

75:25

The reflexology lady came round. He

75:27

pretended he was asleep. And eventually

75:28

I said, "Darling, you've got to play the

75:30

game. I cannot do this by myself.

75:33

And you And you can't just keep lying in

75:34

bed. You've got to sit up."

75:36

So, he got helped into the chair.

75:38

And that day when I went to say goodbye

75:40

to him

75:41

I hugged him like face-to-face. And I

75:43

had didn't quite realize that the whole

75:45

time I'd been kissing him from the side

75:46

of the bed cuz he'd been in bed.

75:49

And when we hugged face-to-face, I just

75:50

burst into tears. And I had never shown

75:52

him anything but a smiling face the

75:54

whole time.

75:56

And I left. And I just got this barrage

75:58

of text messages saying, "I'm not

76:00

spending one more night away from you.

76:02

I'm wasting away in this hospital when I

76:04

could be with you. When you come in

76:06

tomorrow, we're going to tell the

76:07

doctors that I'm leaving."

76:10

So, I thought, okay.

76:12

Came in the next day. It's ward round.

76:14

And I was pretty much like part of the

76:16

ward round. Like the consultant would

76:17

say everything and then say, "Is that

76:19

okay, Tara?" kind of thing.

76:21

And he said, "I want to leave I'm

76:22

leaving today. I want to be at home with

76:24

my wife tonight."

76:26

And she was very clever. She looked at

76:28

me and said, "What do you think, Tara?"

76:30

cuz she knew I'd never put him in

76:31

danger.

76:33

But also, I'm standing in front of the

76:34

man

76:36

that I love.

76:38

And I'm either going to tell him that I

76:40

don't trust him, I don't trust his

76:42

decision-making.

76:44

The person who always always had my

76:47

back, or I'm going to have to show him

76:49

that I have his back just like he always

76:50

had mine.

76:52

And I said to her,

76:54

"I understand why

76:56

you wouldn't be in favor of this, but I

76:58

think I can manage it."

77:01

And within 2 days he was discharged from

77:02

hospital.

77:05

Um

77:07

yeah, off IVs.

77:09

Um but still on oxygen.

77:11

We still had to go in to have like the

77:13

bone marrow tests and get blood

77:16

transfusions and platelets and things.

77:19

But he slowly started to recover. He It

77:20

was a slow recovery.

77:22

So, normally within a week you would get

77:24

the second round of treatment. He wasn't

77:26

strong enough for that, but

77:28

um we got to the point where she

77:30

actually said that we could go to

77:31

Hampshire, and then he stopped using the

77:34

walking stick, he stopped using the

77:35

oxygen.

77:37

We came back to London for the second

77:38

round of treatment. She said, "I I could

77:40

not have imagined you would bring him

77:41

back in as good a state as he's in."

77:44

But the second round of treatment was

77:46

totally brutal,

77:49

and it didn't work.

77:50

Um so, he was in hospital again

77:53

for a few weeks, and then like I said,

77:55

on October 4th, I took him home.

77:58

Even then,

78:00

the female consultant said to me,

78:03

"The last time you took him to

78:04

Hampshire, he got so much better. If

78:05

anything changes, bring him back to

78:07

London." And

78:09

the male consultant

78:10

gave me two syringes of bone marrow

78:12

stimulating um drugs and said, "You

78:15

cannot use this without our permission,

78:17

but if anything changes, inject him with

78:20

this and bring him back to London." So,

78:22

I still had like a glimmer of hope,

78:25

which I shouldn't really have had.

78:27

Um

78:29

and like I said, he he lived for 3 and

78:31

1/2 weeks instead of two.

78:34

Um

78:37

yeah, and like right towards the end cuz

78:39

he was in a hospital bed on an air

78:41

mattress.

78:42

He said like maybe you could like come

78:45

and lie on the bed with me. And when you

78:48

couldn't move, he couldn't raise a glass

78:50

of water to his lips or anything.

78:52

He somehow like moved his arms cuz I

78:53

always used to sleep like on his chest.

78:56

Um

78:58

and then after a few seconds he said I'm

78:59

just really claustrophobic and you know,

79:01

I'd like had to put the rails up to stay

79:03

in the bed cuz it was so small I was

79:05

going to fall out and I said it's okay,

79:06

darling. And I think that I think that

79:08

was his way of saying goodbye to me cuz

79:10

he died 2 days after that.

79:17

What's on your mind?

79:18

Um

79:22

just like very sad.

79:28

Um

79:31

I don't want him to get forgotten.

79:37

I've dedicated like my book to him.

79:43

But I I also know because

79:46

we've had this conversation that

79:49

there's something

79:52

there's something there's there's still

79:54

like

79:56

something that I have to do in this life

79:57

which was the reason that I had to stay.

80:03

So

80:05

yeah, I I think

80:07

there's a like a purpose to fulfill that

80:10

that Robin wants me to so that that's

80:12

what I'm going to do.

80:15

How do you think about falling in love

80:17

again? Cuz I

80:19

played out the horrific thought myself

80:20

in my own life of losing my partner and

80:22

and how difficult it would it appears to

80:25

be from this vantage point to

80:27

fall in love again and meet people and

80:29

to to think about those things again.

80:31

Like how would

80:32

How do you think about that?

80:35

Um

80:36

So, I

80:38

actually

80:40

experienced unconditional love, which I

80:42

didn't believe in. So, the first time

80:44

Robin said to me, "I love you

80:45

unconditionally."

80:47

Because I had some baggage from previous

80:49

relationship, I said,

80:51

"Don't say that because I don't think

80:52

that exists."

80:54

And he never said it again.

80:58

But every day for the rest of his life,

81:00

he showed me that it was true. So, at

81:02

some point, I just knew it was true.

81:04

I would say, you know, obviously people

81:07

say things like he would want you to be

81:08

happy.

81:10

And

81:11

you know, I was still wearing my wedding

81:12

rings for over 2 years. And you know,

81:15

even some of his friends said, "You

81:16

don't need to wear them anymore." But I

81:17

said, "I want to." And I wore them for

81:19

as you know, as long as I still needed

81:21

to.

81:22

I

81:27

I'm open to receiving love, but I'm not

81:29

going to go and look for it. Let's put

81:30

it that way.

81:33

Why?

81:36

Um

81:41

I don't know. I mean, it's not really my

81:43

style anyway.

81:45

But

81:46

I think I've been so lucky with what

81:48

I've had that I don't

81:50

I don't

81:53

I'd be okay if I didn't like have

81:55

something like that again. Obviously,

81:59

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82:01

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82:04

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If I'd lost my partner and

84:25

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84:27

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84:28

>> Really? Yeah. What What advice would you

84:30

give me about love?

84:32

I think it's very personal. I think, you

84:33

know, if you

84:35

want to be in a relationship, that's

84:37

absolutely fine.

84:39

Um

84:40

if you're not sure, that's fine, too. I

84:41

think there's different levels of how

84:43

long it would take people.

84:45

I do know that when

84:48

you know, the majority of voices were

84:49

around around me were sort of saying

84:51

like, it's okay for you to do that

84:53

again, but one of my friends who's

84:55

engaged to someone who was a widower,

84:58

he said to me at the time, I'm telling

85:00

you right now, 2 years is not It's not

85:02

long enough. And that felt like a

85:03

relief.

85:05

Um

85:06

so obviously it's almost another 2 years

85:08

now. I, you know, I think I believe that

85:11

if love is meant for you meant for me,

85:13

then it will come to me. So, I'm not I'm

85:15

not

85:17

I'm I'm just calm about it. How are you

85:19

different?

85:21

Like, what are the very material or like

85:23

very obvious ways that you're a

85:24

different person on the other side of

85:25

this?

85:27

Um

85:29

What would your friends say if I said,

85:30

how is Tara different?

85:33

Well, I think they would say that I'm a

85:34

lot more like fragile and vulnerable.

85:37

Cuz that Cuz they're like very, very

85:39

protective of me, still.

85:41

Um

85:43

I know they would I know what they would

85:45

say cuz some of them have said it and I

85:46

didn't really like to hear this at

85:47

first, but they said you're going to be

85:49

able to help so many people.

85:52

You know, the first time someone said

85:53

that, I was like, I've been a doctor,

85:56

I've been a coach, I, you know, my whole

85:59

like personality is about helping

86:00

people. I didn't need my husband to

86:02

suffer horrifically and die so that I

86:03

can help people. But now,

86:06

I do actually feel that I can and I want

86:08

to. And what do you want to help them

86:10

with? And who do you want to help?

86:11

People that are grieving?

86:13

Not just people that are grieving. I

86:15

think

86:16

you know, people that are

86:18

struggling and suffering in different

86:19

ways and people really, really want to

86:22

feel seen and I think that's like an

86:23

important

86:26

place where I would love to

86:28

do something. I think I've got more and

86:30

more curious about

86:32

the idea that I might be wrong about

86:36

subjective reality and how I see things.

86:38

And so I wondered if if there's a

86:41

clearer definition of the subjective

86:43

reality that you see. Like do you do you

86:44

think we are the spirits that inhabit

86:46

our body and then like why? Is there is

86:48

there reason why

86:51

I've come into this body?

86:53

Is there some bigger karmic purpose as

86:55

to why I've I I live?

86:58

This ultimate question of like what is

86:59

the meaning of life? In the world view

87:01

that you have, like what is the point?

87:05

What is the point? Why did I need to

87:06

live?

87:08

I don't know if I can answer that. I'm

87:09

going to I'm just going to say like

87:10

what's coming to my mind.

87:11

>> Okay. Which is

87:14

So

87:16

like you and I

87:17

might never have met in our lives,

87:19

right?

87:19

>> Mhm.

87:21

And for some reason we did.

87:24

And

87:26

we had never met before I did the

87:27

podcast with you last time.

87:31

But people cannot stop talking about

87:33

like the level of chemistry as if we'd

87:34

known each other our whole lives and

87:36

I've always said I felt like I was

87:37

talking to my little brother.

87:40

And then that episode goes on to have

87:42

like the number of views that it does.

87:44

Mhm. I don't believe that that's random

87:46

or a coincidence. I think

87:48

and there's a reason for that and for me

87:52

in a way you were the worst person for

87:53

me to come and do and tell this story to

87:55

you for the first time because you were

87:57

the most skeptical person of all the

87:58

podcast hosts that I can think of that

88:00

I'm going to go on. Mhm. So

88:04

there's obviously some importance to

88:05

that. I can't explain it. I'm I'm not I

88:07

didn't come here with all the answers.

88:08

I'm just

88:10

lucky enough to be someone credible

88:13

qualifications that's had a

88:16

you know, an experience that most people

88:17

don't talk about that

88:19

I can open up for people. That that's I

88:21

would say like

88:23

all that it is. But I want to add

88:25

something else that I'm feeling is

88:26

relevant as well, which is

88:28

because of my friendship group

88:31

and the kind of conversations that we

88:32

have I wasn't allowed by my publisher to

88:36

include personal stories from my

88:38

friends. I had to source stories from

88:40

people I had either never met or only

88:42

met once or were friends of friends.

88:45

So every personal story that you read in

88:47

The Signs, which has the person's real

88:49

name

88:51

and it is written by them and gifted to

88:53

me for this book

88:55

are people that I don't know.

88:57

And

88:59

they're all saying the same thing.

89:01

They see, you know, light disturbances

89:03

when they think of their lost loved one

89:05

or they get unmistakable signs or robins

89:08

visit them.

89:09

Um

89:11

Yeah, I haven't made that stuff up. Like

89:13

there's something to it. I I don't know

89:15

exactly what it is. I I hope I find out

89:17

before I die, but maybe I'll only find

89:19

out after I die. I don't know.

89:21

And is there any meaning to

89:24

all this stuff? It's kind of going back

89:25

to the question I asked earlier because

89:26

you said you think we met for a reason.

89:28

Mhm. And one could hazard a number of

89:31

reasons as to why that was. Maybe it was

89:32

because you're going to go on to help so

89:33

many people and reach so many people

89:34

with an important message, whatever. But

89:36

I don't know, this is my curiosity

89:38

trying to reach a conclusion, which is

89:41

for what for why?

89:43

Like why are humans here? Why why

89:45

doesn't my dog Pablo have or does he

89:47

have the same capabilities of seeing

89:50

signs and communicating with

89:51

>> Oh, he's got more capabilities than you

89:53

in many respects. He I mean

89:55

>> about that in the book, right? You talk

89:57

about pets and animals.

89:59

Okay, let me talk about that a little

90:00

bit. So

90:01

dogs and cats can smell certain diseases

90:05

and um they can smell imminent death.

90:08

So, there's something called hyperosmia,

90:11

which is um, in humans, it's the ability

90:13

to smell more than the normal range. So,

90:16

there's a very famous nurse called Joy,

90:18

I think it's Milner, who smelt her

90:20

husband's Parkinson's disease years

90:22

before he was diagnosed. And her ability

90:25

to smell that disease has caused a new

90:28

swab test to be created that takes

90:30

chemicals from the skin of people to

90:31

predict if they're going to get

90:32

Parkinson's disease.

90:35

So, there are some outliers in humans

90:37

that have, you know, they're called

90:39

super smellers, for example. Like, we're

90:41

not all capable of that, but some people

90:42

are.

90:43

Blind people

90:46

rewire the visual cortex of the brain in

90:49

the occipital lobes here for

90:51

echolocation.

90:52

Humans aren't built for echolocation,

90:55

bats and dolphins are.

90:57

But, people who are blind can use up the

90:59

unused visual cortex

91:01

to um,

91:03

learn how to recognize

91:06

how close objects are to them by how

91:08

long it takes sound to bounce back from

91:10

surfaces.

91:12

So, basically, animals have senses that

91:14

we don't have.

91:16

Some very rare people can have some of

91:18

those senses that animals have that most

91:20

humans don't. We're also capable of

91:22

rewiring some of our

91:25

um, neurons for senses that replace ones

91:27

that we don't have.

91:29

And I'm just going to bring us full

91:31

circle, you know, kind of where we

91:32

started with

91:34

can you suspend your disbelief by

91:37

understanding that there are lots of

91:38

things that we can't prove at the

91:39

moment, but, you know, we sort of

91:42

science is science is

91:44

to on the quest to push boundaries,

91:46

which is that Russell Foster

91:48

suggested that not that the only cells

91:51

on our retinas are not just rods and

91:53

cones, which are for vision, but there

91:55

was a different type of cell that senses

91:58

the passing of time through the

92:00

light-dark cycle, and, you know, that's

92:03

how we create our circadian rhythms. He

92:05

was ridiculed by scientists who said

92:08

we've been studying the eye for 150

92:10

years and you think there's a new type

92:12

of cell that we've missed out in all

92:13

that time and you found it.

92:15

And sure enough, now there are

92:18

identified cells called melanopsin cells

92:21

which blind um rodents

92:25

can still keep to the circadian rhythm

92:27

because they can sense the the changing

92:29

light and dark cycle, but if you put

92:32

opaque contact lenses on them, they

92:34

drift off the circadian rhythm.

92:37

So,

92:38

I I'm not going to be able to give you

92:40

an answer at the end of this podcast,

92:42

but

92:43

maybe that's the beauty of everything

92:45

that we're not at the end of knowing

92:46

everything that we need to know, but

92:48

there's a lot of really interesting big

92:50

question marks.

92:53

Do you think we'll ever

92:55

figure out these answers? Do you think

92:57

science will ever get there? Do you

92:59

think they'll come a day when we make

93:01

discoveries that prove

93:04

that many of the things you that you

93:05

write about in the signs are in fact

93:09

true?

93:10

Like scientifically justifiable,

93:12

repeatable.

93:15

Yeah, I think so, but I don't think

93:16

we'll be here at that point. I'm always

93:18

just fascinated because you know so much

93:20

about neuroscience and the connection of

93:22

not just neuroscience, but spirituality

93:25

and um

93:27

and then also human psychology in

93:29

general. The thing I'm always so

93:31

fascinated about with you is that you're

93:32

able to tell me things that I didn't

93:34

know. Like you said to me last time

93:35

about looking into someone's left eye

93:37

and the fact that sweat leaks through

93:39

the skin and that menstrual cycle sync

93:41

up. And these are all things that are

93:42

like really actionable that have helped

93:44

me to look at life differently, but also

93:46

now I don't think I've looked in

93:47

someone's right eye in the last 2 years.

93:49

Especially when they're like annoyed or

93:50

something, so.

93:51

Is there anything else like that that

93:53

you've become curious about or

93:55

discovered

93:56

or talked about since we last saw each

93:58

other

93:59

that might be pertinent to you now.

94:00

>> Um I think we've discussed it which is

94:01

like noticing beauty. That's been a real

94:03

game changer for me. That's like

94:05

gratitude to the next level.

94:07

And that's an active practice of going

94:09

through life looking for something

94:10

beautiful. Well, it was but then it

94:12

becomes a habit. Yeah, okay. Um and it's

94:14

producing oxytocin just like gratitude

94:16

practice does. So obviously it's kind of

94:18

self-rewarding. Mhm. So then you

94:20

naturally want to do it more and more.

94:22

But I notice I point it out to people

94:23

more as well now which is that I'm

94:25

obviously trying to like

94:27

create a bit of a like crowd effect. Um

94:29

not consciously but I just can't help

94:31

myself. Like if I see something really

94:32

pretty then

94:34

I'll say, "Oh, like you know, did you

94:35

see that?" Um Certain people do that

94:38

often and they do seem to be the

94:39

happiest people. My girlfriend does that

94:41

all the time. She she'll like like stop

94:43

the car because there's a flower that we

94:45

need to go spend 45 seconds looking at

94:47

across the other side of the road.

94:49

>> And to a lot of people it's just a

94:51

flower and we've kind of almost become

94:52

used to seeing flowers.

94:55

>> habituation. Yeah. So even if you walk

94:57

past like an amazing tree or an amazing

94:59

building every day, eventually you'll

95:01

you'll just not notice it cuz you're

95:03

habituated to it. So saliency is

95:06

you know, keeping yourself primed like

95:07

what I call the art of noticing. Mhm.

95:10

And where are you right now in terms of

95:12

your journey of grief?

95:15

I mean, much better is the first thing I

95:17

need to say cuz obviously it's been a

95:18

long and dark time.

95:20

Um

95:23

I know that I know

95:27

I'm not there yet because there is a

95:28

part of me that is

95:32

like afraid to let my light really

95:34

shine.

95:37

Explain that.

95:38

I think I sort of touched on it before

95:40

that if I I feel like if I

95:42

you know, if I like throw myself back

95:44

into my career now cuz I've had quite a

95:45

few years out

95:48

and it becomes really successful that

95:49

there's a level of guilt associated with

95:51

that but

95:53

you know, at least I'm aware of that. Um

95:55

I've had a few conversations with close

95:57

friends about it. I

95:59

have quite a timeline ahead of me

96:00

because of book publication and book

96:02

promo.

96:04

And then like, you know, next things

96:06

that we might do. Um

96:08

So, I think I just need to like keep

96:10

working on that as things unfold. Um

96:15

I know it's wrong, but it's how I feel

96:17

at the moment.

96:19

We meet up again in 10 years' time.

96:21

Obviously, we're going to see each other

96:22

before then, but say we we get together

96:23

in 10 years' time, and this next season

96:25

of your life has been a great success.

96:26

Well, what happened?

96:29

Wow. Um

96:32

I got over myself and like put myself

96:35

out there and like really shone, and it

96:39

actually did really help loads of

96:40

people. Um Look at the smile on your

96:42

face as you say that.

96:46

Yeah.

96:48

I really want to say thank you to you as

96:50

well for everything.

96:53

The feeling is mutual.

96:55

You know, it really is. You you were

96:57

transformative for for this show, and um

97:00

everywhere I go still today people come

97:01

up to me and tell me about how that

97:03

conversation helped them, it inspired

97:04

them in some way, but also helped them

97:06

understand, as you said earlier in this

97:07

conversation, that all that we know

97:10

isn't all that there is to know.

97:12

>> Yeah. And just that, you know, I've

97:14

tried to play a bit of a skeptic

97:15

throughout this conversation. I am

97:16

naturally skeptical, but the other thing

97:18

that's that the from being a podcast to

97:20

the other thing that happens to you is

97:21

you become more open-minded. It's it's

97:24

almost this paradox. You think you're

97:25

going to learn more, but actually

97:26

through the through the conversations

97:28

I've had, I've realized that there's so

97:30

much that I don't know.

97:31

And actually, that's forced me more into

97:34

an agnostic position than I was before.

97:36

And what I mean by that is it's forced

97:38

me into a state where I can't fall into

97:40

the trap of thinking I know things.

97:41

>> Yeah. Yeah. So, this is also why I I I I

97:43

find it hard to commit to any belief,

97:45

like a religious belief or atheism,

97:46

because there's I continually see it

97:48

over and over again, and someone will

97:50

say something to me,

97:52

and I'll be skeptical, and then I'll

97:54

reflect, and then I'll look at the

97:55

research or the science or whatever, and

97:56

I'll change my mind. And if you change

97:58

your mind that many times, you realize

97:59

that

98:00

um your mind should probably not

98:03

be fixed to any position. I love that.

98:05

I'm so glad of you for hearing that.

98:07

That's like an incredible thing for

98:09

people to hear.

98:10

But it's true, and I hope that of my

98:11

audience. You know, I was sat with my

98:13

team a while ago, and I was saying, "Do

98:14

you know what DOAC stands for?" It

98:16

stands for Davids here, I get it. But it

98:17

also stands for people that have that

98:20

are dreamers, that are open-minded,

98:23

which is the O,

98:24

that are in search of increasing their

98:26

awareness, and that could be in

98:27

any

98:28

definition that you want to describe it,

98:30

whether it's awareness of health,

98:31

psychology,

98:32

who they are, and the C is about

98:33

connection. So, that's really like

98:35

hearing your stories makes me feel like

98:38

me, too.

98:39

Mhm. I feel that, too. I'm struggling in

98:41

that way, too. So, that's the framework

98:43

that I think about the show, and that's

98:44

the also why

98:45

I try and remain open-minded to all

98:47

things that I hear, um

98:49

and let people speak. I've never

98:50

actually said that before, but there it

98:51

is, guys. Um

98:53

and I And that's why I'm I'm so

98:55

compelled by this conversation today. Of

98:56

course, like I'm skeptical. Like I think

98:58

skepticism is healthy. Yeah. Um but I'm

99:00

also open-minded, and that means that

99:02

I'm willing to take what you've said to

99:03

me today

99:04

and to investigate it and run the

99:07

experiments in my own life.

99:09

And if I am open-minded, maybe I'll

99:11

receive some evidence for myself.

99:12

>> Yeah.

99:14

So, thank you. Thank you for doing what

99:15

you're doing. And also,

99:17

you know, as you said earlier, it's much

99:19

easier and safer in life just to sit in

99:20

a box of the known. Like, you're not

99:22

going to get any arrows. Yeah. But it's

99:24

when people through history have dared

99:27

to say that maybe

99:29

the earth revolves around the sun, or

99:31

that maybe the earth isn't flat, they've

99:33

taken the arrows, but that's pushed us

99:36

forward as a society into a better way

99:37

of being. So, I always applaud the

99:42

the the those that have the guts to ask

99:45

questions.

99:47

You know?

99:49

So, I hope that's the audience that I've

99:50

cultivated. I hope they're not too

99:52

narrow-minded

99:53

or too fixed. But, I'm sure they will

99:55

debate and share their anecdotes in the

99:57

comment section. I'm actually really

99:58

looking to to I'm really looking forward

100:00

to reading the comment section.

100:01

>> I know. On this particular conversation,

100:03

cuz I know what it's it's going to be

100:04

full of stories and anecdotes and

100:06

experiences, which I think it's going to

100:07

be really enriching. But, I do ask

100:09

everybody in the comment section to be

100:11

um

100:12

open-minded and empathetic and kind.

100:16

Um

100:17

actively.

100:19

Which means replying to people and being

100:20

kind, because, you know,

100:22

grief, no matter what your opinion is on

100:23

it, is um

100:25

is a very delicate thing. And uh

100:28

we're all trying to find ways to be

100:31

more happier and more connected and uh

100:35

to deal with the reality of of our

100:37

experience.

100:38

We have a closing tradition on this

100:39

podcast. The last guest leaves a

100:40

question for the next guest, not knowing

100:41

who they're leaving it for. Okay.

100:43

And the question left for you

100:46

is

100:49

what is the best thing

100:50

that someone has done for you?

100:54

Oh,

100:55

God. You sure you don't make these

100:57

things up?

100:57

>> what it says here. If anyone wants to

100:59

read it, it's what it says in the book.

101:02

It It's got to be

101:04

Robin showing me that unconditional love

101:06

really does exist.

101:12

Tara, thank you.

101:14

Your new book, The Signs,

101:16

beautiful book, by the way. Thank you.

101:18

Beautiful book. The new science of how

101:20

to trust your instincts

101:22

will be out in September. So, if you're

101:24

listening to this in September, then

101:26

it's out. And I'll link it below for

101:28

anyone that wants to have a read of this

101:29

book. Um

101:31

the really truly unique thing about you

101:33

is that you blend all of these different

101:35

perspectives into your

101:38

your own perspective and your own

101:39

writing and your own research. And so,

101:43

in reading this book, it pulls everybody

101:44

in.

101:45

It pulls in, I think, the skeptics. It

101:46

pulls in the believers. And it pulls

101:48

them all into the same room to confront

101:50

a new possible answer to the nature of

101:52

reality

101:53

that might just serve to help so many of

101:55

us. So, I highly recommend everybody

101:56

gives it a read because

101:58

if you're someone that likes to expand

101:59

your mind and think beyond the known,

102:01

then this is this is the book and this

102:02

is the moment in time because of all the

102:04

reasons you said about loneliness and

102:06

individualism and all these things that

102:08

people need to read books like this. So,

102:10

I highly I'm so excited for it to be in

102:11

the world and I'm so excited to hear

102:12

what everybody um everybody thinks and

102:14

how they receive it. So, thank you for

102:15

writing such a wonderful book. And thank

102:16

you for coming back. And

102:18

thank you again for many years ago now

102:20

blessing our show in a profound way that

102:22

pulled in a huge new audience, which has

102:24

set us on a

102:25

on a an incredible journey. So, yeah.

102:26

Thank you, Tara.

102:27

>> you.

102:30

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102:31

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102:57

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Interactive Summary

Dr. Tara Swart, a neuroscientist and psychiatrist, shares her deeply personal journey following the death of her husband, which led her to explore the science of signs, intuition, and the possibility of consciousness existing independently of the body. Throughout the conversation, she challenges mainstream scientific views, discusses the neurobiological underpinnings of grief and trauma, and provides actionable advice on how to cultivate awareness to live a more connected, meaningful life.

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