Here is the amazing thing, the deep paradox of consciousness.

It is the only thing we truly know.

The only thing we have certain actual firsthand experience

of.

And yet we don’t understand it at all.

We don’t know what it’s made of.

We don’t know how it works.

We don’t know why it exists.

And the closer we look at it, the weirder consciousness

gets.

The more we try to describe it,

the more our language begins to fail.

I find that so delightful that something so close

can remain so mysterious, that such a central question

about the universe is happening inside of us all

of the time.

Now, that’s not to say we haven’t tried to understand

it, or that we haven’t learned a lot from those efforts.

In his new book, "A World Appears: A Journey

Into Consciousness," the science writer

Michael Pollan takes a tour of those efforts,

of those theories, of those experiments,

of those psychedelic trips and meditation retreats,

and he keeps finding himself in stranger and stranger

territory deeper inside the mystery.

So I want to have him on to talk about it.

As always, my email ezrakleinshow@nytimes.com.

Michael Pollan, welcome back to the show.

Thank you.

Good to be back.

So I wanted to begin with an experiment

that you participated in during the reporting

of this book, where you wore a beeper

and tried to record what was going on in your mind

when that beeper went off.

What did you learn from that.

When’s the beeper going to go off?

So the experiment was there’s a psychologist at University

of Nevada, Las Vegas named Russell Hurlburt,

and he’s been sampling inner experience, as he calls it,

for 50 years.

And the way he does it is he equips you with a beeper.

You wear this thing in your ear,

it emits a very sharp beep.

Exactly what it was and when it was.

There’s no reaching for your phone or any doubt about what

you’re dealing with.

And then you’re supposed to write down what you were

thinking at that very moment, and then you collect a day’s

worth of beeps, which could be five or six beeps,

and you never know when it’s going to go off.

It’s got various kind of observer effect problems.

You wonder, God, if the beeper went off now, what would

I have to say.

Oh, that would really be embarrassing.

So you’re there is this self-consciousness,

but you forget about it over the course of the day.

And I was struck by how banal my beeps were.

I mean, I would be like the one I describe in the book is

I’m waiting on line at a bakery and I’m deciding,

should I buy a roll or use the heel of bread I have at home

to make a sandwich for lunch?

This is not profound stuff.

And then he interrogates you about them to try to make

sense of it and help you become a better student

of what’s going on in your own mind.

Because it turns out very often we don’t know what we’re

thinking.

At least I didn’t know what I was thinking.

And he would say, now, did you speak that

or did you hear that spoken?

I was like, I have no idea.

Was it in language or was it in image?

And I said, well, there was sort of an image.

It was kind of very unspecific, kind

of an emoji of a roll.

Not a real roll.

And he’d take you through it.

And it was an incredibly challenging process.

I want to stay on that for a second.

I would say that a lot of thoughts I have,

if you push me there, the feeling of a thought,

I know it’s there, but it’s not spoken.

I’m not looking at lettering on the projector screen

of my brain.

It’s something less than a fully formed thought.

This word "thought" implies a kind of roundedness

to the thing that just doesn’t exist.

And many of our thoughts are these wisps of mentation.

That I love that "gossamer wisps of mentation" is how you

put it in the book Yeah and then also,

many people think in totally uncivilized thoughts,

which I don’t really understand what those would be

if they’re not words and not images.

But his finding after 50 years of this

is that we think in very different ways.

He roasts you at the end of the experiment.

Oh man, you finish this up and he says that you are low

on inner mental experience. Yeah I didn’t know

how to take this.

I mean, we all think we have a lively inner life,

but absence of one?

It never occurred to me that raises a question for me,

which is to what degree was what you were recording

in this experiment different than your perception of how

your mental life feels to you in a day.

Very different.

And so what was the difference and what do you make of it.

I just assumed I had a little more going on

than he thought I had.

But part of the reason he came to that conclusion

is I argued with him a lot.

I found the whole idea of separating thoughts

into these discrete chunks absolutely impossible.

When I was on that bakery waiting in line.

There was the smell of baked goods and cheese.

They sell cheese at this place.

There was the image of this woman in front of me

who had this very loud plaid skirt

on that was kind of hideous.

There was my awareness of the other people there.

Did I recognize anybody?

I often bump into people I know here.

My thoughts were so inter infected by one another.

One thought coloring the next.

And he just kept drilling down until I absolutely

would separate all that.

But I had read a lot of William James at this point.

He’s got this amazing essay on the stream of consciousness,

and he’s an incredibly acute observer of the nuance

and subtlety of our thoughts.

And he talks about things like the unarticulated affinity

between two thoughts, or how one thought colors the next

and then the other, and that it is a stream and you can’t

pull anything out of the stream without completely

disturbing it.

Let’s talk about William James,

because he always ends up the godfather,

the leading source of metaphor in any book like this.

Who is he?

So William James is the father of psychology in America.

He is now regarded more as a philosopher.

And that’s because psychology is so empirical now.

He was really I don’t know if he used this word,

but he acted like wrote like a phenomenologist,

which is to say about the lived experience of thought.

And I first got acquainted with him when I was working

on how to change your mind, because he’d written

the varieties of religious experience,

and there’s a fantastic chapter there on mystical

experience.

And he experimented with drugs himself

to look at these kind of outer reaches of consciousness.

He’s kind of unreadable, yet he’s also a great writer

at the same time.

There’s something about his sentences that are so long

and intricate that he loses a modern reader about 80 percent

of the way to the period, at least me.

But the observations are just so refined

and they put to shame all the scientists working

on consciousness.

I mean, I hate to say that because I respect a lot

of them, but that he’s onto the subtlety of mental

experience.

And they, of course, are reducing it to fairly simple things

like visual perception or qualia,

which is their word for quality

qualities of experience.

He goes so far beyond qualia.

So I had a head full of James when

I was doing this experiment, and it seemed to keep

doing violence to that. I was.

I recognized my thinking more in James than in Hurlbert’s

questions.

One thing I love about James is his precision

in describing how imprecise the stuff of the mind is,

and mind stuff is a word. A phrase of his, yeah,

I want to quote you quoting him here because I love this.

You’re writing.

"The objects of our thoughts can never

be completely disentangled from what James variously

calls their auras, halos, accentuations, associations,

effusions, feeling of tendency,

premonitions, psychic overtones."

And you say, perhaps my favorite "fringe

of unarticulated affinities." Yeah, the fringe.

It’s so beautiful.

But talk to me a bit about that because I do

think that I do a meditation often where you

note what is going on in your attention and your thoughts

and even within thoughts you note.

Did I hear that?

Did I see that?

Did I feel that?

And it always also seems to me to be

doing a kind of violence.

I’ll sink into a dream a little bit.

And what was that exactly.

It wasn’t quite a word.

It wasn’t quite a visual.

All this stuff that you just quoted.

Tell me a little bit about that.

The borderlands of mental experience.

I think it’s just a reminder that our mental life is just

far more intricate, complex, and shadowy than we give it

credit for.

It’s in the nature of reductive science to simplify

things in order to better understand them.

It’d be very weird to start from a Jamesian view

of the stream of consciousness and try to understand that

scientifically.

I feel like one of the central questions of your book,

and one reason I like the topic of consciousness

so much, is that it is the only thing

we have actual experience of.

It is the most familiar thing to us,

and yet actually quite unfamiliar.

And I mean, this is one of the great lessons of meditation

or psychedelics more unfamiliar

the more you attend to it.

Yes, that is really interesting.

I mean, the more I thought about consciousness,

the more elusive the phenomenon becomes.

And meditators get acquainted with this pretty quickly.

You realize pretty quickly that you have thoughts

that you are not thinking.

You have images that you haven't conjured,

where did they come from?

You’re on the verge of sleep or sleepiness and they just

pop into your mind.

And, this idea of thoughts, thinking themselves

is bizarre to most people.

But I just think the poets and novelists

are further along than the scientists as they often are.

And that’s one of the reasons I kind of turned toward

literature year later in the book for a more subtle

understanding of the thought process.

Well, let’s stay with the scientist for a little while.

At least.

One of the things you tried to do in the book

is track their efforts to reduce consciousness

to something measurable, and maybe protohuman nonhuman.

You have a great chapter on plants,

and I guess maybe a place to start with the plants is you

taught me something I didn’t which is you can anesthetize

a plant.

Isn’t that mind blowing?

Can you talk a bit about that experiment

and what it seems to imply?

So there’s a group of scientists, botanists,

and they call themselves plant neurobiologists,

which is a very tendentious thing to say because there are

no neurons involved in plants.

They’re trolling more conventional botanists.

I think I appreciate when people troll each other

in ways that laymen don’t even understand

I was like, oh, that seems fine.

No, it’s fighting words in the field.

O.K, so they’re plant dorks.

Plant dorks.

Absolute plant dorks.

And they do all these experiments

to see how intelligent plants are,

how much they can respond and solve problems.

And they’ve also done experiments to try

to determine if they’re conscious or I would use

the word sentient is more reasonable,

although they will use the word conscious.

Do you want to say the difference in your mind

between those two words?

In my mind, sentience is a kind more

base form, basic form of consciousness.

It’s what perhaps all living things have.

It’s the ability to sense your environment and recognize

what’s the valence.

Is that a positive or negative thing happening?

and then respond appropriately.

Bacteria can do this.

They have chemotaxis.

They can recognize molecules that

are food and molecules that are poison

and act appropriately.

So it’s a very basic form.

Consciousness is how humans do sentience.

And we’ve added lots of bells and whistles the stream

of consciousness self-reflection the fact that

we’re aware that we’re aware other most other creatures are

just aware.

Although we recently learned that chimps have imagination,

which is kind of mind blowing.

How do we learn that?

Experiments they got chimps, as I recall,

to play a kind of tea party game as you would play with

a kid and they’re pouring an empty pitcher into cups they

get completely into the game, and they.

And there’s some reason you can tell that they know it’s

not real.

So they’re imagining this. Every time we build a wall

and say, only humans can do this,

we find that actually no other animals can.

So anesthetized plants.

So one of the experiments these guys did

was take anesthetics that work on humans, including a really

bizarre one called xenon gas.

I say it’s bizarre because xenon gas is inert,

yet somehow it puts us out if you expose us to the gas.

Which is weird because there’s no chemical reaction going on.

And if you take a carnivorous plant or a sensitive plant,

mimosa pudica, which is the one, the tropical plant,

if you touch it, it kind of collapses its leaves

and you give it the xenon gas or any number

of other anesthetics that work on us.

There’ll be a period where they appear to be asleep,

and then they’ll regain their ability.

So the fact that plants have two states of being

is a very pregnant idea.

And there’s this at least two states of being at least two

states.

Two that we’ve identified on and off, right.

Lights on, lights off.

That to some implies consciousness.

There’s the famous definition of Thomas Nagel,

who wrote this great essay called "What Is It Like to Be

a Bat?"

And his test for consciousness is

if it is like anything to be a creature, that creature then

is conscious.

So it is like one thing when the plants are awake and it is

like something else when they’re not,

or it’s no longer like anything.

But the switch in state is very much like consciousness.

Let me hold you on that, because as I understand

the Thomas Nagel essay, it’s that it is like something

to the organism.

Yes it’s internal.

And so you could imagine a situation

where a world in which it is not like anything

for the plant to be awake.

You give actually an example related to this in the book,

where you say when you plug a toaster in Yeah,

you threw me off Yeah toast with it.

But when you plug it out, we don’t think it is like

something different or unlike something for the toaster

to be turned off.

I don’t think it’s like anything for it to be

a toaster.

In so in either state, the fact that something has

response to stimuli doesn’t necessarily imply it has

a subjective experience.

That’s true.

The difference between plants and toasters is complicated.

But living things have a sense of purpose.

They have directionality.

They have good and bad.

Any kind of things like that we give to a thermostat

is really just us giving those qualities to the thermostat.

The thermostat doesn’t care on its own,

whether it’s 70 degrees or 65 degrees.

So I don’t think it’s proof of consciousness,

but it’s really spooky and interesting that plants can.

And this researcher in question, his name

is Stefano Mancuso.

He’s an Italian researcher at the University of Florence.

He’s also shown how plants sleep.

They’re like characteristics that mark a creature’s ability

to sleep, which we thought only belonged to higher

mammals, I guess.

Or no birds.

Birds sleep too.

But we didn’t think really simple creatures slept.

It turns out even insects sleep.

And Giulio Tononi is the scientist

who came up with the criteria for sleep and plants meet

I think all of them, which is interesting.

And some.

And some take that as evidence of consciousness.

You’re a gardener. Yeah. Do you think you’re causing plants

pain by pruning them?

So you’re bringing up the issue that immediately comes

to mind when you start hearing about plant consciousness,

which is, are we hurting them? When we mow the lawn,

is that beautiful scent of freshly mown grass,

the scream Yeah the scream suffering?

And that’ll make you crazy.

A great way to put it.

But if you say it’ll make you crazy.

But I actually people know we’re causing pain to cows

and pigs and chickens and just don’t think about it.

Exactly so it turns out it does not make human beings

crazy to cause mass pain to living things on an industrial

scale. Yeah although there’s all this worry about this

in Silicon Valley that our tender hearts should go out

to these machines that might be conscious.

And we owe moral consideration to the machines.

Anyway, I think here’s my suspicion about that because I

do think it is possible we’re going to make sentient

machines, machines that have some experience of what it is

like to be a machine.

And I think that you will find there’s a lot of concern about

that until the moment it turns out to be against anybody’s

interest to act.

You would have to do anything about it.

And also, they love the conversation about the far

future or near far future of whether it’s boomer or doomer

view, because it’s a great way not to deal with what’s right

in front of us.

One of the things that has struck me,

and it’s a theme of your book is our ability as human beings

to wall off our experience from that of everything else

in the world.

I forget the great philosopher you’re quoting here,

but there is one of them who just doesn’t believe animals

can feel pain, sees them as functionally robotic.

Well, Descartes.

Descartes

And that is in part helping to justify vivisections

of live animals and rabbits.

And it’s just like I have two dogs.

I’ve been around some rabbits.

The idea that you would believe those animals

are not feeling pain, it actually

raises a pretty profound for me

question about human consciousness and our ability

to interpret what we are seeing around what we would

like it to be, as opposed to what

it is Yeah that and the power of an idea.

I mean, he developed this idea that humans had this monopoly

on consciousness.

I think, therefore I am.

In other words, the thing I know is that I’m a conscious

being and nobody else has it.

No other creature has it.

And he was so convinced of his own idea

that when these animals screamed

sounds that we would have no trouble interpreting

as suffering.

He didn’t hear it as suffering,

he just thought it was automatic noise.

And it is hard to believe.

And it’s true.

I mean, it tells you something about the power of an idea

to overcome our feelings, our instincts.

But we do this all the time.

And he was so wrong about this.

It’s not funny, but we see things through an ideological

lens, and it shapes what we actually see and hear.

And it changed the sound of those

screams to him to into meaninglessness.

So then what about plants.

Are we causing mass suffering to plants? Yeah,

and I talked to Stefano Mancuso

about this and some other researchers.

Some one in particular believes yes, we

are causing pain to plants.

And his take was but hey, that’s just life.

If we don’t eat plants, we’re down to salt, basically.

If you give up on animals and plants.

Mancuso doesn’t think so.

He thinks pain would not be adaptive to a creature that

can’t run away.

And the big fact about plants, of course, is they’re sessile,

they’re stuck in place, they’re rooted,

and that dictates everything about them.

And it’s the reason why they’re the language in which

they work is biochemical.

They produce chemicals to protect themselves,

to intoxicate, to attract all different kinds of things.

So he says, they’re aware that they’re being eaten.

They often don’t mind.

The grasses actually benefit from being eaten.

And then of course, there are all the fruits

and nuts that they’re happy to give away to mammals.

So I don’t know where I come out on that.

I don’t think my plants, when I prune them, I mean,

they like being pruned they respond with more growth

and new leaves.

And so I’m not too worried about that.

There are a lot of things I go through that make me grow that

I don’t like.

I would say it’s been a consistent experience

of my life.

Well, it’s a short term, long term thing.

Perhaps when you cut them with the secateurs

that bothers them, but they respond

in a really constructive way.

There is also another, more complex way plants are

operating on this book, which is that some of this book is

motivated by experiences you’ve had with psychedelic

mushrooms.

Which are not exactly plants, but O.K, Fine.

You’ll get letters.

I’m just saving you the trouble.

And you have an experience there

that I have heard from many others, which

is a kind of openness to animism.

Yes that may not have been there before. Yeah,

that’s a very common experience on psychedelics.

The world seems much more alive

than it does in normal times.

Animism is very interesting because it’s kind

of our default as a species.

You go around the world, you look at traditional cultures.

They believe that there’s a spirit infusing,

especially living things, but also rocks and cliffs and sky

and clouds and everything.

And most kids are animists till they go to school.

And then we knock it out of them.

So it’s interesting that we exist in this unanimous bubble

of Western scientific materialism.

But you, you push in any direction or travel

in any direction or have a psychedelic experience

and suddenly questions are raised about it.

And I think that’s what’s interesting about what these

plant neurobiologists are doing.

They're returning us to if it’s not full scale animism,

it’s reanimated world.

And I did come out of this experience

not the psychedelic experience, but the research

experience of looking at plant consciousness or plant

sentience with a sense that the world

is more alive than I thought.

I was just weighing whether or not

I want to ask you this question, but I think I do.

Go for it.

So something I have noticed from psychedelic circles,

which I’m much less plugged into than you are,

is people who work with plant psychedelics over long periods

of time tend to find themselves or believe

themselves into, as working with plant or spiritual

intelligences.

People who do mushrooms or iboga or ayahuasca.

There’s a sense of there being something on the other side

in a way that artificial psychedelics, ketamine, LSD.

People do not leave believing there’s an LSD spirit

on the other end of the phone Yeah and just as somebody

who’s one of your previous books was on psychedelics

and doing this book, that the reason I think people get

pushed towards animism isn’t necessarily the more narrow

question of what happens when you anesthetize a plant,

but people are having some kind of experience there where

they feel there are plant intelligences communicating

to them.

Oh yeah.

Especially on ayahuasca, especially

on ayahuasca, which is a plant based.

It’s two plants.

It’s a brew of two plants.

And if you ask most ayahuasqueros

How did you, how did anyone ever figure out

the recipe.

Because it’s so obscure that these two plants cooked

together would have this effect,

and neither by themselves has any effect or much of any

effect.

And they’ll tell you, the plants taught me,

and they will mean it.

And we don’t know through the lens of Western science,

how to listen to that.

It sounds ridiculous to us.

I mean, if I came out anywhere on this whole book,

it’s like my mind is much more open than it was to a lot

of weird stuff, just because the normal stuff hasn’t really

panned out that well.

So it’s true.

Now, why would the plant based psychedelics

be more likely to do this than the chemistry based

psychedelics.

I think it’s set and setting.

Timothy Leary’s great contribution was explaining

that the psychedelic experience is shaped

profoundly by the physical setting in which it takes

place and the mindset, the mental setting that you bring

to it. When you’re using a plant based, psychedelic you.

I mean, the imagery is all jungle imagery.

People see leopards and they see vines.

And do you think that’s because set and setting?

or because of something in the.

I think it’s set and setting.

So you don’t buy the shamans who tell you we were told this

by the plants?

No, but there’s 5 percent of me that was like,

O.K, maybe. I’m kind of I’ve entered this never say never

realm with this research.

So certainly the mainstream interpretation

of what consciousness is that as life becomes more complex,

as unlike plants were moving around,

that you have an escalating complexity

in conscious experience in order to achieve goals

in the world.

That consciousness is being created

through evolutionary pressure.

It’s adaptive.

It’s adaptive. Yeah one thing you do is go through a couple

of the ideas of what it could be adaptive towards Yeah tell

me some of them.

So I’m going to back up a little bit to make sense

of this idea.

One of the big questions is your brain,

at least 90 percent of what it’s doing you’re not aware

of.

It’s doing all this work monitoring your body,

maintaining homeostasis.

Perceiving things in your environment

without you being consciously aware of it.

Peripheral vision, smell, scent, touch all these kind of things.

So the question then becomes why does any of it,

if this automatic machine is such,

is so good at what it does, why does any of it

become conscious?

That’s part of the hard problem of consciousness.

Why aren’t we just zombies?

Wouldn’t that have been simpler?

And the reasons and to some extent,

these are evolutionary just so stories.

But they’re persuasive that basically you can automate

things until you get to a level of complexity.

And for us, it’s our social lives,

the fact that we are fundamentally social beings,

absolutely dependent on other people with a long period

of complete dependence for babies and children compared

to other species, we need to.

Social life cannot be automated.

It’s just too complex.

So you need to be able to anticipate what I’m likely

to say, how a remark is going to land.

We call it theory of mind, this idea

that we can imagine our way into other people, basis

of compassion and things like that.

So once we entered this realm of great complexity,

automating our responses just wasn’t going to work.

And the creatures that had consciousness that could

imagine what was going on in another human’s head did

better than people who didn’t, and failed to imagine what was

going on in someone else’s head.

I find that a pretty persuasive theory.

I guess one question it raises is you look

at a baby or a one-year-old.

They are very, very socially dependent.

And I think they are clearly having

a very intense experience of consciousness, justice a more

intense one than I have.

My consciousness is much better at filtering out

information than theirs is.

You have spotlight consciousness.

I have spotlight consciousness.

So I’m curious to hear you talk a bit about that

because on the one hand, it feels like that idea would

imply consciousness becomes richer as you become more goal

directed, but I think it’s quite clear that it becomes

narrowed as you become more goal directed Yeah,

I think you could make a case that young children are more

conscious than we are.

I think it’s almost inarguable.

And yeah.

Which is a kind of interesting thing that we prune

consciousness down the way we’re pruning so many things

in the brain as we age.

But this idea of lantern versus spotlight

consciousness I found very powerful.

I learned it from Alison Gopnik,

who’s a child psychologist, developmental psychologist

at Berkeley, and she gave me a lot of good advice as I was

embarking on this.

The first was, don’t never forget that the kinds

of people working on these questions about consciousness

are not typical in their consciousness.

These are people who can sit-in a chair for a really

long time, read books for a really long time,

think out problems.

They have an extreme version of spotlight consciousness,

which she calls professor consciousness,

so that was very helpful.

She contrasts this with children’s consciousness,

which she calls lantern consciousness.

So instead of having that one degree of attention focused

on some object, they’re taking in information from all 360

degrees.

It seems very undisciplined, very unfocused.

You find it when kids get to school.

Some kids can sit there and do it,

and a lot of kids can’t because they’re still taking

in information from all these sides.

It allows them.

It’s interesting.

It allows them to solve problems that adults can’t

solve.

They think outside the box.

They have more divergent thinking.

And then as time goes on, we narrow our focus.

It allows us to get a lot done to put on our shoes

in a semi efficient manner in our podcasts

and but it involves putting these blinders on.

So there’s a trade off.

And one of the things psychedelics

do and Allison made this point to me

also is return us to lantern consciousness.

And, she said in an interview with me and to other people,

when she first tried LSD, which wasn’t until I think her

60s, she realized, oh, this is how the kids are thinking.

They’re tripping all the time.

And she said, just have tea with a four-year-old

and you’ll see.

And there’s a lot of truth to that.

I think I want to get at another theory of what

consciousness is for, which is I think the language

in the book is consciousness is felt uncertainty Yeah isn’t

that beautiful.

That is very beautiful.

Although in practice I find it very unpleasant.

But it.

What does that mean?

So the phrase comes from a scientist

named Mark Solms, who is a neuroscientist

and a psychoanalyst in South Africa.

And he’s written a really interesting book called

"The Hidden Spring"

And his theory is that consciousness arises when you

can’t automate things.

And in this case, he’s talking about the fact that you might

have two competing needs.

Let’s say you’re hungry and you’re tired and you have

to decide which to privilege.

And that takes decision making.

And what consciousness does is open up this space

to resolve uncertainty.

So if everything was predictable in the world

and you could be certain when this happens,

that happens, and you had a kind of neat algorithm

to deal with contingencies.

You don’t need it.

But a lot of life presents us with uncertainty,

and that’s when consciousness arises.

I think I’ve thought about this part of the book more

than any other, and I think that’s in part because the way

my mind works, and I’m not sure how generalizable this

is.

My thoughts attract to uncertainty in my life.

I just ruminate and ruminate and ruminate over

whatever I am typically most emotionally uncertain about.

Not always, by the way, the most useful

forms of uncertainty.

There are other unsolved problems.

It would be better if my mind was interested in thinking

about but I get it.

So on the one hand, this idea that there is something,

at the very least, that is attracting

the spotlight of my attention to uncertainty feels true.

But I also have a couple of questions and problems

with it.

One is that it doesn’t seem like what we’re talking here

about is exactly consciousness.

I mean, what you were just saying about the child

or about the adult on psychedelics,

they are not attracted to uncertainty in the same way.

The experience of psychedelic consciousness expansion

is, in many ways, I think, less

of the experience of felt uncertainty.

It’s a very good point.

It becomes much more about experience,

whereas uncertainty, at least in the way I experience it

in my consciousness, tends to be a much more spotlighted,

much less experiential, it’s a distraction from experience

Yeah I think that’s right.

I haven’t really thought about that much.

I think that one of my takeaways

is that we have to be kind of pluralists of consciousness,

that there are many different kinds.

And that psychedelic consciousness

should be counted as one of them,

or the mystical forms of consciousness

that James talks about.

And then there’s everyday consciousness and spotlight

consciousness and that.

So I think we all have a toolkit to some extent.

And we experience, I mean, the kind of consciousness

you experience as a meditator is

very different than the kind you do at work.

Or when writing, I mean, writing is a great example.

That’s a very peculiar form of consciousness.

So the other thing I was thinking about with this

was consciousness is felt. Uncertainty

felt where because I think we think of consciousness

as a thing happening in our minds,

something I think actually that has come out

of my meditation for me.

But then I loved seeing how much of it,

there was in your book is recognizing how much is

happening in the body Yeah, I think that’s my biggest

discovery.

As someone who lives in his head

most of the time, how important having a body

is to being conscious.

We really think of the head as we identify with our heads

more than our bodies.

Maybe because our eyes are there.

I don’t know.

But consciousness probably arises with feelings first.

It starts with things like hunger

and itchiness this and only later

becomes as it enters, gets filtered into the cortex,

becomes the kind of complicated thinking

that we pride ourselves on.

I think that feelings are based in the body.

Finally, it’s how the body talks to the brain.

And we have to remember this very simple fact, which

is the brain exists to keep the body alive,

not the other way around.

We’re not just a support system for this amazing three

pounds of tofu in our heads.

And once you realize that realize that the body is

the message is coming from the body

are really important to the brain.

And these feelings are the beginning

of conscious experience.

And if you didn’t have them, it’s questionable whether you

would have consciousness.

There’s no doubt.

I think that the experience of consciousness

is some kind of interplay between both, oath.

I feel uncertainty in my solar plexus.

I think about things I’m uncertain.

Around in my brain.

Exactly and where do you experience disgust.

Like moral disgust.

It’s in your belly.

You have a great experiment in the book about ginger.

People giving ginger.

Could you describe that? Yeah this

is a very cool experiment.

They gave people ginger before exposing them

to some morally distasteful event or something, or image.

And the people who had the ginger

were less disgusted because their stomachs were settled.

So our feeling of moral disgust is kind of channeled

through our gut, which is such a weird idea,

but that’s probably true of a lot of feelings,

and that it has enormous implications for this

discussion about A.I., whether it can be conscious

because feelings are not just signals,

they’re not just bits of information.

They contain information.

You’re getting a lot of information from a feeling,

but it.

That’s the residue of the feeling.

There’s something more somatic about it,

and it’s very hard to imagine how computers could get

to that.

And feelings have no weight if you don’t have

a vulnerability, if you don’t have the ability to suffer

and perhaps be mortal otherwise a feeling is just

more information.

And we know feelings are a lot more than that to us.

I want to describe an experience I just had.

While we were doing that, I wrote a note to myself to come

back to this part of the conversation later,

to maybe clip it out because I think it’s particularly good.

One thing I find I need to do during these podcasts

is pay very close attention to my body,

because what happened there is not that I had a thought.

This is good.

Come back later.

What happened there is that my skin got pricklier

and I noticed like a heightened sensitivity.

And that was an alert to my mind

to start paying attention.

Well, what am I trying to pay attention to.

I see this all the time in the podcast.

My body has reactions to things that are going on,

and then my mind has to interpret

why that is happening. Yeah and the body is smarter

about things.

And, the mind which created the questions document I

walked in here with is but it’s such a strange experience

that something just happened in my chest and my hands that

told me my body thinks this part of the conversation was

good, and to put it into my brain so I could write

a little note to come back to it later.

William James writes about this.

So you have feelings, emotions and thoughts.

And emotions are more the physical manifestation

of feelings.

I can tell your emotions.

I can’t tell your feelings.

Those are internal.

He said basically, they start in the body.

Anger starts with a racing heart or something like that.

And then the brain interprets why

did the heart start racing?

Why did blood pressure go up?

Maybe it’s fear.

So the brain is constantly interpreting the messages it’s

getting from the body, and the body is feeling on its own,

reacting to its environment in a million different ways.

And it totally changes how you think about consciousness

and the potential of automating

this or the potential of digitizing it.

If feelings are that if feelings come first.

And I just think that feelings bear more thought in that

where do they come from.

Why are they.

How can they be simulated?

Feelings and bodies bear more thought.

Yes, this is something embodiment.

That consciousness is an embodied phenomenon and that

the head, the brain in a vat right meme just know it just

doesn’t work.

Ditto the downloading of consciousness onto a machine.

The dream of the transhumanists.

You’re not going to have a body.

How’s that going to work?

I think if somebody was to go out

into self-improvement podcast world or school or anything

and their fundamental question was,

how do I get smarter, how am I more

intelligent, that the answer you basically get

has to do with training your mind,

studying, reading more, journaling in the morning,

whatever it might be.

And there’s actually very, very little about deepening

the connection between your mind and your body.

As I have gotten older and as my work has become more

creative, I think I’ve come to think it’s a huge mistake,

that a huge amount of just what I have had to get better

at over the years is paying attention to my body such that

then my mind can do something with these signals that are

not always easily interpretable,

but have some intelligence that I don’t feel like I am

in control of Yeah and we misinterpret them.

I mean, think about you’ve got young kids when they’re

hungry, they will misinterpret that as frustration or anger

and you realize, oh, they just need to eat and then they’ll

be fine.

So we do go through a process of learning how to interpret

what our body is telling us.

But it’s true.

As adults, where do you go to learn that.

I mean, meditation a little bit,

doing body scans and things like that I’ve done meditation

practices where the focus is very much on the body

and what’s going on in every different part of the body.

But I think we would be wiser if we learned how to do this

and paid better attention to our bodies.

And I also think I mean, in a way,

this is the lesson of Antonio Damasio’s first book in 1994,

"Descartes' Error," it was called,

and he was basically showing that feelings and emotions

should be admitted into the decision making process,

and he proved that people who couldn’t experience emotion

or feelings made worse decisions than people who

could and that there was a kind of a gut check.

We have all these gut, we have all these words for the gut

and thought.

And there’s some kind of buried deep in the language

as this understanding that our gut has something important

to tell us about a decision.

And so he kind of rehabilitated

feelings and emotions in the whole science of the brain.

But basically, we’ve been drumming feelings and emotion

out of our understanding of the brain for hundreds

of years.

And, I don’t know why.

I mean, it just this idea of the pinnacle

of human consciousness is the cortex

or the kinds of people who do this research are just

really out of touch with their bodies.

I like that as a hypothesis.

I’ll be hearing from some of them.

Well fair enough.

I want to pick up on something you said in there

about the sequencing, about how feelings often

precede thoughts.

There’s a great piece of research you bring up that is

research done on meditators who are asked to note when

they are interrupted in their meditation by a thought.

Can you describe that study?

Sure so this scientist, Kalina Christoff Hadjiilieva,

a psychologist, her field is spontaneous thought,

which I hadn’t thought about that as a field.

And that includes things like daydreams and mind wandering

and creative thinking and flow and to try to understand this,

she’s very interested in the question of how things get

from our unconscious into our conscious awareness,

because we know there’s a lot going on below the threshold

of awareness.

So she works with trained meditators,

people who have 10,000 hours experience meditating,

puts them in an fMRI, gives them a button to press as soon

as a thought intrudes.

Because even if you’re an experienced meditator,

it’s going to happen, she says.

It happens every tens for everybody, she said.

The great lesson of meditation is the mind cannot be

controlled.

It’s very, very freeing to people trying.

What was interesting about this

is that when people press the button,

she would look back at when something popped out,

when there was activity in the hippocampus, which

is the source of memories and other stuff as well.

But she was watching that as a source of a thought,

and it took four seconds between the fMRI showing

activity in the hippocampus and the person

being aware of that thought.

So what is happening.

Four seconds in the brain.

Time is like an eon.

What is happening for a thought to transit

from the unconscious to the conscious?

And why does it take so long?

And she doesn’t know.

I’m sorry I can’t pay this off.

But one of the theories is called

global neuronal workspace theory

that there are thoughts competing with one another

for access to our conscious awareness.

And they’re this Darwinian process and only the most

salient ever gets into the workspace.

And then broadcast to the whole brain.

The problem with this theory is there’s a lot of trivial

stuff that somehow gets through, at least in my case.

I think there’s a lot of traffic going back and forth.

And that’s something also that you happen not just during

meditation but during psychedelic experiences.

There’s lots of unconscious material that comes up.

I actually find this to be a problem with meditation

for me, which is that there’s a lot of meditation that is

about open awareness or trying to watch things happen.

Non-judgmentally yeah, but the very act of having awareness

is very clearly changing what is happening in my brain.

So the more awareness I have, the more my brain feels

slightly or my mind feels somewhat controlled,

and the less awareness I have, the more I’m going to get

these little wisps of meditation.

So there’s a meditation teacher I really like whose

meditations are on YouTube named Michael Taaffe.

And his attitude is like, look,

the machinery of the mind is going to go on, but just

put it down the way you put down your phone

and just let it do its thing.

You can just ignore it.

And I find that very helpful.

And I have this sense of a little buzzing going

on in this corner of thoughts that I’m not paying attention

to.

But as Kalina shows it’s very hard to control this material

and things are going to bubble up and they’re interesting.

Well, I guess one of my deep and fundamental questions

about being a human being is why

I attend to what I attend to.

If I could go and talk to the algorithm in my mind,

in the way that increasingly you can go tell a clod how

it is you want Claude to act.

I would change the algorithm.

I would worry less about interpersonal conflict

in my life.

I would spend a lot less time thinking about whether or not

people are mad at me.

But there is some process by which

I hate the term global workspace

theory as a description of what is going on in the mind.

It’s so bloodless and built on personal computers in 1998.

Productivity ideas Yeah, but that idea

that things are competing and somehow

or another, some part of my mind

is running some kind of process

to decide what comes into the spotlight of attention.

And if it’s really shocking, there’s a car accident next

to me or a Yeah, there are shortcuts Yeah like all

of a sudden, it’ll move me there entirely.

But moment to moment there’s some kind of competition

and what comes up.

I can be aware of it, but the more aware

I am of it, the less in control that I feel,

which is one of the great and slightly terrifying lessons

of meditation.

And so that question of the unconscious doesn’t seem mild

to me.

That is, the factory producing thoughts comes from.

And then something is deciding what

to put in the front shelves.

So you’re thinking about it in terms of an algorithm

and and a mass of data.

And different things could get pulled into it into it.

And that’s not a bad metaphor.

I mean, we don’t know exactly how it works.

There is still this question of if the workspace idea is

true, everything we think should be of some consequence.

And we all know that’s not true.

And so why do things that are completely trivial or banal

enter our consciousness.

Freud would say we’re suppressing more important

things, but there is clearly a way that the mind learns what

to think about over time.

So to use the example of my kids, it is quite clear to me

that my children do not spend any time

during the day thinking about things they

have to do in the future.

They might think it’s about things they want to do

in the future, but they’re never I think it’s been

a while since my last pediatrician appointment.

I might need some shots Yeah.

You leave me with my mind alone for much time at all.

And a to do list begins bubbling through it.

It’s very, very persistent.

I mean, I meditate with paper near me to just get things out

of there and onto the paper so I don’t keep thinking about

them.

Somewhere along the way, I went

from being a kid who is pretty present in his life

and thought more.

I think about things I wanted to think about or and became

somebody whose mind has bent towards productivity Yeah,

not the only thing that happens in my mind,

but it is clearly a favored topic Yeah

and it makes you successful.

I mean, there are standards by which.

Well, that makes sense.

So how should it.

So what I would say about that is you brought up

something a minute ago where you said,

well, the problem with this theory is that why does

so much triviality emerge.

But I mean, couldn’t you just say.

Well, it is overapplied rules.

Like, my biggest complaint about my mind

is I think too much about relational stress.

But you grow up, you have a family,

you’re very dependent on caregivers.

It’s very easy to imagine how a mind would bend towards

really.

I was bullied in school.

You being out of joint in relationships

can really harm you.

So it’s not unclear to me how my mind might have overlearned

the rule scan for relational threat at all times.

And so I’m curious about that learning like something is

happening over time.

That is not the same in all people.

It’s dependent on life experience.

People who grew up in times of famine tend to store more food

when they’re older.

There’s something happening.

And also and that pleasure is not driving this.

I mean, it’s success.

It’s you are learning algorithms that we’re going

to use that computer metaphor that are even though it

doesn’t feel good, are promoting the kind of behavior

that’s going to solve problems and keep everybody happy,

maintain the peace, all these kind of things.

So our minds are invested in our success, not our pleasure.

I mean, one of the things, I talked a lot about how

psychedelics inspired this book, but meditation did too,

because as soon as you stop to examine what’s going

on in your mind, which many people don’t do,

but now tens of millions of people do,

especially since the pandemic, there are a lot more

meditators than there were, is how strange our minds are

and how little volition is involved,

and that we think we’re calling the shots as conscious

human beings.

But to a remarkable extent, we’re not.

And where that material is coming from,

we can call it the unconscious.

We don’t.

We don’t really know.

But it’s a less.

It’s just much less.

It’s just defamiliarized.

I mean, you’re just estranged from your own mental processes

and this whole idea that great meditation exercise,

will look in your brain for who’s thinking those thoughts,

who’s feeling those feelings, and you won’t find anybody.

Talk to me about a state of mind

that has come up briefly in our conversation already

that I think is between unconscious and goal directed,

which is the wandering mind.

I think we have come to diminish its role.

Oh, yeah, I think so.

So what is it and what do we know about it.

Well, the wandering mind exactly is just what’s

happening when you’re bored.

That’s the precondition, in a way, for a wandering mind.

It’s like I’ve got nothing to do.

There’s no task here.

I’m just killing time, and suddenly we’re off

and daydreaming or mind wandering.

There are very similar things.

I forget how clean it distinguishes them.

But she does.

She thinks it’s a really important part of life that we

haven’t studied because it’s not productive,

and that all the work in psychology goes

into productive areas of thought.

I think that’s changing now.

You have people studying and emotions

that are not necessarily productive but are

is very useful.

So she just thinks this is a space of creativity

and that a lot of creative thinking

comes out of mind wandering and daydreaming.

And it’s something novelists do all the time.

I mean, they get pretty good at daydreaming and she says,

we’ve lost this.

The space of our interiority for this kind of thinking

is diminished because of our distractions,

our technological distractions.

I want to challenge not that she believes this,

but this idea that it’s a non-productive form of I think

it.

Oh, I think it is very productive.

It’s just how are you.

How are you defining productivity?

I would say the biggest barrier for me

and productivity, true productivity,

which is the ability to do better with the same amount

of resources that you already have is that I don’t spend

enough time with my mind wandering. Yeah and it is

routine that the absolutely most creatively important

times I will spend.

I thought I was taking a break Yeah, I thought

I was doing something else.

I was taking a walk.

I wasn’t just driving my mind further into the ground,

flicking through web pages when I was already too tired

to absorb information.

Then all of a sudden I’ll have the insight or I’ll realize

where I should call this person.

And I don’t know where it comes from,

but it’s those moments of insight, epiphany,

creative leap that comes into my spotlight that

the spotlight gets in the way because of those blinders.

And I think when you’re daydreaming or mind wandering,

the blinders are kind of opened up and you’re taking

in information from more places.

No, she argues that it’s just the belief that this is

unproductive thought because nobody wants mind wandering

workers.

The capitalists want us to be, spotlight consciousness.

And she gave the example she gave is like, right now,

my job is to grade blue-book exams,

and that’s what I should be doing.

But my real life project is making sense of my life

and having a fulfilling life.

And I would be better off taking

a walk or mind wandering.

So there’s a tension.

There’s a tension there between what the economy

considers productive thought and what emotionally is

productive thought or creativity now,

or what the economy should consider productive thought.

If it were smarter.

It just you can’t quantify the hour to hour level.

One of the most interesting mind states for me is a mind

state I functionally only have when I am reading something

on paper without screen distractions around me,

which is it becomes my mind becomes highly associational,

and I’ll be reading and then I’ll look up and I’ll have

ideas.

They’re often not about the book at all.

It’s like the book itself is a scaffolding of a certain kind

of attention.

But I’m aware and I’m awake, and so I’m noticing other

things.

It is by far my most creative state.

Do you have a pencil or a pen in your hand? Yeah, yeah.

And it is achieved more easily on airplanes than anywhere

else because then you really don’t have distractions.

But it can happen at a coffee shop.

But it won’t happen if I’m looking at a screen.

And so it’s made me think about how if we wanted humans

to be more productive, more creative, more.

I think a lot of our received beliefs about this

are really wrong.

We’d want to put people more in touch with their bodies.

We’d want to teach them how to find the states of open

association and mind wandering.

You want to put yourself in the way of inspiration more

often, because it’s not controllable in the way we

wish it were.

Completely agree.

Kalina edited this book, "The Oxford Companion

to Spontaneous Thought", and there

is a history of spontaneous thought

that looked at how incredibly creative people, composers,

novelists, how they spent their days

and they only work like four or five hours.

They spend a lot of time in unstructured,

wandering, walking.

And we all know there’s a connection between creative

thinking and walking.

You’re much more likely to break through if you’re stuck

in your writing or whatever else you’re doing.

If you get up from the desk and take a walk

instead of just like worrying that problem.

So there, I mean, yeah, we could reorganize our lives

in a way.

But the one thing we do know is how our phones,

our social media are bringing down that viewpoint,

keeping us from looking up, keeping us from making

associations because there’s no time for association.

You’re just scrolling and something else comes

in and you’re getting another little hit.

And so we’ve shrunken that space and it is a space

of creativity.

And there’s no reason we can’t reclaim it,

but we have a lot of trouble doing it because algorithms

are really sophisticated and they know how our minds work.

When are you most creative?

Walking I would say it’s where I walk a lot.

I work, I walk in the Berkeley Hills and although even then

I have to say, half the time I fill my head.

I have my AirPods on.

I’m listening to a novel or a podcast,

listening to you when I could be.

Let’s not be too hasty in diminishing the importance

of informational input here Yeah, no, it is important.

But anyway.

And I have to remember to take out the AirPods and listen

to what’s going on.

And we haven’t talked about time in nature,

but that’s I think, a very hygienic space

for consciousness is being off of all media, of all kinds.

As the book evolves, you start widening

to less and less goal oriented theories of consciousness.

And one thing that is happening throughout the book

that you’re very attentive to is, first,

the number of scientists of consciousness,

scientists of the mind who are now dabbling in various forms

of psychedelics Yeah, that was a surprise to me.

And two.

Well, you’ve part of the reason it’s happening,

so it shouldn’t be that surprising.

Well, there’s and there’s a selection bias.

People know they can talk to me about their trips. Yeah it’s

quite a role you’ve created for yourself in public life,

and to the way that is upending their theories

of consciousness.

I mean, you have a number of scientists who come in and out

through the book who are saying, well,

I thought this and then I had this experience,

and I think it’s really interesting,

the felt experience of truth on something that people who

up until that moment would only accept what they could

prove and were reducing everything to the provable

Yeah like they know they ingested a chemical.

And yet what that felt like was.

So they’re not willing to dismiss.

And so authoritative Yeah and you’re alluding to Christof

Koch, who is a very prominent consciousness researcher.

He was there at the beginning when he and Francis Crick

began on this quest to understand consciousness

in the late 80s, early 90s.

And he’s an exemplary scientist in that he’s changed

his mind in profound ways several times.

That doesn’t.

I find that doesn’t usually happen among scientists.

The saying that science changes one funeral at a time.

Not in his case.

He went to Brazil and had an ayahuasca, a series

of ayahuasca experiences.

Now, this is the prototypical brain guy, right.

He ran the Allen Brain Institute in Seattle.

He’s been messing around with neurons and electrodes

for years and years and years, and assumed that the source

of consciousness was going to be in the brain.

He has this experience of mind at large.

This is a term that comes from Aldous Huxley

in the doors of perception, that consciousness

was outside of his brain.

And I challenged him on it and I said, well,

there’s a drug experience.

And he would not take that as disproof or even reason

for skepticism.

And he used as an example, a famous thought experiment.

You have this brilliant woman who is the world’s expert

on color, up on vision and she knows everything there is

to know about cones and rods and how the whole system

works.

But she lives in a completely black and white world.

She steps out one day and has the experience of color.

What has she learned.

What has been added to her stock of knowledge.

And he said, I was like Mary.

And I had had this vision.

And who.

And nobody could convince me when I went back in the box

of scientific materialism that it hadn’t happened.

It had happened.

It was as sure as I have been of anything in my life.

And now he’s exploring idealism.

What is idealism?

Idealism is the philosophy that consciousness

is a universal field, and that consciousness precedes matter.

We automatically assume that matter is primary.

Everything can be reduced to matter and energy,

and they can be reduced to each other.

Idealism is no, no, no.

You got to start with consciousness.

Matter comes second.

The argument for it is or the argument against materialism

is that as we’ve been saying, the thing,

there’s nothing with more certainty than consciousness.

It’s the thing, directly.

Everything else is inferred you see through consciousness.

So why is it that we privilege the thing we infer

rather than the thing we know?

Why do we privilege matter as the ultimate source

of everything?

I was like, now, maybe a smarter person than me knows

there’s a logical fallacy there, I don’t know.

I don’t see where it is.

So the idealism theory is related to this idea.

You bring it up in the book.

I think you’re the first person who I’d ever heard

about this from.

The mind may be like an antenna Yeah, or a radio

receiver or a radio receiver.

It’s not generating the consciousness.

It is receiving some kind of signal

and then interpreting it.

And in the same way that if you break a TV,

it’s not going to work.

It’s not going to work.

But that doesn’t mean the waves that it was absorbing

are gone Yeah and you won’t.

You shouldn’t look in the TV set for the weatherman.

I mean, and that’s kind of what we’re doing,

but it’s channeling this information from the universe

and that that’s why the brain is involved in a critical way.

And if you damage the brain, you

damage consciousness or anesthetize the brain

or whatever.

But it’s involved in a different way.

And the evidence kind of works the same either way,

whether you say the brain generates consciousness

or channels consciousness.

It’s hard to make a case that one is better than the other.

We just assume that the generating consciousness

is how it works.

And we just kind of stipulate this.

The term scientists use is that the brain,

that consciousness is an emergent property

of the brain, which sounds really scientific.

But if you press, it’s just abracadabra.

It really.

It doesn’t really explain anything.

What is the difference between idealism and panpsychism?

Panpsychism is the idea that every little bit,

every particle has a quantum of consciousness, of psyche.

And that in the same way, 200 years ago,

we added electromagnetism to the stock

of what reality consists of material reality

consists of we should add psyche.

It’s another thing.

So in a way, it’s a new materialism or it’s

materialism was something added to it.

It’s a big price to pay for your theory that you’re adding

something completely new to the stock of reality,

but it solves the problem of where consciousness comes

from.

It comes from everywhere.

It’s just it was already here.

So these ideas are they I mean,

when I first learned about them,

I thought, these are crazy.

But then you realize that the materialism is kind of hit

a wall with consciousness studies and that there is this

gap that we can’t seem to cross from a very good theory

like workspace theory to well, wait a minute.

When you say you’re broadcasting to the whole

brain, who’s receiving that broadcast?

And then you have other people saying,

well, consciousness is just an illusion,

but an illusion is a conscious experience.

So what about the subject?

And that’s where everybody starts waving their hands.

What level of plausibility do you assigned to that? To what?

I guess either, but I think I’m thinking of a more novel

brain as radio receiver.

I have to say, I don’t know.

It’s weird to spend five years on a book and come

to an answer like that.

But as I said at one point, this is a book where you may

know less at the end than you do at the beginning,

but you’ll know a lot of other things.

It’s a very fun tour.

I told you at the beginning of this I’d give you my theory

of the book tour.

Towards the end of our conversation, when we sat down

around how to change your mind, your book

on psychedelics, I told you that I

thought that was a book about the mind posing

as a book about psychedelics.

And I think this is a book about psychedelics posing

as a book about the mind because

and not to do violence to it.

Both were actually about their subject.

But it is striking to me how often in this book it’s not

just Koch

There’s the scientist who is building, I think,

a robot trying to make consciousness, and then does,

I think 5-MeO-DMT and realizes everything is love.

There’s your mushrooms.

There’s a lot of people who note offhandedly that they

are.

There seems to be something here that it has caused

a larger ontological shock than I

think, a stylized description of well,

you ingested a chemical.

Of course you had a chemical experience would naturally.

It’s a totally unsatisfying explanation Yeah, well,

I think that the interest in psychedelics is partly

an interest in taking back our consciousness and exploring

it, because one of the things that happens,

the day you do a psychedelic is not a day.

You’re looking at your phone.

It’s a day that you’ve put a fence around if you’re doing

it right and not just walking around the streets

of Manhattan tripping, but you’re doing it with some

intention, and you reclaim your mind for a period

of time, and you explore it.

And this idea of expanding consciousness.

There’s a line in Aldous Huxley that I’ve always really

liked.

He believed in this transmission theory

of consciousness, which he got from Henri Bergson, who really

was the person who first put that forward.

Was that in normal times, our brains

admit only the trickle of consciousness.

We need to get through the day to be productive,

to do what we need to do.

But there’s so much more.

And what he said psychedelics did

is open what he called the reducing valve so that more

consciousness got in.

What was that consciousness to him, it was the mind at large.

But I find it’s also sensory information.

Bodily information.

I mean, sometimes trips are incredibly somatic and they’re

all about the body and other times they’re about visual

material.

But it’s ours.

It’s mine.

Although some people go to a divine place about it.

And so I’m just out there starting to talk about

consciousness.

And I’m like, I’m curious that people are so interested

in consciousness.

Like, I didn’t expect this when I started on this book

Really Yeah.

No, I didn’t, and it seemed a very academic topic.

And I think two things have changed that.

One is the fact that I think we

feel our consciousnesses are just full of bullshit

right now.

And there’s so much stuff we don’t want to be thinking

about that we’re thinking about.

And you take phones away from kids,

and they’re actually grateful.

Even once they get over the shock of living without

a phone for a day or while they’re in school,

because our consciousness is under pressure from everyday

life, capitalism and the need to succeed financially.

We happen to have a president who

intrudes on our consciousness for a lot more of the day

than any of us have had experience

before with previous presidents.

So I think there’s some desire to get back to some more

sovereignty around our consciousness.

And psychedelics are part of that, too.

And there is also that is I say in the book where we’re

entering a Copernican moment of possible redefinition

of what it means to be human.

On the one hand, we have all these animals and even

plants that turn out to be conscious.

What we used to think was our special thing.

And on the other side, we have these machines

that are going to be smarter than we are.

And some people think they’ll be conscious,

but whether they can or not, we’re going to think they’re

conscious and act on that basis.

Which raises all sorts of problems.

So who are we exactly if we’re not the smartest,

most conscious being?

And are we more like the animals

who can feel and die and suffer,

or are we more like the thinking machines who

speak our language.

You talk about consciousness as a reducing valve,

as a filtering mechanism of sensory experience.

And we’ve talked a little bit about the wider,

more lantern like consciousness of children,

whom we.

I wonder how different the experience

of being conscious in advanced modernity

with a smartphone and a task list,

and we are really training ourselves to narrow down

to be successful in the economy.

We have structured and much of the Western,

not only Western world at this point,

we have altered what it means to be human.

And I wonder how much you’ve made the experience

of consciousness increasingly unsatisfying by can overtrain

any muscle.

And what we are doing staring in a narrowed way

at a computer.

I mean, there’s all this great neuroscience on networks

between wide gaze and narrow gaze,

which I really feel when I look out over a mountain

range.

And when I look at my phone, you

can feel we have narrowed how it feels to be human being.

We have.

But it’s not too late.

I mean, tell me about your consciousness, sovereignty,

ideas as you’re moving in here into consciousness hygiene.

Well, I’ve thought a lot about how can we protect this space

and one of the things I’ve been talking a lot about

protecting our consciousness and what a precious space

of interiority we have.

And it’s this place of mental freedom.

But I realized for some people going there,

it doesn’t feel good that these are people who ruminate

a lot.

And I’m prone to a lot of rumination,

which is very circular thinking,

often not productive.

It keeps you focused on something,

but not in a way that’s making progress.

Usually it’s a spiral.

Maybe so, but also realizing you

can take some control over your consciousness

and that we need to do more to defend it.

And meditation is one great way and as challenging

as it can be.

You feel like, here’s my mind, I’m with my mind.

It might be painful.

It might not be.

But no one is telling me what to think.

I’m not.

We spend so much time thinking the thoughts of other people,

the rants of other people and the obsessions

of other people.

Meditation is, I think, a really interesting way

to put a fence around your consciousness.

You put down your phone, you still have a pad

because you’re just trying to get rid of those to do things.

But when it’s working really well,

there’s great pleasure in watching the show go

by and the things I wasn’t expecting to think about

suddenly and imagery and all this kind of stuff.

I do have an internal life, contrary to what

that guy said.

So sure you do.

Michael, we believe you for sure.

You’re not just a zombie here.

No Something you said a minute ago pinged for me,

which is often people actually don’t like being put in a room

with their consciousness.

There’s a famous old quote I don’t have the speaker

in memory, but it says huge amount of the world’s problems

come from man’s inability to sit-in a room by himself. Yeah,

I remember I was in a period of meditation a couple

of years back, and I was trying to meditate a lot

because a lot was happening in my life.

And I felt like I was just getting more and more upset.

And I remember talking to Will Kabat-Zinn,

who’s a great meditation teacher in the Bay Area who we

both know.

And he said to me something I’ve never forgotten.

He said, oh, so you’re not enjoying the process

of insight.

And I actually think this is part of actually

a lot of things to say.

Nothing of our president, who I think is cannot sit-in

a room alone with himself, cannot sit-in a room alone

with himself, I think without a constant distraction and ego

reinforcement actually speaks to a complicated relationship

he has with his own consciousness.

It is sometimes actually quite hard to be there by yourself.

And when you make space for it and I

mean people go on meditative retreat often

have very difficult times.

It can be, and I think usually is very profound

and but you are often going through struggle.

One of the great lies about meditation is that it’s

peaceful.

In fact, it’s often very agitating Yeah,

it’s much more peaceful to distract yourself.

Or peaceful may not be the word I’m looking for there,

but we distract ourselves away from the internal agitation.

We spend a lot of time anesthetizing ourselves,

and there’s a kind of boredom that I think is generative

that we don’t experience anymore because we have all

these amazing ways to fill that space.

But that space was productive in its unproductive way.

And we’ve given that up.

So that’s a space of consciousness too,

that we could easily reclaim.

I think psychedelics are one way to take control

of your consciousness.

I mean, that’s probably not the right verb because there’s

so much that’s uncontrolled, but it’s all you.

And I think that’s one of the reasons that there’s so much

interest in it right now.

You’re blocking out a lot during a psychedelic

experience as you go inside.

So those are the kind of things

I think we need to think in terms of hygiene

for this great gift we have.

And what does hygiene mean here.

Hygiene towards what.

Keep it from being polluted.

Keep it clean.

Keep it, keep it.

Keep your consciousness from letting others dictate

its contents basically.

Is that a question of consciousness or of attention.

Well, they’re very closely related.

And I think attention not the same.

They’re not.

Well, I think attention is a subset of consciousness.

So attention is part of it.

Attachment is another part of it though.

Attachment yeah.

Emotional attachments.

That’s a big part of consciousness too.

And that’s now having won our attention.

Now the companies are now going for our attachments

with chatbots.

I’ve just met people who are increasingly working

on attentional liberation movements,

the friends of attention being a good example of this.

It just came out with a new book.

And I’ve met people creating schools on this.

And there isn’t an interesting way burbling around a kind

of sense that a attentional freedom is an increasingly

political and structural question.

I think we see it fairly clearly with our kids,

but I think we know it with ourselves, too,

and it’s very hard to think about how to create a coherent

politics around it and activism around it.

And also nothing is more fundamental,

including to how politics works than what kind

of attention you’re cultivating in a society Yeah,

absolutely.

Attention is a collective resources I think is an under

is a underplayed frame for this attention is

a collective capacity that is being exhausted

by people like Trump.

By certain ways, the media and algorithmic media works,

and a society with a more irritable, distracted,

and diminished capacity for attention is going to be

politically different than a society with a healthier form

of oh, it’s going to be easier to manipulate.

Definitely it’s going to be angrier.

It’s going to be angrier.

I mean, the more we allow these kind

of intrusions on our consciousness or exploitation

of our attention.

I mean, I think they’re very similar things.

The less it’s a space of freedom and you give up

the space of freedom and you’re thinking other people’s

thoughts and you’re much more vulnerable to manipulation.

And if you really nurture your own mind and your own sense

of consciousness, you’re much less likely to fall for lies.

You’re much more likely to think independently.

How? you know.

How do you think independently when you’re scrolling?

You react, but you’re not setting the agenda.

You’re letting an algorithm set the agenda.

I think we’re vulnerable to the kind of politics that

you’re talking about.

But it is the nature of capitalism

to intrude on more and more of our lives, more

and more of our time.

There was an interview with the president of Netflix who

was explaining, in regard to competition over

an acquisition or something like,

we’re not competing with other streaming services.

We’re competing with your dream time Yeah,

this is Reed Hastings years ago,

who said our primary competitor is sleep Yeah,

yeah.

It’s one the more dystopic things I’ve heard a CEO say.

I know it really is.

And they are competing with the part of our consciousness

that wants to think its own thoughts.

Because there’s more money to be made if we think

their thoughts.

I particularly loved the coda, the final chapter.

You go spend time with Joan Halifax.

A great teacher, Zen teacher.

And she has a line in there that coming

as it does at the end of this very heady book,

she says that she has divested herself from all meaning. Yeah

and you go to talk to her, and she basically

sends you to a cave and puts off talking to you.

Tell me a bit about that experience, and also

what you took from that extremely zen form

of teaching that you.

Well, exactly that you were gifted Yeah I mean,

it was kind of an experiential koan.

I mean I’m not going to.

I should have known she’s zen teacher,

that she would be allergic to concepts and interpretation

and everything I wanted to do.

It was like, duh.

So I wanted to see her.

I had met her once or twice before.

I had a lot of admiration for her.

We’d been on a panel together because she had a lot

of experience with psychedelics.

She was married to Stan Groff and administered huge doses

of LSD to the dying back in the 70s.

It’s such a wild project.

I know it really is, although many people have

been helped by this.

I mean, it’s one of the better applications of psychedelics,

I think, is helping people with terminal cancer.

But anyway, I was working on the self chapter at the time

and there’s this Buddhist idea that the self is an illusion,

which I’ve struggled with in various ways.

I understand how it’s true, but yet self seems to be still

working in my life and I wanted to talk to her about

that.

And she had described her retreat center,

which is called Upaya.

It’s in Santa Fe as a factory for the deconstruction

of selves.

It’s like, oh, that sounds interesting.

I should go get deconstructed.

And so that’s why I went and I got there and I spent a couple

days with adepts and the monks and but then she said,

I think we should go up to the retreat.

And she said, we’ll go up there and you’ll stay

in the cave.

And I’m the cave.

That’s like, not my kind of thing.

I’m not a camper.

And she said, don’t worry, it’s a five star cave.

So we get there and then after this 25 mile dirt road,

and then there’s another half mile hike out to the cave,

and there’s no electricity and there’s no running water.

And she somebody dug into this hillside, these caves,

and with a glass door on one side overlooking this meadow.

And there I was for the next three or four days,

and she kept ducking my interviews.

And at one point, she said, I’ve divested a meaning.

I was like, oh, shit, this is not

good for the journalist conducting interviews.

But she wanted me to have an experience instead.

And I did, and it was really profound a meditation retreat

that you were describing.

It is almost a psychedelic experience.

When you’re alone with yourself and the borders

of self attenuate, they become more porous.

You realize the extent to which our identity as selves

is a social identity, and it’s reinforced by everybody we

talk to because they’re treating us like a self.

So we must be a self.

But if you’re absolutely alone in the middle of nowhere

and you have no access to media, it softens.

And then I was meditating for hours at a time,

and it was very interesting because life

became like a meditation.

In fact, I had more profound meditations,

doing chores chopping wood and sweeping out my little cave

than I did when I was sitting on the platform.

And it was a really profound experience.

And it shifted my thinking about consciousness

in this way.

I had gotten caught in this frame, very Western, very

male of problem, solution, hard problem of consciousness,

solution.

And I had trained my attention.

I had narrowed, right.

I had a focus on that question for five years

of really struggling to understand this.

And I suddenly realized, well, there is the problem

of attention, but there’s also the fact of it,

and the fact of it is so marvelous and so astonishing

and mysterious.

And why aren’t I paying more attention to that?

Why aren’t I being more present?

One night, I woke up in the middle of the night

to go out to pee.

And there is.

It’s a new moon, and there’s no light pollution at all.

And the stars.

This vault of stars is more numerous and more gorgeous

than it’s ever been.

But it’s not out there.

It’s reaching all the way down to me here that we occupy

the same space, the same intergalactic blanket.

And it was such all my kind of learned ways

of looking at the starry sky.

We all have these predictions.

The brain is a prediction machine.

All the concepts and the frames just went away.

And it was just kind of like me stars space.

And this is not such an unusual experience,

but it made me, it shifted my thinking

from solving a problem to being within a.

You talked earlier about the way

this book has a quality of you read it and maybe less,

but it adds wonder.

And it made me think as I was going through different

theories, integrated information processing

or whatever it’s called Yeah how sad I’d be if any of them

were true.

If you could prove to me that global workspace theory was

the truth of consciousness, if you could prove to me

consciousness evolved.

And all the things I think are a byproduct

of an evolutionary process for reducing uncertainty,

I would hate it.

Well, it’s funny.

This is a lesson I learned not just from Joan,

but from my wife, who’s an artist, Judith.

And she was lecturing me about not knowing has its own power.

And of course, it is a zen idea to cultivate the don’t

know mind.

And she’s right.

It does have a power.

And that not knowing opens you in a way

that knowing closes you down.

And that we’re very frustrated with not knowing.

But it is the state.

It is our existential predicament

about many, many things and getting comfortable with it.

I mean, it was a long way to go

for me to get comfortable with it,

but getting comfortable with it.

Yes, more or more wonder in the face of mystery.

I think that’s a place to end.

Always our final question what are three books you would

recommend to the audience.

Three books for you.

Well, a book that was really influential

in the writing of this book is a book called "The Blind Spot"

It’s by a philosopher, Evan Thompson, and two physicists,

Adam Frank and Marcelo Gleiser.

It’s a critique of Western science,

and it makes a very powerful case that the blind spot

of the physical sciences is inability to deal with lived

experience.

And so for science, read is a certain frequency and read

to them is an illusion because it’s constructed in the brain,

but they’re pointing out that humans who experience red

as a fact of nature any other fact of nature,

and you got to deal with it.

So how does science deal with lived experience.

It’s a fantastic book.

Another book that was really influential

as I was working on the stream of consciousness

is a stream-of-consciousness novel by Lucy Ellmann

called "Ducks, Newburyport"

It’s 1,000 pages, one sentence.

And that sounds I know that sounds really daunting and I’m

not going to pick that up.

You can open it anywhere you want, read

10 pages, you can listen to the audiobook,

you can fall asleep, pick it up again.

It’s still there.

It’s like this pool you can enter.

And it’s all the thoughts of this middle class,

middle aged woman who lives in Ohio,

who has a home baking business.

And it’s everything going on in her head,

including scrolling on her phone.

But you have to infer that because there’s no orient,

nothing to orient you.

But anyway, it’s great fun and really funny and a brilliant

book.

Lastly, there was a book about conscience.