I started cycling again last year in

June. At the time, I had it all planned

out in my head. I will challenge myself

to ride every single day for 30 days.

Well, that lasted 4 days before I lost

momentum.

>> This is day three? No. Day four.

>> Then, 2 days later

>> I was trying to do a strict 30-day

challenge, but we broke the streak.

>> I told myself, "It's okay. Don't be so

hard on yourself."

>> We don't need to be so hard on

ourselves. We do not need to do that,

okay?

>> Just keep riding. It's not a

competition. Just try to enjoy the

process. So, here and there, I would get

on my bike, and I loved it every single

time.

So, I made a new rule.

Just go cycling. Stop focusing on the

numbers. Have you heard the quote that

goes, "Paint like no one's watching?"

Well, I thought I should cycle like no

one is watching. Stop thinking that

every workout needs to be recorded, and

that every week needs a new

breakthrough. I don't know. Maybe one

day those numbers will matter, but as a

beginner, this is why I burn out. It's

like I'm rushing myself to succeed at

something I just started. So, this past

year, I've been cycling, and most of the

time, I don't document it. I just do it

like no one is watching. I have no one's

approval this to but myself. But, on

second thought, I don't even need to

prove it to myself. Not everything needs

to be so deep, and not every hobby needs

to lead to something. Some things you

just do because you simply enjoy it.

Over the next 2 weeks, life was pretty

ordinary. I got a new camera, so I was

playing around with it, and these are

the first videos I took to check out the

quality and which settings to use.

One, I shot a video for his channel,

which will be up very soon, but here's a

snippet of that day.

>> Happy Thursday.

>> Happy Thursday.

>> What a nice Thursday.

>> Your unemployed friend on a Thursday.

>> It's not a bad deal coming here because

it's free admission. You just have to

pay for parking. Parking is a little

expensive. It is $25

if you come before 3:00 p.m., but if you

come after 3:00 p.m., it is $15.

>> Which is actually a better deal cuz even

though it's cheaper

>> Mhm.

>> and it's later, but you get to have the

chance of the sunset.

>> Okay, sushi time.

>> Sushi time.

>> Sushi time.

So, I see people online talking about

2016 like it's a trend and it got me

looking back to 2016. Something about

2016 was just amazing. This was

pre-pandemic. Social media was just

starting to really pick up and we were

getting exposed to a lot of new

information and that newness was really

fun. At least for myself, 2016 was a

really pivotal big year because Wa and I

spontaneously decided to move back to LA

and it was one of the best decisions

ever. Let me just pull photos from 2016.

First of all, can we look at this look?

I had these really thick bangs that I

probably would never get again.

I didn't know what to do with it. It was

super full. Oh my gosh, my apartment.

This was November of 2016. This was my

loft in downtown. If you ever get an

opportunity like that to live in the

same building or next door to your best

friend, just do it. 2016 needs to be

studied. I had a purple moment with my

hair.

>> Yeah, I don't know about that one.

>> have not already downloaded FaceApp, I

think this is a great way to test out a

new hairstyle, a new makeup look, or how

you would look with bangs, or maybe a

perm. I thought this would be fun. I'm

going to open FaceApp and use a picture

Well, actually, let's not use this

picture. Let's do my makeup like how I

would do it back in 2016 cuz I'm going

to add some lashes, okay? This is how I

would typically do my makeup today, but

back in 2016, it was more of this vibe.

Go big or go home with the lashes. I for

sure went ham on the eyebrows, okay? The

eyebrows were square and blocky. They

were dark. Okay, maybe not that dark. It

was like right about there. Let's try

the hair color. I had like the purple

hair, so let's just try that. Oh, girl.

Okay, I would say that was roughly how I

would do my makeup back in 2016. This is

my everyday. It's a much more toned-down

no-makeup makeup. What do we prefer?

Let's see how I would look with a

different hairstyle. In 2016, I did have

the straight-across bangs.

What if I had a bob?

Whoa. Uh uh no. The bangs are kind of

cute. What do we think? You can scan

this QR code here on the screen or check

the link below to get 1 week free of the

pro version. I have not curled my own

eyelashes in so long. Having short

lashes is not easy, okay?

That did nothing.

Hold on.

These lashes. It is not easy for people

with short lashes, okay?

I lost three lashes. This is why I was

getting the lash extensions.

Oh my gosh, I just lost like four more

lashes.

I'm going to try these cluster lashes.

Here they are. Does anyone remember when

I came out with a collab with Elf

Cosmetics? And it was my own set of

lashes. I remember I used to say to

everyone like, "Oh, this is a natural

glam set for the everyday." Those were

far from natural. They were super

dramatic, but at the time I truly

thought that was such a natural glam

look. I still have those lashes. Let me

grab them.

Look at how dramatic those are. I

thought this was the perfect everyday

lash. And I remember I received a few

comments where people told me like no

that's not natural and I'm like what?

What are you talking about girl? Like

this is so natural. It's like perfect

for everyday.

This is taking a lot longer

than I would like but they're cute.

This is very inefficient.

>> Hi Nawi.

>> Um

Oh gosh.

They look so cute. I love them.

I think with practice I'm going to get

it down and could do it much faster but

that took quite a bit but I love it.

They look so cute and natural.

>> I love it.

>> This was my first apartment when I moved

out and it was my big girl apartment and

I felt so independent.

It was especially fun during that time

because where I grew up was a very small

town so there really wasn't much around

especially not a lot of Asian food. You

would eat at like Olive Garden or like

Red Lobster. There wasn't anything

unique especially when it came to Asian

food. Every weekend I remember the

theater would be packed. It would be so

much traffic even trying to get into the

parking lot and it was just so fun. I

really enjoyed living here.

We are trying to make ourselves a matcha

mango latte and that looks pretty

promising. A matcha latte with a cream

top situation. How much would that be if

we went out? Probably like at least

eight. Trying to save money and make

some at home.

>> That is also fun. Just hanging together.

>> Well, you can't really hear the mango on

your side.

>> Mhm, mangoy.

>> Okay.

Could have used more mangoes.

>> It's good though.

>> Mhm.

>> It's good.

>> Next time just more mango puree,

less water in the mangoes. Today is a

cycling day. I am finally going to put

my seat height where it's supposed to be

today. So, for many months now I've been

riding with a very low seat height. It

just feels sketchy to me. Nay. I know in

order for me to improve, I have to be

able to have that full range of leg

motion. Why did I put on my shoes? I

forgot to grab my watch. So, I adjusted

my seat height today. It's a lot higher

than what I'm used to, so I am scared,

which is why I'm wearing long sleeve

head to toe,

just in case.

Last night I stayed up until 1:00 a.m.

watching all sorts of videos on how to

improve as a beginner cyclist. And one

of the first things I saw was that you

have to get that full range of motion.

>> I like the

>> Did you check these drawers?

>> Mhm.

>> My tires?

>> I'll go check.

>> Do you see it? The colors are cute

today. Here she is.

I believe my sunglasses are in here. I

had the seat right about here, so where

like my hip dips. And apparently you're

supposed to have it right about here.

So, yeah. We're going to give that a try

today. I am scared.

The mic is not connected for some

reason.

Let's see.

Is it turned on?

>> How does it feel?

>> It feels okay.

Feels better than before.

Okay, mic is on. It is not too bad, not

too bad. Getting on and off was actually

a bit easier than I expected. Getting

off is harder than getting on,

surprisingly. I thought that mounting on

was going to be harder. Woo, my cardio

legit sucks.

But, it's okay. That's what we are

practicing for. I can't keep talking.

I do feel having the full range of

motion in my legs

is nice.

I'm still getting used to it. Oh my god.

But, I'm feeling the burn in different

areas that I didn't feel before.

The tip of my saddle is kind of poking

in my crotch a bit more than I would

like. I don't know how to fix that. I've

tried fixing it, but no luck with that.

Wall has the electric bike today. So,

he's just cruising and having a great

time. Okay, see, get getting off always

scares me.

Oh, I love when there's just a bit of

downhill. You know what I have a bad

habit of doing?

Ah, that was a stop. Overextending my

elbows. I need to soften them. I also

probably shouldn't ride at rush hour

when everyone's getting off of work and

there's a ton of cars on the road. Okay.

We're at another stop. Okay, I'm getting

off. We're getting off.

It actually does feel so much better.

I'm so glad I moved the seat up.

I feel like I'm using my whole body

more. Like before, it felt like I was

just using my legs, but now I feel like

I'm using my core.

Yay!

I'm so glad I did it. It only took me

like 6 months

to get over that fear.

I'm so tired, though.

But, we all start somewhere. So, I've

had asthma since I was a kid, and so

I would never really do cardio or

anything like that. So, yeah, starting

all over right now in my 30s,

it's hard. I'm not going to lie. That

was barely

a bit of incline.

That's how

weak my cardio is. Even sometimes when

I'm having a conversation and if I laugh

too hard, I would have an asthma attack.

So, yeah, I want to get better.

Thank you.

Do you wish you were on your regular

bike?

>> I think this is nice.

>> It's nice, huh?

>> Yeah.

It's a lot more chill. My mouth is so

dry.

>> Me, too.

Earlier, I tried to get my water bottle

and I'm not used to how far away the

water bottle is. I was kind of I was

kind of freaking out for a moment. I'm

climbing this hill right now

and usually this would really hurt my

hip flexors, but I'm feeling it all in

my abs and my calves.

Oh my god.

This hill is killing me.

One day I'm going to look back to this

footage and be so proud of myself.

Oh my gosh, you know what I would really

like right now? Riding to get In-N-Out.

That would actually be great. Oh my

gosh, hey, there's no queue. But no,

we should eat at home. We have a pizza

at home.

>> Pizza and fries?

>> Okay.

So, when I wanted to get into cycling

again, I was looking between getting a

road bike or a gravel bike. And

ultimately I chose a gravel bike because

I eventually want to try bike packing,

but I know I still have a long way to

go. I mean, for one, I actually need to

learn how to change my tubes. Walt done

it for me and I don't know why, but like

changing the tubes on this bike is much

harder than his bike. Like his just

slipped right out, but this one we

really had to force it.

A fly just went in my eye.

But yeah, there's so much prep that I

need to do. I need to learn how to

change the tubes. I need to know how to

do regular bike maintenance on my own.

So, I think maybe joining a club of some

sort It be nice. I want to go on a bike

packing trip. I have been averaging like

14 miles per hour, sometimes even 15.

But today with the new seat height, I

got 1 mile per hour faster.

It is the little wins, y'all.

Yay.

Oh.

>> Well, you didn't even say

I thought it should.

>> This girl.

Hello.

Leave it. No barking.

Don't do it.

Uh-uh. Leave it. Uh-uh.

Don't do it.

>> No. Let's go.

>> Oh, that was better.

I love spring. They're all nice during

this time of year. I hope it won't be

such a brutal summer, but that is

wishful thinking. Here in LA, it gets

pretty hot in the summer. We'll

sometimes get heat waves that are like

over three digits. I wonder how that is

compared to the heat in Taiwan. Juan I

both agree that we love the lifestyle

there, and I know we always talk about

potentially moving to Asia, and that is

always a dream. That is always a dream.

I think I've dreamed about it since I

was little, and I don't know, maybe

these are limitations that I'm setting

on myself. There's nothing really

stopping us. Like if we really wanted

to, we're not completely tied down to

our jobs, or I should say our jobs don't

require us to stay in one location. The

major issue is that if we lived in

Taiwan, all of our clients that we've

spent many years building here in the

US, I don't know if those partnerships

will still exist. We could still create

content while we're there, but that

would mean a huge huge pay cut until we

figure out working with brands in

Taiwan. I've never been to Taiwan in the

summer, but I've heard it gets really

really humid and hot and pretty

uncomfortable, but at least they're only

a few months out of the year. I don't

know if moving to another country is

necessarily going to solve our problems.

It's like one of those things where

you'll never know until you try. I think

about it every day, but I'm not really

doing anything about it. I think

exploring in your 20s and 30s as well.

As you get older and you start picking

up on more and more responsibilities, I

think inevitably your life gets more and

more tied down to your lifestyle. I'm

afraid. I'm afraid of taking that leap,

but I also know people do it. People do

it all the time and I don't know, maybe

you just have to be brave and just go

for it. Not that I'm not happy here, but

I feel like that is the next step that I

want to experience, but at the same

time, I'm holding myself back. My

family's here, our house. I love our

house. One, I have spent a lot of money

and a lot of effort and love in making

this place our home. Like, do you guys

remember us painting this wall? I mean,

that's so small, but even us recently

getting these new windows, that was a

big investment for the house. We redid

the concrete here and put in rocks

because we wanted to be able to camp in

our backyard. There's so many things

that we have worked towards here and I

love it. But, there's always that sense

of wonder, you know?

Yeah. But, this is a gorgeous home that

I'm so grateful for.

She loves it back here.

She loves sunbathing and spending the

day out here.

Being in the dirt.

Today's a cold, chilly day.

Riding on a cold day definitely beats a

hot day.

Getting on and off the bike was a little

easier today. That's a little win that

I'm happy about. The next thing I have

to figure out is my saddle is really

angled up into my crotch. I'm feeling a

lot of pressure in my crotch. I've

already tried playing with the seat a

little bit, but this is the best I've

got. Wow, look at the trees.

I'm wearing glasses today so that the

bugs don't fly in my eyeballs. I didn't

have the best day today. I stayed up

late last night and I woke up late. I

felt really rushed for work. I had a lot

of deadlines. I knew I needed this ride.

I just needed to get out. And it feels

good.

But tomorrow is going to be a better

day.

I'm going to tire myself out.

Tonight I'm going to get some good

sleep. I'm going to sleep early.

I'm going to wake up early tomorrow and

it's a new day.

When I have multiple campaigns I'm

working on, like right now I have five

campaigns I'm actively working on. Lots

of deadlines, lots of shooting, lots of

editing. I think times like this

is when I get in get really hard on

myself on timelines. As I should because

it's my job. It's on me

to get better about scheduling.

Oh.

Ah.

That wasn't bad.

I really am loving cycling.

This is a form of cardio that I'm really

enjoying. I also notice I need to be

more mindful of the way I talk to

myself. I'll catch myself vlogging and

calling out all these things about my

journey with working out and cycling.

And I just assume that people will think

"Oh, you're so weak." And you know,

people probably think that. But

why should I care?

That's something I'm really trying to

work on. Like anytime I talk about my

progress, I shouldn't compare it to

others. I shouldn't compare myself to

anyone, period. All that matters is that

I came out

and I'm pushing myself.

Wow, such a smooth ride today. It's like

barely any traffic.

Oh.

Yeah, the lights are green for me, too.

Hey.

It feels so good.

Oh, that was a big bump.

Maybe I'll try to pull over right here

and fix it.

Good thing I brought the tools.

Uh.

Uh, still not very graceful. Okay.

Actually, it's already

as far back as it could be.

I'm going to try this spot.

Right in the middle. I don't know, maybe

that would help.

Should I get a proper bike fit? They're

just so expensive.

Okay.

Let's

Let's hope that fixed my problem.

Is this snug?

Okay.

Weehee.

Does that feel better?

Oh. Ooh la la.

You know what?

Okay. I think that's better.

It's not amazing.

I don't know, I guess we'll have to see.

Huh.

Feel like that wasn't it, either. As I

started riding a little bit, it just

felt so uncomfortable. I think I should

just move it back

to where it was.

Maybe I don't move it all the way back

to where it was, but just a smidge. It

doesn't feel right.

I'm realizing now that my saddle

naturally has like

more of a curve up front, so maybe I

just need a different saddle.

I got to get home. It's getting dark. It

doesn't look like it on camera, but it's

starting to get dark.

Try to straighten it. Okay.

Okay.

If this still doesn't feel great, it is

what it is. I'm just going to get home

and

figure it out. My legs are really

overextended. It's like It feels like

I'm barely reaching the pedals.

I'm just going to get home first.

Oh my god.

That's a squirrel.

Oof. Like when I'm reaching for my front

handlebars, it feels like I'm completely

locked out.

Key.

I don't know who needs to hear this, but

in case no one has told you yet, it's

okay to be aggressively average or

mediocre at your hobbies.

Growing up I was conditioned to think

it's normal to expect highly of myself.

But don't get me wrong, being a

self-motivated person is important to

me. But the problem with that is I only

saw failure as failure. Not being good

at something meant punishment, and being

good at something wasn't truly something

I did for me. I was doing it for the

approval and validation from my family.

And I've carried this way of thinking

most of my life. The moment I'm not good

at something, I somehow tie it to

punishment. Like I have to beat myself

down because that was what I was

conditioned to believe. Well, the good

news is we all grow up. We learn to

unlearn things, and if you're lucky,

you'll find something you genuinely

enjoy doing as an adult. And when you

do, don't be so hard on yourself. You

don't need to overthink it.

>> Mhm.