Here's someone I haven't talked about in

a really long time, but today I saw a

clip of one of their streams recently,

and I fell down the rabbit hole again

just kind of checking up on them to see

what's been going on. Only Use Me Blade.

Only Use Me Blade might have just

triggered like a Winter Soldier moment

in some of you watching this because he

was one of like the first big Call of

Duty YouTubers. He was huge back in the

day in an era where YouTubers weren't

really like a thing that existed. He was

very popular and beloved by the

community, but he unfortunately had a

struggle with alcoholism. And over the

years, that demon only grew. It got

worse. He became a full-time degenerate

streamer doing awful and he grew a

community that was there to eat some

popcorn and point and laugh at the clown

putting on a show of pathetic, terrible

shenanigans. I made a video on him many

years ago now, covering his sad journey

and the awful that he had been

doing during that time. But I hadn't

checked in on him in a while until

today. And somehow

against all known sciences, against God,

he found a rock bottom below rock

bottom. It seems like he is even worse

now than he was then. He went below the

bedrock straight to the Nether.

And it is actually so like sad. And I

really think this can serve as like a

big PSA to to anyone out there about

what alcoholism actually looks like. I

I've been seeing like a lot of those

headlines about how, you know, the new

generation isn't drinking as much.

That's a really good thing. That is a

very positive thing. I swear watching

clips from his stream is like an episode

of Scared Straight. Now, Only Use Me

Blade is not a good guy. Alcoholism

aside, he has done horrible things like

I mentioned. And a lot of it is in

combination with his drinking, but even

still, it's not like that's an excuse

for some of the that he's done.

This includes some really unforgivable

ones like a possible sexual assault.

Now, as I said, he is fully back into

excessive drinking, and he recently

confirmed speculation that he lost his

toes, that his toes needed to be

amputated.

>> Show us the toes. Show us the stump.

Show

>> um Okay. Well, during my the

poetic part about it is yeah, um during

my year off from drinking, um

the I got an infection in my foot and

the

uh years of abuse in my body,

I lost my toes, dude. So,

uh I tried to hide it. Um,

but

still got my foot and uh not proud of

it, dude.

>> Chat asked for a little show and tell,

so he brought up what's left of his foot

and now they call them only lose me

toes.

I also saw some pictures from some of

his older streams that showed the state

that his toes were in prior to the

amputation, and they look like

charred sausages. It actually looks like

Frostbite. And it's from his excessive

drinking. It's called alcoholic

neuropathy. What happens is through this

much consumption of alcohol, it damages

the nerves in the foot. And what

happened here is he probably lost

sensation down there and didn't realize

that something was ary that because

circulation stops, you know, functioning

optimally. And so when he got that

infection, he probably had it for a

while and didn't even know it. And then

by the time he did recognize something

wasn't right, it was too late to save

the toes. Thus, they had to amputate

him. That's how it typically goes as I

understand it when it comes to alcoholic

neuropathy. And this is actually

something a lot of people saw coming.

You didn't need to be Nostradamus nor

Babaanga to predict that he was going to

have something like this at some point

because it was pretty well documented

that his legs were rotting. He had

holes in his legs that looked

like the honeycombs you collect in Banjo

Kazouie. He had soarses all around his

legs. It even had like some necrosis in

some places that look to be starting.

They were in rough shape. So, I don't

think anyone was really surprised to

hear that his toes had to be amputated,

but he did mention that this happened

during the break that he took with the

year of sobriety. So, it turns out he

actually took a pretty extended break

from streaming to be a full-time

caretaker for his mother. So, he is

currently at her retirement home as her

caretaker, but he's also very much back

into excessive drinking

like constantly.

>> Well, give me some death.

>> All right.

>> You're a black person.

>> Look at me.

>> You You assault us. Hawks.

>> There he goes. Seahawks.

>> You didn't

come to D. I don't know if you've been

drinking because I'm a

>> No, I've been drinking a lot. Dude,

>> you say I assault you. Don't come to me

with that

>> There are quite a lot of moments from

these streams where he's just this

wandering vagrant around the retirement

home just harassing the people around

him on stream. Like there's another one

where he's talking to an older lady

about how much she squirts. What's her

squirt ratio? What's your squirt ratio?

>> Like what?

>> Your squirt ratio.

>> You did not say that, did we?

>> I did.

>> Oh,

>> cuz I love you.

>> I love you.

>> And you got a dog and you need you need

to squirt, ma'am. You need to squirt,

ma'am. Fingered out.

>> Yeah, I promise you.

>> Hey, what's up? Free squirt. Get it.

>> Cuz he's trying to put on a performance

for the chat. So, he's, you know,

honking his nose. Bozo the clown here

and he's sloshed, absolutely hammered,

blackout drunk. It's just it's just an

entire life of lowlights. It's really

sad to see, especially

considering that he's supposed to be a

full-time caretaker for his mom, but his

mom is the one that seems to be having

to take care of him, her early 40s son,

who is now just unable to stop getting

blackout drunk and is passing out drunk

on stream and having the cops called as

a wellness check to make sure he's still

alive.

>> Yo,

hey,

Brian.

>> Yeah, I got you.

>> Hey, you good, man?

>> I have seen multiple clips of only use

me blade in that exact position. the

Peter Griffin falling down the stairs

pose there. Even after losing his toes,

he is still drinking to a catastrophic

degree. It's a miracle he is still

alive. Like it is unbelievable with how

much he has abused his body over the

years. And in between,

you know, drinks, he has like some

self-awareness moments about how much he

has destroyed his body and how awful the

alcoholism is. But he can't stop

himself. He He can't help it. That's how

strong the addiction is. I don't think

I've seen a clip with sheets on his bed.

And I imagine it's because he keeps

passing out drunk and pissing in the

sheets. Like no matter how bad things

have gotten for him, he just can't seem

to kick the habit. And that's not

exclusive to just only use me blade.

This is a very real, very evil and

insidious addiction that tons and tons

of people struggle with. Only Use Me

Blade just happens to broadcast all of

it for entertainment and has tied his

drinking to his income to a certain

extent. So like there actually have been

times in the past where he has attempted

to get clean and sober and he's gone

weeks, sometimes even months without

drinking. But each time he has relapsed

and I do think some part of it is

because there are people that watch his

streams that are solely there to giggle

at his misfortune. So they kind of

encourage it. Not everyone. There are a

lot of people that actually try and root

for him to, you know, come out the other

side and actually beat this. But there

are some that are solely there because

they want to watch him completely

torpedo his life and continue to

be in this state. So, like I can find

clips of him, you know, after a couple

weeks and then eventually he just says,

"You know what? I'm gonna have a couple

drinks." And he does it on stream. And

there are people that donate trying to

encourage him to stop. There are people

that reach out telling him like, you

know, "Please don't do this." And then

there's also people in his chat that are

like, "Yeah, yeah. Finally, we're

back. We're so back.

>> It's over tonight."

>> Uh, I'm going to have some drinks, dude.

I appreciate it, but I'm gonna have some

drinks.

>> You're doing so good, man. You are doing

so good.

>> I'm not I'm not making it a habit, dude.

Dude, I'm just going to have some drinks

and relax with chat.

>> You say that, but then you know, next

week you're going to be like, "That's

not making a habit." And you're going to

be right back to dropping end bombs and

getting in trouble again.

>> I do. Hey, man. I do appreciate you,

dude. Uh, thank you. Uh, this definitely

isn't going to be a habit. This is just,

you know, I'm going to have some drinks

tonight.

>> Spoiler alert. It did become a habit

again.

>> There it is, boys.

>> JRock has just donated $5. Love you,

buddy. After this, let's go out and

let's smoke some weed or something. But

Terry, THIS IS LIKE A VERY special

occasion.

>> There donated $3. Dude, please don't do

this. Don't throw away all that work.

Think of how good it felt to have

control in your life, to have your life

back.

>> We are good. Thank you, Terry. I love

you, dude. I'm definitely not doing a

quad, bro. Uh, I'll have a couple shots

for you. Um, but let's do this and go

smoke a sig and figure it out, right?

Like I said, there are a lot of people

really trying to get him not to. And

this has happened a couple times from

what I can tell. But again, there are

still some people in there that

encourage it. And I think to a certain

degree, only use me blade believes that

a large part of his content is drinking,

so it makes it even harder for him to

like fully stop. And he did take an

extended break where apparently he did

stop for a year, but he did come back

and he is now drinking just as much as

he ever did. He even recently got

arrested for urinating in front of

officers that were called to kick him

out of an area where he was just

publicly intoxicated and being a

nuisance. Just a pest that was bothering

everyone out in public.

Nice.

>> Okay, I'm going. Calm down. Your

breakfast ain't good,

The is she talking about?

>> All right. He's under arrest.

>> Oh no.

>> All right.

>> What' you do?

>> He's pissed right in front of me.

>> All right.

>> He can hardly even stand up and he's

bouncing around from person to person

there like a pinball

and just like stumbling around spitting

out mumbo jumbo. not even able to form a

full sentence. He was talking to the

cops for a little while there, too. Then

he came, got the camera, and then pissed

on some stranger's car in front of the

officers, just pulls his out,

pisses on the car, and gets arrested

right there for it. So, he's not

isolated to just the retirement home and

harassing everyone around there. He's

spreading his wings and taking it all

over the place while being able to

hardly stand or speak. And of course, he

still loves to be weird and creepy to

women every chance he gets.

>> L What's your name?

>> M. There's more people out here than

there are inside.

>> Is it okay if I ask you your name?

Sorry.

>> What's up?

>> I'll be the little

person. Hey,

>> I love you person.

>> Love you, too.

>> You're awesome. You should What's your

name?

>> You You cuddle really hard. I'm sorry.

>> With my like cuddle cuddle with my dog.

>> You cuddle your dog. Figure it out. Hey,

my name's Brian. I love you.

>> You girls. Okay.

>> Yeah. I need to take a photo of this.

This is

>> That's a certified. Now, that's what I

call RZ moment right there. Holy

regular old Casanova.

So again, he is blackout drunk here.

He's trying to get this stranger's name.

She doesn't really want to give it to

him. Uh so she she gives like an alias

and then he just keeps saying like,

"Hey, figure it out." And and then says

his name and then says that she cuddles

really hard.

I I guess I guess that's flirting,

I suppose. And then her and her friend

are like very weirded out by it. So they

both start recording. Well, we can see

she starts recording, but the other

person she's with also said that she was

taking a picture or something for the

memories. I imagine they're doing that

just in case things get hairy.

It's for their own safety so they can

videotape the wacko that's

approached them here. It's just a

disaster, man. It's absurd. So

yeah, I I hadn't seen anything from Only

Use Me Blade in a while and I he just

got put back on my radar today and I

couldn't help but just jump down the

rabbit hole to see like what's been

going on over the years with him. Still

not good. And I genuinely think he

showcases what alcoholism really looks

like and just how hard an addiction is

to beat. I it is something very very

serious and it's awful man. It

really is. So anyway, just wanted to

yapp about it. That's it. See you.